Okay, so this is my first fanfic. I've had this idea running in my head for awhile and thought, "Hey, why not?" So yeah. I've taken inspiration from many other stories, I sure hope I'm not taking anything from anyone ^^U Please be nice, or at least try to. You can point out my mistakes if you'd like, we all learn from mistakes don't we? If you have any questions, please do ask away, send me a message anytime! Sorry if this is short..

Disclaimer: Really? If I owned Kingdom Hearts and any of it's characters, would I be sitting here writing fanfiction? Of course not! I'd be making some huge changes to the game! (heart)

Full summary: Roxas is a victim of cancer. He struggles through each day with the thought of dying the next. While everyone lives a wonderful life, he suffers through misery, heart break and much more. With a fake smile on his face, he gets through each day. But the one day he spills all his bottled up feelings and is in tears, that is the day he is walked in on by his twin's boyfriend, Riku. In an effort to console him, he stays with Roxas as he spills all of what's going on to him finally, leaving out the part about his affection for him. Since then, the two become very close, Riku being very protective of him. Roxas begins to slowly and helplessly fall for the silverette once more, but he wasn't the only one this time. With past lovers, current drama and Roxas' time to live, they will get through it all, somehow.

Parings: Riku/Roxas (main), Vani/Ven (later), Axel/Sora (later)

Vani/Roku (past and one-sided), Riku/Sora (beginning and soon past)

Chapter One: Insomnia

The strum of guitars began and the blond began to stir. It was followed by a meek voice, the voice of a girl singing softly. Music. The light guitar he knows so well.

I feel so stupid because I'm in love with yo-

He picks up the device and flips it open, pressing it against his ear, giving a groggy hello.

"Wake up, Chibi. We have to go, you promised to help me."

Azure eyes shot wide open. How could he have forgotten? He stumbled a little but non-the-less bolted up from his bed. He could hear the chuckle on the other side of the phone. That sent a shiver up his spine.

"Not funny Riku..." He pouted and he literally could feel that grin plastered on the silverette's face, followed by another chuckle. A light pink stained his cheeks. God, the things this man did to him..

"Well, what are you waiting for? Get ready! I'll be there in a few, Sor will keep me busy while you finish, ja ne~." And a 'click!' The youth set his phone down on his bed next to him, his hands immediately going to touch his reddend cheeks. Damnit.. He shook it off and stood up, making his way to the bathroom to shower and freshen up.

Roxas gave a content sigh when he stepped out. That was a well needed shower. The blond walked happily back into his room and making a beeline towards his closet. He pulled out a red plaid shirt with a black undershirt, a pair of ripped grey skin tight jeans and his worn out black and white checkered vans with some rainbow socks. The youth got dressed quickly. He looked at himself in the mirror and smiled, deciding he looked good enough and fixed his unkempt golden spikes a bit. With one last look, he turned to grab his phone and checkered messenger bag, but, before he headed out the door, he spotted the calender near his mirror, and looked at today's date. December 6th, appointment 5:45 pm. He pulled out his phone and made an event to remind himself later. 'Hmn.. better tell So.' With that, he headed out the door to the stairs, a smile still on his face. He was excited to see Riku this morning, and to spend alone time with him, even if it was just to help him with a gift for Sora. But all that shattered when he stepped foot into the living room. His brother was straddling said silverette, the two in a heated make-out session. Roxas felt his heart drop but he was forced to shake it off, putting on his usual annoyed expression.

"Get a room." He mumbled in fake irritation as he walked into the kitchen. As much as it hurt so much and his heart broke , he knew he had to keep his composure. After all, Sora saw him first, right? As if. Roxas sat down in the seat his brother put his breakfast in front of and began to idly chew on the food, something to fill the empty pit in his stomach. He was alone now, so he let his mind wander. He thought it was unfair how Sora could have happiness while he had to suffer. He saw Riku first, Sora knew very well Roxas was madly in love with the silverette, but he went and stole him either way. And when he thought he found happiness, his ex-boyfriend had to go and dump him for unknown reasons. On top of that, he's been feeling extremely sick, he was lucky to be at least okay today, thank god they were gonna get results today. His train of thought was cut when he felt a hand at his shoulder, causing him to jump up, stumble and fall back into the body of the one who caught him off guard. He heard a chuckle and he shivered. Of course it had to be Riku. His cheeks flushed a pretty pink as he averted his eyes away from the older man. Another chuckle and the blond could swear he was about to melt if he kept this up.

"C'mon Roxy, we gotta go." With that, Riku turned to leave. He shook it off once more and grabbed his messenger bag, looking at his phone. It was 11:45 am. The blond stuffed his phone in his pocket and walked to the door, grabbing his black coat and slipping it on, he swung his messenger bag over his shoulder and looked up to come face to face with some more heartache. His brunette twin was leaning up to his boyfriend, giving him a loving good-bye kiss, smiles and all. That should be him. That should be Roxas. The golden haired boy turned away, that dull heartache still present. Once more, hands were set on his shoulders and this time, he looked back to meet aquamarine optics and a smile. It lingered with sympathy. He hated that. Roxas turned back around and opened the door and moved so Riku could come out first. The blond turned to his brother with a his masked feelings back in place. "Sor, I have the appointment at 5:45, be sure to be ready half an hour early, I'll make sure Ri drops me off beforehand, stay safe." With a small smile, he waved and turned, walking towards Riku's car and getting in.

The car ride to the mall was spent in silence. It consisted of Riku keeping his concentration on the road and flipping off other drivers for being assholes and Roxas gazing out the windows mindlessly. Once they made it, Riku took Roxas to his favourite little cafe, Heartless. They took a small booth near the window and Riku went to get their drinks. Tch. This was out of pure sympathy and he knew it. Roxas already ate at home, but since Riku was offering, why not? Roxas sat there, letting himself get lost in his many thoughts running through his head. So much to think about, he was best at it. That's the only place he could sort out his emotions. A small string of tunes cut that short, that one other song he knew so, so well..

"Is it still me that makes you sweat? Am I who you think about in bed? When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as your sliding off your dress?"

Those lyrics made his heart race and he froze up.

"I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck-"

He flipped his phone open and pressed it against his ear. Nothing came out of his mouth, he couldn't say a thing no matter how much he tried. But he didn't have to wait long, he could feel that smug smirk on the other line and then came that bittersweet voice that was laced with lust,

'Roxy? Miss me baby?'