Hello! I am making a new story!
This is my first fanfic so be nice please!
Disclaimer: Roses are red, Violets are blue, I don't own Twilight, so please don't sue!
ANYWAYS! here's chapter 1 I hope you like it!
Ages for characters:
Bella: 17 Edward: 17 Alice: 17
Jasper:18 Rosalie: 18 Emmett: 18
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Summary: Bella's childhood was not a good thing to remember. On the fatal night her parents died, she became a outcast to the world. When she moves to Forks with her new foster parents, who will she meet there?
Chapter 1:
"Welcome home honey!" Esme my new foster mom smiled. I grimaced back. She smiled in apology and headed upstairs into the new house of Forks, Washington.
Ah Forks.
Forks is this green, rainy town that NO ONE has heard of. And now my new life begins in this odd town. It's not that I hate it, it's just normal for me to hate people, stuff, etc. It's part of who I became. I can't just flip the switch and turn into the selfless, loving person anymore.
Not after what happened.
"Bella come see your new room!" Esme said pulling me out of my thoughts. I sighed and headed upstairs. The house was a two-story Victorian house, so it looked pretty good. I dragged my suitcase up the stairs and walked into the first door on the right. The room looked good, I have to admit.
There was beige-looking walls, a window and balcony on the other side of the room. There was a beige night table, with a beautiful black lamp over it. And the bed was huge! It was a queen sized bed with white covers and blue-gray pillows on it. It looked really simple.
Just like me.
I nodded in thanks and silently signaled her to leave the room. Thankfully she got the point and left without a glance. I closed the door and sighed. I didn't want to be mean to her it's just…
I'm scared!
I want to be able to feel again! I want that drive, that happiness! Everybody had there happiness expect me. But it has all changed. I am not the same person anymore so I need to change everything. I no longer feel, and keep a wall in around my heart. I already got hurt, I can't go through that again.
After those very deep thoughts, I unpacked my stuff (only 2 big suitcases) and went into the bathroom. I looked into the mirror and sighed at my reflection.
My long unwashed brown hair was down in waves, my body looking anything but healthy. My plain black tank-top and sweats fitting very loosely. My eyes were the worst though. My usual bright brown eyes, were baggy and dead. I shook my head and went downstairs.
"Bella honey, dinner is ready!" she smiled. I nodded meekly.
I tried to say as much little words as possible. Every time I say- even a word, I would grow into a panic and faint. I would always try but I always fail. So I gave up and learned to deal with it.
I sat down on the dinner table and began to eat my chicken casserole.
"Bella you are enrolled in Forks high school and will be starting tomorrow." she said. I dropped my fork.
"C-Can't I have a day to myself?" I asked. I swallowed loudly forcing down the panic.
"I am so sorry Bella but you have to start tomorrow if you want to catch up." she smiled sadly.
Pity. I hate pity.
"Whatever" I whispered.
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Dinner went by a little awkward. But I managed to survive. Right now I am in my room, listening to music. I turned off the music wanting to read. I was about to grab a book when I heard voices downstairs. I opened the door and hid behind the stairs.
"Do you think we did the right thing?" Esme asked.
"Yes Esme she'll be alright." Carslie replied.
"What do you think about therapy?"
"No!" Carslie grimaced. Esme seemed shocked by the answer.
"Carslie she needs help!"
"No Esme, I know what it's like! I'm sorry Esme but she's not ready!" Carslie's jaw was shut tight. I smiled in thanks for Carslie understanding.
"She is ready! She can't even speak without having a panic attack! Carslie what if it gets worse?" she yelled.
"Esme she is NOT ready! I understand how she feels!" Carslie yelled back.
"And I don't?"
"I'm not saying that! I am just saying let her cool down and get used to the town!" he yelled flabbergasted.
Silence.
After a few moments I heard Esme whisper an "Okay". I sighed in relief, and went back into my room. I laid down on my bed and sighed.
"Bella?" Carslie said through the door. What could he possibly want?
"Come in" I whispered. Carslie came in and smiled.
"Bella I want you to know, you don't have to start school tomorrow." he said. I sighed feeling very frustrated.
"Carslie stop feeling sorry for me!" I yelled. I closed my eyes and counted to three.
"Bella isn't this what you want?" he said.
"NO! You are giving me pity and I hate that! Stop doing that!" I yelled.
One….Two…..
"I understand Bella. I know what you went through." he whispered.
What?
"What do you mean?" I sighed. Carslie smiled and kissed my forehead.
"That's for another day." he said. I nodded and closed my eyes.
"By the way," I opened my eyes to look at Carslie. "I always wanted to be as strong as you were in my time of need" he smiled. I smiled in thanks, and then he left the room.
What could that possibly mean?
What could that possibly mean?
What could that possibly mean?
What could that possibly mean?
The same question was just running through my head. I looked around and spotted the alarm clock.
11:00.
Wow where did time go? I pulled the covers over me and closed my eyes. I snapped open my eyes as another question flew into my head.
What did Carslie go through?
With that, I turned off the light and closed my eyes falling into a deep sleep.