*for FireFrenzy596 for reigniting this idea in me that I had for a fic, but forgot about IN THE MIDST OF WRITING SO MANY AMELIEVER FICS*
I don't own anything…
Fear. Control. Determination. Desire. Pain. Fear.
Did I already mention fear?
These are just some of the emotions I currently feel in regards to my situation with Eve Rosser, my fiancée. Me? I'm Michael Glass, the prospective husband. Note the key word there: prospective.
I remember when I asked her to marry me. It was just after Gloriana did her little hocus pocus thing on me, and I was so scared Eve was going to leave me, because she knew that how easily I had fallen for Gloriana's charm, though it was the glamouring. So I proposed.
It sounds so simple, doesn't it? And that's because it was: all I did was get down on one knee and ask her a simple question, one that took no thought whatsoever to ask. Only after she accepted, the side of me that actually thought kicked in. the side of me that realised Eve will die. She isn't going to become a vampire, even for me, and I wouldn't want her to. I couldn't cope with her not being happy – whilst it may not appear this way, with the way I am describing my feelings at being engaged, I love her so much. It's for her the reason that I am worrying so much.
I can't have her regretting her decision to be with me, for that wouldn't be good for either of us. She needs to be entirely sure she wants me, and at the minute I think she is more about the idea of me. She doesn't seem to be bothered about the fact that I will never die. She doesn't seem to be bothered about the fact that I cannot have children. She only wants me.
And there is the issue of Amelie. She doesn't want me and Eve together; she has made no secret of that in the past and continues to do so. Whether she will even allow this marriage between a human and a vampire, something which has never been done before, I really don't know, but I can only hope that she will do… if this is what is right.
I can't do anything without confirming that it is entirely right. After all, I can't have Eve in pain or suffering later on. I already succumbed more than once and bit her. I could go too far sometime and I could never accept that.
She thinks I'm being stubborn, cold, that I don't want to marry her. I do… it's just whether or not it's the right thing for her. I need to weigh everything up. And there is a huge part of me that thinks that marriage to her is a mistake. I wouldn't deny this from myself, as otherwise I could end up getting into something neither of us should really be in.
She loves me: I love her. It should be simple, right? But no, no it isn't as simple as that. There is so much more to take into consideration than love. That's unfortunate since we both love one another so much but... if it saves the heartache later, deliberating now will be worth it.
I feel so many things right now and not all of them are good. Yet I know I have Eve and whilst marriage may not be our true path, it's what we are set on now.
Whatcha think?
Short but ok, I thought XD
Review please.
Vicky xx