A/N: I apologise if this is confusing I'll get on my computer ASAP and put up a better version, but I've been working on this for a few days and finally finished and I was really excited to get it up, but my Blackberry is a bit pants for line breaks and what not so yeah bear with me. Please Review.
June 18th 1998
I walked into the meadow, grasping my small son's pram for fear of falling. The place was deserted, an icy wind rustled the fallen leaves and I shivered. I pressed my eyes shut and remembered all of the good times we'd had over the years.
September 1st '71
"Sirius, Sirius Black, and you are?" The scruffy boy said holding out a hand expectantly.
"Remus Lupin, nice to meet you." I replied.
"I'm James," another boy cut in. "James Potter."
I looked down at my feet. I could almost feel the tension in the carriage.
"So what house do you want to be in?" Sirius broke the silence.
"Gryffindor!" James yelped immediately.
"I don't mind," I mumbled. "What about you?"
"Well my whole family is in Slytherin, but probably Gryffindor myself."
James stared at us both in disbelief, at me for not caring and at Sirius for being of a Slytherin descent.
September 21st '71
The three of us gathered around the fire in our dorm room, all having been placed in Gryffindor. James was laid awkwardly on the floor snoring quietly.
"Remus, is there something you haven't told us? You seem different somehow." Sirius whispered.
"I, promise me you won't tell, not even James not for now." I replied.
"I promise Remus."
"I'm a werewolf, it getting close to the full moon and I get irritable, my family was attacked when I was about 6. So now you can run away screaming that I'm gonna eat you or whatever." I told him.
Sirius hugged me lightly. "I don't believe you'd eat me."
I shook my head, half laughing half crying.
"Why are you crying Mooney?"
"Ummm, what did you call me?" I asked raising my eyebrows.
"Mooney, sorry it seemed fitting."
"I like it actually." I smiled at him, before doubling over in crippling pain.
"Mooney?"
"Move, let me out I don't want anyone to get hurt. Not You! Need Dumbledore." I managed to force out.
Sirius dragged me to the Headmasters office where he left me, falling asleep in the corridor outside waiting.
April 13th '72
"What the hell?" Sirius yelled.
"Siri, what's up?"
"I've got a tail!"
"You didn't tell me you were an animagus. Your gonna be a black dog from what I can tell." I replied matter of factly.
"Ani-what! I don't want to be a dog!" He yelled back.
"A part of you does, that's what happens to people with animagi blood, and part of their subconscious determines what animal they become."
"Maybe because I want to watch over you when there's a full moon?"
"Possibly." I smiled at my best friend and hugged him heartily.
"Well I can stay with you all the time now Mooney I'll always be safe." He flashed me a mischievous grin.
June 25th '72
"Padfoot, don't you dare!" I shouted as Siri bent over about to transform in our cramped carriage on the way back to London.
He let out a pleading whine, even in human form.
"No, Padfoot, you can't keep doing this, it's not fair, I can't keep lying to James when you almost get caught. Its bad enough lying to him about myself."
"Sorry Mooney," he straightened up. "I hadn't thought of it like that. At least we're going home for summer so you don't have to lie to everyone for a while."
"Yeah I'm glad, lying is tiring, promise me you'll write Padfoot."
"Yeah, you too Mooney."
"Of course."
The train slowly began to stop and carriages emptied out onto the platform, I lost Padfoot amidst a large group of parents.
September 2nd '72
"How was summer?" James asked politely.
"Lonely." Sirius complained.
"Painful." I muttered hoping James wouldn't hear from the door.
"Remus!" Siri and James jumped up at me, both attacking me with hugs.
"Owwww, guys get off of me!" I complained clutching my side.
"What's wrong?" Sirius asked, a panicked look on his face. "You didn't mention anything in your letters Mooney." He slapped a hand over his mouth almost immediately
"Mooney?" James asked.
"Sit down, it's about time I told you, just hear me out." I said casting muffliato on our carriage and a locking charm on the door.
James sat down opposite Sirius and I.
"I'm a werewolf." I said bluntly. "When I was about 6 my family got attacked by Grayback. My family all died but I got changed."
"Your a," James struggled.
"Werewolf, and I'm an animagus." Siri finished his sentence.
"What! You two have been lying to me, how long?" James started to get angry.
"Since last Christmas, but Padfoot only. CRAP!" I realised my mistake. "Sirius only lied to you because I asked him to lie for me, and I'm the reason his form developed. So don't be angry at him." I finished.
"I'm not angry, I'm upset you would keep this from me." James stood up and rushed out of the carriage.
"That went well!" I muttered sarcastically.
December 25th '72
We spent Christmas by the fire. No secrets anymore we had agreed on.
"You like your presents?" James asked.
Siri and I both nodded.
"Love 'em." Siri added.
We went down to the Great Hall and ate our Christmas dinner before returning to the dormitory. We were the only Gryffindors that had stayed over Christmas so it was quiet and empty.
June 22nd '73
"I can't believe that when we come back we'll be Third Years." James said excitedly.
The train started to slow as we approached the station.
"Another year boys." Siri slung his arms over my shoulders.
"Keep in touch." I asked them both.
"Of course Mooney, we wouldn't ignore you ALL summer." James joked.
Sirius swatted his arm. "He's winding you up we'll both write as often as you want."
We all jumped off the train. My god parents came over to us.
"Hi." We chorused.
"Remus, we wondered if maybe you'd like to invite Sirus to stay with us this summer, I asked his parents they seemed fine with it. We asked James' parents to but you are going on holiday are you not." Ted asked.
"Yeah, we're going to travel around America I think." James told them.
"I'd love you to come and stay." I whispered to Sirius.
"I'd love to come." He replied. To both myself and my family.
"That's settled." They both smiled and after we had left James with his family the four of us set off for home.
August 31st '73
"The summer goes by so fast; I can't believe we're already going back Mooney."
"I know it's unreal." I replied as we pulled our trunks into an empty carriage and waited for James to arrive.
"Hey Guys!" James yelled when he saw us.
"How was America?" I squeaked as he crushed us into a hug.
"Great, how was your summer?" He asked.
"Not lonely." Siri joked.
"Not painful." I added remembering last year's conversation.
"This years gonna be fun!" James smiled.
December 25th '73
"Merry Christmas." James yelled pointing at the mistletoe above me and Siri.
"I hate you." We both muttered.
"James go away. Its magical mistletoe, we can't get out anyway so you don't need to watch." Siri snapped.
I had realized that I didn't like girls a long time ago, I'd secretly hoped nothing like this would happen. My heart would race whenever I was close to Padfoot, especially when alone.
"So are we doing this, or are we staying here all day."
I didn't move or speak.
"Mooney, you've been acting strange lately. What's up?"
"'S'nothing." I whispered.
Sirius hugged me tightly. "Mooney, its obviously something so you can tell me. Maybe we should get out of here first." He said gesturing to the mistletoe above us.
I nodded and looked into his eyes.
He smiled at me reassuringly and put his hand round my neck as he leaned into me. I felt his hot breath tickling my face. He pressed his lips gently to mine. I half froze, taking a few seconds to react. I pushed him hard against the wall and deepened the kiss as he moaned into my mouth and knotted his fingers in my hair. We kissed for a while but eventually moved apart both smiling.
"When did you get so pushy?" Sirius asked winking at me.
"Same time you got needy, I swear you've ripped out half of my hair." I rubbed my head.
"So I think maybe we should go and talk." He said as we wandered into the common room.
"So you two finally kissed?" James laughed.
Our talk was put off until after Christmas. We all left a little over an hour later to go home for the holidays.
January 7th. '74
"James could you give us a minute?" I asked politely.
"Sure." James stood up and left the carriage.
I cast some privacy spells and looked over at Sirius.
"So, did you have a good Christmas?" I whispered.
"I should have stayed at school." He said blankly. "After your little gift. Christmas went downhill." He smiled weakly at the memory.
"Siri, do you like me in that way?"
"Yes!" He sighed loudly.
"Good," I tried to come up with a joke, but realised there were easier ways to cheer him up.
I scooted closer to him and slid my arm around his waist. Letting my breath tickle his ear as I used my other hand to play with his messy black curls. He turned to look at me, longing present in his clear blue eyes. I kissed his forehead, then his nose and then both cheeks determined to make him wait. Then I slowly pressed my mouth to his, I soon found myself running my tongue along his bottom lip which promptly lowered allowing me to push inside and taste him. I let my hands drift down his body and wrapped my arms tighter around his waist as we broke the kiss both desperate for air.
June 21st '74
I walked up to the fire and floo called Ted.
"Hi Remus, Dora's doing great. What do you need son?"
"Good, I know that house is going to be a bit cramped now with the baby, but I think Orion has been beating Sirius again, could he stay with us. I doubt they'll even miss him. He's been acting strange since he went home last weekend." I asked quietly.
"Of course he can Sirius is always welcome, did you and he talk about what happened before Christmas?"
"It's all sorted." I skirted the actual question.
"Well that's good, it's only 3 weeks until the end of the year now, I'll get your room ready for you and Sirius."
"Thanks Ted. I'll talk to you later. Bye."
I walked up to our room to find the door magically locked.
"Alohomora." I muttered.
I saw Sirius stood facing a mirror with his shirt on his bed, his already pale skin was covered in harsh white scars as well as some deep cuts that had not yet healed.
"GET OUT!" He screamed.
"I'm not going anywhere Sirius and you're not going back there, I already asked Ted if you could stay with us."
Tears began to fall from his eyes, I pulled him into a bone crushing hug.
"You are never ever going back there, I wont leave you ever again, I'm so sorry. I love you Sirius." I gushed pressing light kisses on his head.
"I love you too Mooney." He mumbled against my neck. "I've waited so long to hear you say that."
September 1st '74
"So how was your summer James?" I asked.
"Not as eventful as yours." He smiled as he gestured towards my hand, which was intertwined with Sirius'.
I laughed at him and threw my arm over his shoulder.
"Awww is Jamesey scared we're gonna leave him" Sirius toyed.
I pretended to slap Siri on the thigh. "Don't be nasty. Or I'll withhold sex for a while."
"Did not need to hear that.!" James protested.
"Okay, I'll have to be nice then." Sirius said mockingly.
"I'm leaving you on your own, gooseberry isn't my thing. Later guys." James said as he closed the carriage door.
I looked over at Sirius. "So." I whispered brushing hair out of his eyes.
He pressed his lips harshly to mine, we fought for dominance in the kiss. I eventually won but it wasn't long before we broke apart in desperate need of oxygen.
"Why is it that you, the skinny quiet boy, end up winning every time?" He mumbled breathlessly into my neck.
"I think its the wolf in me, it wants to devour you."
"I hope your not hungry." Sirius joked.
"Sexually devour, although that pretty little neck of yours certainly looks tasty." I mumbled as I bit his neck and flicked my tongue across the mark that remained.
"Guys, we're at Hogwarts." James muttered awkwardly.
"Sorry James, you shouldn't have had to see that, it won't happen again." I mumbled.
He shook his head. "Not a problem, I think its cute, but don't make a habit of it."
March 10th '75
"Sirius, I found the room of requirement. We can, y'know, have ALONE time." I panted having run from the 7th floor to try and find Sirius, who turned out to be 5 floors down in the Library. A devilish grin spread on his face and he stood up and followed me out. When we reached the wall where the door had previously appeared I stopped and thought about what we needed. I heard a crack and the door appeared we rushed inside not wanting to be seen.
A huge bed was at one end of the room, to the right an arch leading into an oversized bathroom with a large jacuzzi and a spacious shower. I realized that I now looked overly perverted.
I caught Sirius around the waist and kissed him passionately, his hands wandered down my chest and he let one rest at the waist band of my trousers. I picked him up, still kissing him, and walked over to the bed where I laid him down.
"You still sure about this Siri?" I asked.
"Yes." He grabbed my tie and pulled me over him.
I tore of his shirt, played a little with the button and zipper on his jeans, before discarding them leaving Sirius laid underneath me in only his tight black boxers.
"Leave nothing to the imagination?" I asked raising an eyebrow.
He flipped me so I was laid on the bed as he made light work of my clothing and stripped me naked. I saw a smile light up his face, he pressed a kiss to my mouth then kissed softly down my jaw, to my chest nibbling a little at my nipples until he finally reached my aching cock. He licked up the pre-cum beading at my tip. Then took me into his hot mouth. It was not long before I was almost ready to explode.
"Siri, slow down." I gasped between moans of pleasure.
I brought his face up to mine and rolled so I once again straddled him. I pressed my lips to his and thought of preparing him. I felt my fingers slicken with lube.
"You really sure you wanna do this, no going back now love." I whispered.
"Do it, PLEASE." He moaned.
I pushed one finger slowly inside, giving him time to adjust before adding another and then a third. Soon I withdrew my fingers, I lined myself up and pushed inside slowly
I woke up the next morning still inside him.
"Siri, we need to get up." I whispered pulling out of him slowly.
I ran a bath. Then went back in to get Sirius. I lifted him off the bed and carried him into the bathroom laying him down in the jacuzzi and climbing in after him. He woke up slowly after I splashed water around him.
"Hey sleepy." I mumbled biting around his ear.
"Hi pretty boy, you enjoy your birthday present?"
I smiled and nodded.
I thought then of all the other times. All the other ways...
Summer '78
"So, you and Lily then mate." Sirius said to James. "Strictly a one wolf man, but you picked well."
"Yeah, I'm still in shock, I wasn't sure if she would say yes."
"So when are you going to get married then?" I asked.
"We were thinking maybe this time next year."
"Not too close to ours then." Sirius beamed and stared at the silver band on his left ring finger.
April 17th '79
Sirius and I stood facing each other at the altar.
"Do you Remus John Lupin take Sirius Black to be you lawfully wedded partner?"
"I do"
"And do you Sirius Black take Remus John Lupin to be your lawfully wedded partner?"
"I do"
"I now pronounce you," the registrar stumbled.
"Husband and husband you may now kiss the Groom?" James provided.
We obliged.
December 25th '79
"I've got a surprise." Lily beamed.
We all turned to face her.
"I'm pregnant, I'm due in July and they think its a little boy." She said happily.
There were congratulations, smiles, hugs and kisses in plenty. Although I felt a hint of sadness pang at the thought Sirius and I would never experience this.
July 31st '80
"Its a boy, its a, I'm a dad. I've got a son.!" James yelled running at Siri and I.
"Hey, congratulations, you thought of any names?" I said as the three of us walked over where Lily was laid.
"Harry James Potter." She smiled and pressed a kiss to the baby's forehead.
July 31st '81
"Happy Birthday to You, Happy Birthday to You, Happy Birthday Dear Harry, Happy Birthday to You." We all sang as the one year old giggled happily.
I had an almost false smile plastered on my face.
"We'll figure something out Rem, I promise we can adopt or anything. I know it hurts you."
"I'm happy, I just wish we could have the same thing Pad."
If only we had know then that these happy go lucky days were numbered.
November 1st '81
"I can't believe Pettigrew ended up selling them out. He was always so quiet." a voice rang.
Sirius and I walked through Diagon Alley as I cradled Harry. Sirius was quiet his expression blank. He didn't say a word until we reached home.
"James and Lily are gone." He whispered.
"Baby, we have to be strong now, for Harry they wanted us to look after him, we have to prove they were right to choose us baby." I murmured in his ear rubbing his arm softly.
September 1st '91
"Harry, you'll be okay, I promise you, it will be christmas before you know it kid." I reassured the small brunette that was about to leave for Hogwarts.
"Okay, promise me you'll write Uncle Remmy." He asked.
"I'll even make Uncle Sirius write too. Now go on before all of the carriages get full."
"Bye Uncle Sirius, Bye Uncle Remmy." Harry called running toward the train.
Many heads shot around to see if it was true. Their eyes flicking between us and Harry. Whispers broke out quickly and Siri and I apparated as soon as the train had set off.
May 29th '94
"Remus, they've found a way for two male wizards to have children, Remmy come and look." Sirius yelled.
Mere hours later we were at a clinic being put on a waiting list for the treatment.
"So you understand that it isn't 100%?" the doctor asked.
"Yes, but its the only chance we have so its worth a try."
I nodded in agreement with Sirius.
"Okay so who would be carrying the child?" The doctor asked looking at me and then my records, clearly notcing my lycanthropy.
"I would be." Sirius said pointedly trying to avoid a scene.
"Well we need to do a full health examination to ensure you can handle the pregnancy first."
We followed the doctor into an examination room, he cast various spells to gain the information he required. Withing 15 minutes he was leading us back though to his office.
"Well everything seems to be in order here," the doctor started. "If you would come back in on the 12th of June we will begin administering the potions required and you'll be impregnated on the 22nd. You understand that this process is much more exact than a 'normal' pregnancy, you will have your child on the 22nd of March next year."
We both beamed and Sirius nodded excitedly.
December 24th '94
"Ooh Remmy I felt him kick, give me your hand see." Sirius yelped excitedly.
"Baby, calm down, I believe you. But Harry's presents need wrapping so I need to concentrate." I reassured my heavily pregnant partner.
"Less than 3 months now Remmy aren't you excited?"
"Of course I'm excited, I'm going to be a Dad, how could I not be, but I'm not carrying him so I have to remember the rest of the world too baby." I assured him.
I tried to make my magic work faster so I could turn my attention to Padfoot.
"Look see, now I'm done. Where was he kicking?" I whispered sweetly.
Siri pointed sleepily and I pressed my palm over the spot to feel my son kick. Then quickly picked up my husband and carried him to our room laying him on the bed and wrapping him in the quilt before sliding into the other side.
March 22nd '95 (Random A/N: MY BIRTHDATE!)
Harry and I sat nervously outside the operating theatre.
"He will be okay right?" Harry asked timidly.
"Of course he will."
"Mr. Lupin, Master Potter, you can come in now. Mr. Sirius is okay as is the baby." A nurse told us hold the door open for us to walk through.
Sirius was sat up on the bed holding a bundle of white I assumed was my son.
"Hey," I said. "Look at what you did baby, hello little James I'm your Daddy, and this wonderful man holding you is your other Daddy and this," I tugged Harry's sleeve. "Is your godfather, his Dad was called James too."
"Your Daddy likes to do that." Sirius joked. Referring to my habit of random babbling.
June 18th '96
"NO!" I screamed as the flash of light hit Sirius squarely in the chest and he fell back into the veil.
I transformed and landed on Bellatrix in one leap, pinning her to the hard ground before tearing her to shreds with my claws. Tears fell from my eyes all throughout.
"Mooney, stop now, you can't bring him back. Think of James." Harry mumbled stroking the fur on my back.
I transformed back into my shivering human state and laid on the rock next to Padfoot. The ministry opted to not charge me. Completely dismissing the fact that I had murdered Bellatrix Lestrange. I was allowed to go home to my young son with Harry at my side.
"We'll be okay won't we Remmy." Harry asked in a somewhat innocent and fearful tone.
"Yes Harry, we will be okay." I assured him, not feeling truth in what I'd said.
How could I ever be okay again, my mate, the father of my son, the man I have loved since I was 13 and we were school friends was just killed by his cousin in front of my very eyes. How would I ever be able to take care of James now. How would I ever recover from this loss. Every one I've ever loved, aside Harry and Dora, now dead I felt completely alone.
September '97
"Rem' I have to go on the run and you and James have to go into hiding, its for your own good."
"I'm doing this for Sirius, not for you." I snapped at him.
I saw the hurt look in his eyes and immediately apologised. He nodded and showed me where our safe house would be, leaving me shortly afterwards.
"So Remus, why do you want us to stay here?" The Weasley twins asked simultaneously.
"This place is big and empty, and I don't like it. So shut up asking questions and agree to this will you?" I almost begged. George nodded and wandered out of the room.
"Sure. Rem? Is that all?" Fred asked.
"Yeah, Fred I'm sorry about being snappy its just hard for me." I murmured.
"Rem, its not a problem I know what you're going though here mate. Y'know if you need any help with anything I'm here, George too." He hugged me tight.
May 4th '98
Harry looked over and smiled half heartedly at me. He scrambled over.
"Rem, its over Voldemort is dead!" He forced out.
I held him tight. "Well done Harry."
I saw Draco Malfoy sat alone sobbing in a corner. I managed to slip through the crowd to him.
"Draco? What's wrong?"
"I'm fine Professor." He tried.
"Sure you are," I pulled him to his feet and we started to walk through the castle. "Draco, its over now." I pointed at his arm.
"Oh, how did you know?" He looked disgusted.
"Harry lives with me, I believe you were forced into it." I reasoned with him.
He nodded at me flushing slightly pink.
"That's why its gone now. He's dead, Draco you can be who you want now."
"Rem, Padfoot asked me to say 'If you don't live a long and happy life, with our son I'm gonna kick you out of heaven when you get here.' His exact words." Harry said before he noticed Draco standing beside Remus.
I chuckled. "Thanks Harry."
"Harry." Draco said in a small voice.
"Yeah?"
"Could we talk? You should understand." Draco said with a severe amount of vulnerability.
"Yes Draco." Harry moved towards Draco as I turned away and returned to the great hall.
"Remus!" The twins shouted hugging me.
"You are alive!" George released me from his grasp.
"God you bloody scared us!" Fred held on tighter then backed off.
"MORON!" They both yelled swatting at me.
(June 18th '98)
I opened my eyes when little James began to sob, I couldn't stand to see tears form in those piercing blue eyes.
I was forced to remember the cold, hard, grey stone protruding from the ground in front of me.
Here lies; Sirius Black.
I laid the charmed flowers down in front of the stone. A dozen black roses for the man I had so desperately loved, it hurt to remember. I turned to my son and lifted him into my arms, his black curls brushed my face as I held him.
"Where's Daddy gone?" He asked quietly. "I miss Daddy, Daddy come home soon?"
And with that my universe ceased, with only a small longing whimper.
A/N: I realise the people that this is aimed it probably won't see it however I'll put it on anyway cause this bugged me. And yeah I did take the comments off because if you want to leave reviews like that have the guts to make an account and leave it signed!
To Anna (Anonymous) ["Seriously? A pregnant bottom Sirius, he is not a bloody girl. I'm sorry but this story is totally ridiculous."]
Yeah, I did realise that the pregnancy bit was unclear but (yeah I've changed that now) I never said Sirius was bottom. THAT WAS REMUS' BIRTHDAY PRESENT! Also as Remus is a werewolf (not a pussy cat!) why do people find it so hard to believe he'd top?
And To 'O' (Anonymous) [Your comment was too long to put here!]
I removed your comment only because it related to the previous. I'm sorry you felt that way about it, but you did make me realise the story was somewhat jumpier than I'd first intended. My Apologies.
Basically if you just read those and are about to review posting anything similar without signing the review, Please don't both because I will simply remove it and eventually I'll lose my patience and just stop anonymous comments...
I hope some of you did actually enjoy this! I am going to continue this, there will be more Slash! The next chapter is from Harry's PoV... :D x (Sorry for the rant)