A/N I'm really not sure where I'm going to go with this story or if I will even continue it. So please let me know what you think about the first part or if you have any ideas for future chapters.
Bella's POV
Movies always end with the implied happily ever after. Too bad real life isn't a movie where the characters lives end when the credits roll. Nope, in real life you have kids, and husbands work too much and you end up sleeping with your next door neighbor.
At least that's my life. My name is Bella Cullen, I'm married to Edward and we have three kids. . Cora is 5, Jason is 3 and Addie is 6 months old. I'm exhausted. Not exhausted enough to stop sleeping with the neighbor just too exhausted to sleep with Edward if he makes it home. He's a doctor and he works long hours sometimes sleeping at the hospital. He's the best at what he does. If he put half that effort into our marriage maybe I wouldn't be screwing the neighbor. Jasper, I wouldn't be screwing Jasper. Edward doesn't know I even talk to him. He thinks I write all day. And I do write but not all day. I need inspiration and that's just what Jasper is.
What about the kids? They have a nanny. Rosalie is amazing. She knows about Jasper and I know about her sneaking her boyfriend into her bedroom almost every night. It wasn't always like this. When Cora was a baby I would write during her naptime and after bedtime and I was the perfect wife and mother. Edward was home every night and weekend. We were the perfect couple. We were the happily ever after. Ha. Then Jason was born and the housework was slipping and I was too tired for sex and he didn't understand because he's a man. We fought a lot. I never wrote anymore. He spent more and more time at the hospital. I put up with it for a long time until I filed for divorce. Then I got pregnant with Addie and he promised me the world. And a nanny. I'm still waiting for the world.
Every time I leave Jasper's I feel guilty but at the same time I cannot wait to get back to him. Addie hardly even knows who I am. Rosalie is the only one who can make her happy. Cora and Jason cling to me when I'm around but if they are upset it's Rosalie they run too.
This isn't the life I want but I can't seem to figure out how to get out of it. I still love Edward but I think we're too far apart to find our way back. I don't love Jasper but the sex is hot and I need attention. I barely remember how to be a mother. The only thing I'm doing right is my writing.
This is life after the credits roll.
Edward's POV
Bella doesn't think I know she's screwing the neighbor or that Rosalie sneaks her boyfriend in every night. I'm a doctor, I'm not stupid. I know when people are lying to me.
So why do I not leave Bella and fire Rosalie? I love my kids and they need their mother. Well they actually just need the nanny but I need Bella. Even though I don't really have her. Is any of this making any sense?
We met in college and got married after I finally graduated. Bella never finished saying she was bored and didn't really need to finish to be a writer. She was right. 4 bestsellers prove it. We were so happy and when Cora came along it was that much better. Then Jason came along and Bella couldn't handle it. The house was always a mess and the kids were always whining and dirty. She never wanted to have sex. She claims all this is normal with 2 children. My mom had 4 and I remember the house always looking decent and us always being happy and clean. I look back now and think she was depressed. She stopped writing and she was just miserable to be around. Instead of helping her or even finding her help I spent more and more time at work. I'm a very in demand doctor so it wasn't hard. She finally asked for a divorce and I reluctantly agreed. Then she found out she was pregnant with Addie and I didn't want to miss out on being around Addie as a baby. Babies form the greatest bonds my mom always said. So I begged her to stay promising her I would be home more and that I would hire a nanny. In comes Rosalie but bad habits are hard to break. Once Rosalie started Bella slowly starting writing again but she never really started mothering again. She just writes. Oh and screws the neighbor. Rosalie is the mother and the cook and housekeeper and I see Bella look at her with jealousy sometimes. She wants her role back but just like I don't how to quit working all the time, she doesn't know how to be a mother anymore.
I want her back but I don't even know where to begin. Maybe I should start by killing Jasper. As fun as that would be I don't think I would do well in prison.
I left the hospital early today hoping to spend some time with the kids. Addie doesn't even know who I am, that's how good the bonding went.
"Daddy!" Cora yells as I walk through the door. They look like they are all ready to head out.
"Rosalie where are you taking them? I was hoping to spend the afternoon with them."
"I'm sorry Mr. Cullen; Cora has dance practice every Friday. Then we usually pick up pizza and a movie." She seems nervous; I guess I hardly ever talk to her.
"Why don't I take you Cora, and Rosalie can stay here will Jason and Addie? It will be fun." Dance class sounds miserable actually.
"No thank you Daddy, I want Rosie to take me." Of course she does.
"Well, OK then I will stay here with Jason and Addie." Rosalie looks at me like I'm some criminal trying to take her kids hostage. I don't blame her. She tries to put Jason down and he flips out so I end up just keeping Addie. She gives me her bag and tells me to feed her in an hour.
As soon as she walks out the door Addie starts crying and I have no idea what I'm supposed to do. I'm walking around bouncing and shhing her when Bella comes in the living room from her office.
"Why is she crying?" I'm surprised she even noticed.
"I don't know why she's crying Bella! If I knew why I would stop her!" I snap and then feel bad.
"Well where is Rosalie?" She asks quietly, probably afraid I'm going to yell her at again.
"She took Cora and Jason to dance practice. I told her to leave Addie with me." How sad is it that neither of us knew our daughter had dance practice today?
"Oh. Can I hold her?"
"She's your daughter Bella; of course you can hold her." I had no idea it was this bad.
She takes her and tries the bouncing and shhing thing too. Then she starts singing to her and Addie stops for a minute and then starts laughing. Bella starts laughing too and she looks happier than I have seen her since Jason was born I think.
"I guess my singing hasn't improved any." She says through her now hysterical laughter.
We spend the rest of the time Rosalie and the older kids are out sitting on the floor playing with Addie.
Rosalie comes back and Bella changes instantly. She stands to go back to her office but I stop her and ask her to go to dinner with me. She hesitates but agrees.
"Where do you want to go?" I ask her in the car.
"Um we don't have to but I really want McDonalds." Seriously? I take my wife out for the first time in almost two years and she wants fast food? "It's just that Rosalie always cooks so healthy and gets annoyed if I bring in fast food because then the kids want it."
"McDonalds it is. You know Bella, you are still the mother. You don't have to worry about annoying the nanny." I'm surprised at how easy it is to be nice to her knowing all I do. But she's still my wife and I still really love her.
"Am I Edward? Am I really the mother? Rosalie is the one, who knows their activity schedule, and what their favorite meals are, and what bear Jason likes to sleep with and she always knows how to make Addie stop crying. I don't know this stuff. She's the one Cora screams for when she has nightmares and the one they run too when they get hurt. So am I really the mother?" And she starts crying.
"You can change all that Bella. We can change together." I still hate when she cries.
"I think it's too late Edward. For that, for us, for everything." And maybe she's right but from this moment forward I will do everything I can to prove her wrong.
A/N I'm looking for good stories to read. I like Bella paired with Jasper, Emmett or Carlisle the best so if you have any good ones let me know.