Disclaimer: don't own divergent. This is a drabble about Tobias when Tris dies. It's a rewrite in my thoughts and words. Hope you like it.
(TPOV)
I feel cold. My head is submerged in water so I can't hear the cries around me. I only hear muffles. My feet are stuck to the ground that I once walked on with her hand in mine. Now I can only imagine her walking around the corner to embrace me with those bright eyes. She can't be gone. She promised me that she would stop being reckless and that she wouldn't leave me. I stand there frozen as the tears fall from their eyes. I deny the fact that she's gone. But of course she died; of course she dies for a traitor. Selfless was her. I want to hold her in my arms, smell the sun in her hair, and feel her lips against mine again. But she's gone and I don't cry because I deny it.
Seeing her lying there cold, unmoving was the sharp stab of reality. I feel only anger and sadness wash over me. I wait for her eyes to open and a smile to spread across her face, but she remains motionless. I can't deny it now as I weep into her stiff hands. Those hands that caressed my wounds, that held me tight, that saved me time and time again.
I want to die and leave this to go to her but she would hate me for that. My eyes feel dry yet tears still spill from them. I found life in her and now I found death that will never leave me.
For years I am pained at her name, but it gets easier. She whispered to me, "Be brave." I will be.
How did you like it? Check out my other one-shot from tris' pov after she dies. Called Gift of Death.