To Fear or Not to Fear, That is the Question.

Detective Olivia Benson just walked out of a 2-hour investigation with a rapist. She turned to Elliot a tired smile on her face.

"Hey Liv. Can't believe you finally go him to cop to the rape with only a fiber."

"Yeah, I thought he was gonna lawyer up for a little while there." She responded, her voice full of pride, "Someone's here to see you Olivia" Fin said

"Who?"

"Some Producer from a reality show." Now incredibly confused Liv Followed Fin and Elliot out of the bull pin. Surely enough a tall man in a suit stood by her desk admiring her photos. She cleared her throat loudly and stood by her desk. He pointed to a photo.

"Your mother?" He asked curiously.

"Um, yeah, you needed to see me?" She said coldly.

"Yes. My name is James Sullivan. As you undoubtedly know by now some of your Co-Workers set you up for my show. If you accept, the show is in Florida for this episode, and for the six days wee need you, we'll pay for your hotel." James Explained.

"What show are you from? What co-workers set me up? What the hell is going on here?" She rattled off al in one breath.

Just then, Cragen came out of his office. Great News for them, Cragen, Elliot, Munch, Fin, Haung, and Casey who were all in on it and Liv didn't have a clue.

Cragen began to explain, "Well in the 8 years I've known you, I haven't known you to fear anything. So together with the help of the squad and Haung, we've signed you up for Fear Factor. You will take six of your off days (with pay) and you leave tomorrow. That is an order Olivia," He said. The tone of this voice gave no room for argument.

"I hate all of you, you know that right." She said

"No you don't, you love us." Casey said, "Admit it"

"Fine, but only because my life is in your hands on a daily basis." she said half laughing.

"Well I guess some one has to go pace for her big television debut." Munch said, "If you pack a bathing suit, can you make sure it's a bikini?"

"Yeah, right Munch." She said rolling her eyes. She grabbed her purse and left for her apartment. At her apartment, she got out a small suitcase. Inside I, she put in three pairs of dark wash jeans, to go with the jeans she pulled down a black t-shirt, a blue blouse, and for the other 3 days she threw in stretch pants and t-shirts and red tank tops. From inside her dresser, she grabbed some sox as well as a light pin bikini. She only needed her tennis shoes. All of those went into the suitcase as well as her brush, toothbrush, shampoo, conditioner, body wash, sponge, and towel. Almost forgetting pajamas, she also threw in her two NYPD T-shirts and some pairs of sweat pants. She zipped the suit case shut, put it on the floor, and looked at the clock. "Damn!" She thought, "It's already 11:30!" She had gone home at 10. She changed into a tank top and a pair of silk P.J. pants and, without eating dinner fell asleep.

At 7a.m. the next morning, she woke up. She wondered why a suitcase was on the floor, but then she remembered. The show was sending a cab for her in two hours. Today they had told her not to expect much. Getting your hotel room, unpacking, and meeting the other five contestants. Then they would explain how the show worked, sign some papers. Most of the contestants would be stripped of all cell phones, laptops, and other electronics, but due to the nature of her job Olivia has to keep her cell.

She changed into kaki pants and a white tank top with a denim jacket. She put on some socks and went into the kitchen and went through the cupboards and finally settled on Cheerio's. Just as she sat down to eat, her phone began to ring, it was Elliot.

"Benson"

"Hey Liv." Elliot said.

"What do you want?" She quipped.

"To tell you to break a leg." He answered.

"I bet you mean that literally too."

"No, I mean good luck."

"Yeah sure, that's why you went behind my back to sign me up." She said angrily.

"Well we know you'd never sign yourself up even if we paid you to."

"Sorry I'm under a bit of stress lately. I didn't mean to bite your head off." She said truthfully.

"Apology accepted." He said. "I really want you to do well though, try to have fun too Liv, its not life or death."

"Yeah, I'll try to have fun, but no promises; it is called Fear Factor for a reason." She said and hung up the phone.

It was now 7:15. She sat down and ate quickly. Then she went into the living room.

She was usually at work by no later than seven on a bad day. She flipped on the TV not knowing what as on. She was usually at work at this time in the morning, but during a commercial, she gradually lost herself in thought. She started thinking of all the what if's.

What if she made a total fool out of her self? What id she couldn't do it? What if she got too scared? What if she lost? What if she won?

When she finally snapped our of thought id was 8:30. "Shit," She thought "The cab will be here soon." She had been out of it for nearly an hour. Jumping up, she went into her bedroom and grabbed her suitcase and shoes. Since she had packed her tennis shoes, she put on a pair of brown leather high-heeled boots.

She washed out her bowl, glass and spoon and put them away. Then she did a quick walk through to make sure all lights were off, rooms clean, and windows closed with the shades closed. She the took her keys off the table right as the cab pulled up. Quickly she switched off the TV and turned off the living room light.

The cab ride was uncomfortably silent. About 20 minuets later, they arrived at the airport. This was only her fourth or fifth time flying. She went through the airport security and was forced to show them her badge when the metal detector went off. After checking her bags, she boarded her flight.

Sitting down she looked around, not that many people. The fasten your seatbelt sign lit and they started to take off. Olivia hated this part. Shortly after take off, she fell asleep.

Dream Sequence-

Olivia was hooked up to a nylon harness, funny she didn't know how she got there. She was standing on a large steel drum suspended 200 ft. in the air. Suddenly she lost her footing. Then she realized she should have stopped falling by now by now. Looking up at the wires, she screamed. They had broken. Olivia looked back down at the ground. It was coming closer. She closed her eyes and prepared herself for excruciating pain. She stopped falling, but didn't feel anything, Liv attentively opened her eyes, she dad hit the ground. People were screaming for an ambulance she then blacked out.

When she woke up, she still had her eyes closed. She opened her eyes and saw all of her co-workers standing around. They were crying and dressed in black. Liv tried to tell them she was okay, but her mouth wouldn't move. She got scared and tried to move. When she stopped thinking, she heard a priest say that Olivia Benson would be missed. Missed, Black, Friends crying. She looked where she was lying, it was a coffin. They closed the lid and she could hear them nailing it shut

Olivia snapped into a sitting position her eyes flew open, she was breathing hard, heart pounding, covered in a cold sweat. She was also shaking.

That was a horrible nightmare. The pilot's voice came over the intercom: "Please sit down and fasten your seat belts we are preparing to land in Miami, Florida. Thank you for Flying American Airlines flight 86. Have a great day"

This was followed by some turbulence from the landing. The doors opened and she grabbed her bags and walked into the airport. She wondered what awaited her.