30th June 2000
It's really hard when you are younger than everyone else. They all talk
about things that have absolutely no significance to you whatsoever. They
expect you to understand, but you don't. I was talking to Courtney and
Whitney, they are so bossy. Just because I am younger, they think I am here
to be bossed around for craps sake. But the worst part is, I take this
bossing around. I do what they want. I just want to be "in" with the cool
crowd. I am so lucky to be able to be on the squad. but sometimes, I don't
know. Sometimes I just don't fit in. I know Torrance tries her hardest as a
captain to make everyone feel welcome, but you can tell she has favourites.
Also, take Missy. Her bad girl reputation really put everyone off her at
first, but she is now fitting in great! I wish that would happen to me. I
am just Kasey; the seventeen-year-old who has no idea what everyone else is
talking about. I hate it. Hate it hate it hate it. Everyone just seems to
know each other. They all have special people who they hang out with.
Torrance and Missy, Jan and Les, Courtney and Whitney, Darcey and Carver.
It's awful. I am just the annoyance of a tag along. I need to become more
mature. I know I do.