Lexas point of view.

''I think we should stop seeing each other'' are the first words I hear from Clarke. She is sitting across from me, staring into my eyes. But something has changed in the way she looks at me. She used to look at me like I was her whole world, now it's just an empty, ice cold look.

I try to mask away the pain by looking down at the ground ''Why?'' I ask her. I was taken by surprise by her. I knew she had been struggling with things. But I never knew she wanted to break up.

Clarke doesn't answer me. She just stares blankly around the room. Maybe she isn't even sure why. But I can see that she is hiding something from me. ''Do I even wanna know? I ask her a bit angry. I try to mask away my anger but it's no use. I'm pissed off.

''I don't know'' she answers.

I look up, meeting her eyes halfway. ''So I'm not even worth an explanation?'' I spat out in anger. I can't believe Clarke's acting like this. I dated her for over two years. Everything was fine until know, or at least I thought everything was.

''Get out'' I say in anger. ''Get out'' I repeat one more time.

Clarke stands up from her place and is heading towards the door when she faces me one more time ''I'm sorry'' she says before turning around.

''Maybe you didn't love me after all!'' I scream at her. I can feel my heartbeat racing, my head is pounding, my body feels heavy. I want to stop her, to convince her to stay with me, that we can figure something out. That we will be okay, but I realize that it's no use. Clarke just left me, without even giving me a reason.

My thoughts are interrupted by Clarke, who's standing silently in front of the door. It's like she is hesitating about what to do next. I see her body shivering, her hands are shaking. She is about to turn around, when I see her stopping halfway. ''Don't say that'' she says to me before walking out of the room.

I'm just standing here. Feeling numb, not knowing what to do. I don't know if I should go after her. I'm so confused. I am sure of my love for Clarke. I've loved her for a long time. But she didn't love me I guess.

My thoughts are interrupted by my phone that's ringing. I ran towards my cellphone, to see Raven calling me. Raven never calls me so it must be important.

I answer the phone reluctantly ''Hello, this is Lexa'' I answer.

''Lexa, we need to talk'' I hear Raven saying through the phone.

''Sure, what's up?'' I answer, a bit annoyed because I don't know what she wants from me.

''It's about Clarke. I heard she broke up with you?'' Raven asks me.

''Yes. What about her?'' I ask.

''Do you know the reason why she did that?'' Raven asks.

''I don't know. I guess she didn't love me after all'' I answer, still not knowing where this conversation is going.

''Didn't she tell you why?'' Raven asks me confused.

''No she didn't'' I said.

''Lexa..'' Raven says to me before taking a brief pause to finish her sentence. I could tell from Raven that there was something going on.

''Clarke has been diagnosed with leukemia..'' Raven says to me.

I try to take in the words. They don't make any sense to me. ''Clarke sick? Why didn't she tell me'' I think to myself. I don't understand why she would keep this from me.

My thoughts are interrupted by Raven ''She needs you'' Raven says to me. I hear the worry in Raven her voice. I can tell this is serious but I don't know how to react to this. It's too much for me at this moment. So I press the red button on my phone and end the phone call.

I look around my room. Staring endlessly at the photo frame on my wall, with a photo of Clarke and me in it. It was the day we went to the beach together, our official first date. This is when I realize that I need to go talk to Clarke. I need to be there for her.

I grab my jacket and make my way out of the apartment towards my car. I open the lock, sit down in the driver's seat and drive away as fast as I can. It's about 15 minutes later when I arrive at Clarkes house. The lights are on so I get out of my car and walk towards the door. I knock on the door.

It seems like forever before I hear footsteps coming closer. I hear them stop in front of the door ''Who's there?'' Clarke asks me through the door.

I don't know if she was expecting me to come see her. ''It's me'' I whisper.

It's silent for a second before I hear a deep sigh through the door ''I don't want to see you anymore, Lexa'' Clarke tells me.

This hurts me more than I realize but I'm trying to keep myself together. ''Clarke..'' I say. ''Please open the door, I need to talk to you for a minute'' I practically beg her.

Clarke doesn't answer me. I stare at the door until I see Clarke standing in front of me.

''What do you want?'' she asks me. Her voice seems ice cold, like she's trying to distance herself from me.

''I needed to see you'' I say admit to her. That much was true.

''Well you've seen me, so you can leave now'' Clarke blurs out. I look confused at the blonde standing in front of me. I know she's trying to push me away.

''I know you're sick'' I admit. I see the exact moment that Clarke breaks. The ice cold look in her eyes disappears, it's replaced by hurt, sadness but most of all fear. I see her taking a step back from me. She breaks down in front of me, tears flooding from her eyes. I don't know what to say to her, no words can make any of this right. I walk towards her and pull her in for a hug. Clarke rests her head on my shoulder and I can feel her body shaking while she's sobbing.

''I'm so sorry'' she says to me between tears. ''I'm so sorry'' she repeats.

I pull away from the hug for a second to look at her ''You don't have to apologize for anything'' I say to her, reassuring that her that it's okay.

She looks at me with her bright blue eyes ''I didn't want to hurt you. I just thought it would be better if you didn't know. I knew how Costia her death broke you so I didn't want you to go through this again'' Clarke admits to me.

Clarke words make me shiver. I take in her words carefully before answering ''You're not dying'' I say to her.