Hi everyone, you may have read the story,
Aren't I Good Enough, by Trixi or otrixi15,
this is the same person. I re-read the story,
Aren't I good enough, again and I thought it
was horrible. I was annoyed that I even wrote
it at all. There were so many things that I
wanted to do with this story that I didn't in
the first version. So here is a very different
version with a few parts that are the same,
about a third down the story becomes completely
different
Sailor moon does not belong to me.
The lyrics from the song, Don't stand so close
to me, don't belong to me they belong to The
Police. You should play that song while you
read, but only play the 86' version. And
everyone if you get a chance please listen
to The Polices' The Classics, they are awesome!!!
-Cristina-
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Don't stand So Close To Me by Cristina
As Serena sleepily awoke that Saturday
morning the first thing that popped into
her mind was as always: Darien. She really
did try to ignore it but most of the time
the harder she tried not to think of him
the more she ended up doing so. She was
beginning to think she should just lose
the battle and fully admit how deep her
feelings went for him. One problem though,
Serena could be pretty stubborn at times.
'Darien' her mind screamed. She smiled,
well actually giggled. she honestly didn't
know why she liked him but she did. She
couldn't deny that tight feeling she got
in her stomach every time he was around.
He made her feel like, well just jumping
around like a mad woman. He pushed all
her buttons and she liked it.
Darien looked like a lost soul she
wanted to save, so mysterious. He was
one the most beautiful people she'd ever
met. Just thinking about his coal black
hair and dark blue eyes and his smoky
voice sent shivers up Serena's spine.
'I just want to connect with him.
I want to know him. I know this isn't
a stupid crush. I know this is something
real. One of my friends once told me that
you know, when someone amazes you in every
way, that if he isn't the one well, he's
pretty damn close,' Serena thought
sitting on the edge of her bed.
'But who am I kidding it doesn't
matter if he is the one, get real girl,
I'm just a klutzy, whiny teenager to
him, as he so kindly puts it. He probably
has beautiful women hanging all over him'.
She could tell though that he wasn't a
shallow person, which made her feel only
worse
'Great, he probably has the most
perfect women, kind, smart and beautiful,
everything I'm not.'
'Oh just shut up in there
won't you! I have good qualities. I 'm
not going to let him give me some sort
of complex or tear apart my self esteem,'
Serena thought determined. 'I don't like
him, I barely know him. Enough with the
silliness about Darien, girl, you know he's
Satan.' And the internal battle within
her mind continued.
'Yeah right keep telling yourself that'
her mind replied.
"Ughhhh!!!" she moaned out loud
Still she thought about him and she
even smiled at the thought of bumping into
him, at least she could see him, even if
they were fighting. After Serena got ready
and had her extensive lunch she called up
her friends and made plans to meet them
at the park to spend the afternoon with them.
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'Finally out of this house' thought
Serena happily as she made her way to the
park. She was so busy thinking about her
plans that she didn't notice one of the
tiles on the sidewalk was slightly higher
than the others. And a second later she
was on her butt. Serena heard men whistling
at her but she was to disoriented to realize
that her already short skirt was all the
way up her thighs exposing every inch of
her long youthful legs. Then she felt some
one bump into her from behind and she heard
that familiar smoky voice:
"What is this Meatball head, the
millionth time you've tripped," Darien
said with laughter in his voice as he came
around to stand in front of her.
"Oh shut up Satan, we all can't be
as smooth and sophisticated as you," said
Serena sarcastically still
on the ground.
"Big words Meatball..." then he stopped
in mid-sentence as he heard a bunch of boys
whistle and leer at the sight Serena made.
Darien looked down at her legs blushed then
scowled. Serena noticed that Darien was making
a funny face and that his dark blue eyes
had gone almost black, then she followed
where his eyes where staring and she blushed
also.
'Just great' she thought 'he gets a
perfect view of my scrawny legs and my
stupid 'Saturday' underwear.' Could this
day have started worse? What is the deal!?
Am I destined to make fool of myself in
front of him practically every day.
"Get up Meatball Head, you're blocking
the sidewalk," Darien said in a gruff
almost angry voice, which Serena took as
disgust for having to bump into to her
"No Satan, It's my dream for every
one to stare sitting here on my butt,"
retorted Serena angrily as she got up.
"Have a nice day Meatball head and
don't eat to much concrete," Darien said
in a voice that sounded almost relieved
as he walked away.
"Yeah same to you, Satan," Serena
muttered angrily and got up off the sidewalk
'Why are my feelings always so hot
and cold towards him, and why does he have
to be so incredibly magnetic? There are so
many awesome guys out there that are nice
and kind, yet I'm attracted to aloof, dark,
distant, Darien. I even feel happy now that
I've talked to him, I'm insane!!!' thought
Serena as she made her way to the park to
meet her friends.
"Hey girl over here!" yelled Lita.
"Hi guys," said Serena happily as she
turned around and ran over to her friends.
"So what do you guys wanna do?" asked
Mina.
"How about we go see the new movie Matt
Damon is in," suggested Raye.
"Matt Damon," they all sighed and went
to the movies.
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The next day Serena went to Raye's house.
She loved Raye even though she was almost as
bad as Darien. Raye's strength determination
attracted Serena to her. Maybe it was because
she was things Serena wasn't. When she really
got to talk to Raye she found that Raye was
one of the most interesting people she had ever
met. She had learned so much from her. Well
most of the time.
"Hey Meatball head, you're doing pretty
well today, I haven't seen you trip once,"
Darien remarked smiling catching Serena off
guard from her reverie.
Even though that heart stopping smile
of his was doing wicked things to her insides
she still had the presence of mind to think
of something wicked she could do to him. So
smiling sweetly she replied:
"Hello Darien, yeah I am doing pretty
well, how about you, how are you doing today?"
He was so stunned with her words,
instead of her ordinary biting remark, that
he didn't notice that she had stuck her foot
out.
The next thing he knew he was on the
ground and Serena was laughing hysterically.
Darien looked up at her angrily and she
laughed even more.
"Oh this is classic I wish I had my
camera," she replied still laughing.
"Ha, ha, Meatball head," said Darien
sarcastically then with a wicked smile he
was up, he got right in her face and said:
"I'll get you back, Just wait till
tomorrow," and he walked away.
She was happy she didn't have to say
anything back to him because she had been
incapable of speech those few moments. She
felt like she was drowning in his eyes when
he had come up close to her.
'What can I ever do to get through to
him' she thought. 'Serena stop it, why would
he ever like a dumb girl like me, ahh there
I go again. Darien is jerk!' After she had
gathered her wits she went off to the temple,
by this time she was just dying to see Raye
to get her mind off of Darien.
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"Hi Raye," yelled Serena, happy to
see her friend as she was running up the
temple steps.
"Hey meatball head," called Raye.
"Not you too!!" Serena whined.
Serena had come over to help Raye do
chores since she didn't have parents or
anyone else for that matter to help. Serena
and Raye made idle chit chat about their
week and such, but after a while Raye inquired:
"What's up with you lately Meatball
Head you look as if you realized something
of great importance?" Raye said in a
semi-sarcastic voice.
"Gee pyro you really make a girl want
to spill her guts out to you," Serena
deadpanned but after a second she replied:
"It's Darien's' teasing."
"That's nothing new," said Raye
puzzled, "you hate him right? So then
just ignore it."
"Well I don't exactly hate him...,"
'why I'm telling her this, I don't know,
she will never let me live it down!'
"Oh my goodness! You like him
don't you?" then with a wicked smile
Raye started chanting:
"Serena loves Darien, Serena
loves Darien" over and over again. Raye
was acting totally unlike herself but
when her and Serena were together they
were pretty hyper.
After a while Raye noticed Serena
wasn't saying anything and she looked
unusually sad. Normally Serena would be
yelling at her by now so naturally Raye
was worried.
"What's wrong?" asked Raye concerned.
"Well I like him so much but he
doesn't reciprocate my feelings..."
"You know what reciprocate means,"
Raye said mockingly
"You know what I don't need this
from you, I'm outta here," Serena responded
hurt and angry. She got up briskly and
started walking away
"Wait Serena, wait, I'm sorry, that
was totally out of line," Raye yelled
as she caught up with Serena grabbed her
wrist and spun her around, "I'm really
sorry," Raye said again.
"I guess I forgive you 'baka',"
replied Serena reluctantly.
"Thank-you, please continue about
Darien I really want to know what's bugging
you," said Raye apologetically.
"Well, to him I'm just some annoying
stupid teenager, I could never be what he
wants," she finished sadly barely above a
whisper.
"Rena don't say that, you are a
wonderful person, caring, kind and sweet,
and I'll beat anyone up who says
otherwise," Raye finished.
"Leave it to Jupiter," Serena joked.
"Yeah really," Raye chuckled, "and
any way you are a cool chick, I know tons
of guys who would kill to date you."
"Yeah right Raye, but you're a good
liar," replied Serena with a melancholy
smile.
"I know," Raye said with a smug grin,
Serena of course whacked her.
"Hey," yelled Raye, after that you
could hear those two screaming all the way
to china
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Monday after School Serena was walking
home looking at her test grade.
'A seventy' she thought 'better but
still not good, I need to do better. I'm
sick of people not taking me seriously, well
mostly Darien,' angrily she crumpled up the
paper and threw it behind her.
"Hey Meatball Head watch where you
throw things I'm not a dumpsite you know,"
said Darien in that mocking tone of his.
"Could have fooled me," retorted
Serena.
"You're getting better Meatball head,
you might actually hurt my feelings one day,"
Darien said laughingly and caught up to her,
"lets see here you got a seventy on your
paper, at least you didn't fail," Serena
whirled around angrily at that,
"What exactly is your problem Satan,
lay off for once, and my name is SERENA!!!!"
She yelled at him.
"Me I don't have any problems I don't
trip on my face or get bad grades," Darien
replied smugly.
"Well at least I rather have those
traits than have the worst personality ever!"
she responded.
"Many people would think otherwise
Meatball head. That is all a matter of your
opinion," he replied with conceit.
"Ughhh!!!" Serena groaned and stormed
off, she seemed to be doing a lot of that
lately, she thought. Normally these little
spats made her feel better, but as her
feelings for him increased she just wasn't
satisfied with them anymore.
'Why do I let him get to me?'
'You know why, there is some truth to
what he said' her mind replied.
"Shut up shut up shut up," she yelled
out loud to no one but her self
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'Well this day wasn't so bad, the
look on Serena's face, amusing as usual.
As Darien was going through his apartment
he noticed there was a box at the door.
It was unmarked, he brought it to the
table and opened it up. The box was filled
with pictures of his parents and some of
him as a baby. Darien had never seen pictures
of his parents but he could remember their
faces vaguely, they had died when he was
young. Feelings of loneliness flooded
back to him, days at the orphanage,
suffering, the taunting remarks of the
children there, having to take many
jobs at a time so he could make his way.
Tears threatened to spill over but he
clamped them down. He never cried and he
wasn't about to, but staying in the
apartment wasn't helping any. He got
his jacket and headed to the park to
think.
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"Bye mom I'm going out for a walk,"
called Serena.
"Okay but be back before eleven,"
yelled down her mother.
"Ma it's only six, I'll probably
be back way before then," and Serena was
out the door.
'Wow it's beautiful out today,
maybe I'll see Darien,' thought Serena
hopefully.
'Stop getting your hopes up you
probably won't' her mind said annoyed,
'Serena can you stop thinking about him
for at least five minutes?'
'No' she thought grumpily.
'No wonder I can't even pass a
test my brain doesn't even know how to
pick the right guys for me.'
Then, she saw a tall figure moving
out in the back of the park, she should
have known it would be….
'It's Darien, I want to go up to him,
but what will I say, oh hi I want to spend
my life locked in a dark closet with you.
That will go over well. Maybe I can yell
at him for earlier today, at least it's
something to say,' thought Serena.
She wants him so badly
Knows what she wants to be
Inside her there's longing
This girls an open page
- Don't Stand So Close to Me, The Police-
Serena walked over to him quietly
and was about to yell at him when she saw
the look of raw pain on his face.
"Darien?" said Serena uncertainly.
"What Serena," Darien replied in
a strained voice.
"What's wrong, is there anything
I can do to help?," Said Serena quietly.
"You can go away," Darien said gruffly.
He was on the verge of tears and he didn't
want Serena to see them. Serena inhaled
sharply and was about to turn away but
then she stopped. She couldn't bear to
see him in pain. Out of raw courage she
wrapped her arms around Darien and whispered:
"I won't let you go through this alone."
"Let go of me," Darien said in a stone
cold voice.
"No I don't leave people who are
hurting to suffer on their own," replied
Serena quietly.
"I don't want your pity," he said
gruffly.
"Darien I don't pity you at all,
your one of the most assured people I
know," replied Serena.
"Then you don't know me very well,
let go of me," his voice almost breaking
now.
"No," said Serena firmly and buried
her head in his chest.
Darien certainly admired her courage,
for he could be quite formidable when he
was upset. He almost smiled at her display
of kindness, that was so like her but those
memories kept flooding back to him. His
need for human contact was so intense
that he couldn't stand it anymore and he
returned Serena's embrace fiercely.
"It's okay Darien I'm here for you.
You don't have to tell me what's wrong,
just know that I'm here if you want to talk
about it," said Serena calmly.
"I don't know where to begin," Darien
said in an uncertain quiet voice.
"Just say whatever comes to you,
I'm not grading you here," said Serena with
a sad smile.
He told her about his parent's death,
being at the brutal orphanage, the numerous
straining jobs, and most of all the utter
loneliness of his life. By this time tears
where coming out of Darien's eyes, he cried
silently into Serena's hair. He held on to
her tightly wanting to her happiness and
joy of life to seep into his body.
For one of the few times in his life
he felt secure and cared for, it was a little
scary for him to be sharing this with anyone
let alone Serena. He stayed in that position
for a while and somewhere along the way he
crossed the line between wanting comfort
and yearning for Serena. Her skin was so
soft and warm and her sweet scent surrounded
him. An intense mad urge swept through
him and he was powerless to stop it. He tried
to deny the powerful attraction he felt for
Serena but it was near impossible.
Darien shifted so his head was near
Serena's neck. He was breathing harshly in
her ear and he heard Serena gasp. 'Had she
noticed?, did she feel like he did at the
moment?' 'Only one way to find out' he thought
distantly and his aching lips encountered
her warm neck. "Darien" he heard her whimper
and it made him want her all the more. As
he kissed his way up her neck he could feel
the breath storming through Serena's body.
He soon found her lips, and they were soft
and sweet just as he had imagined. After
a moment he couldn't take it, he needed more
and he crushed her to his body. He was
kissing her with a near desperate force,
plunging his tongue into her sweet young
mouth. He ran his hands all over her sensuous
little body, she was driving him insane.
'She always seems to drive me insane one way
or the other,' he thought, almost amused
but too caught up in the moment to notice.
He could hear himself groaning with need,
he wanted to possess her, he wanted to control
her, he wanted to...
"NO!!!" His mind screamed "You can't do
this, this is Meatball head we are talking
about here, are you crazy!!" But his body
didn't give a damn that it was Meatball head.
Finally he gathered enough will power,
and forced her away from him.
"This shouldn't have happened,"
he replied gruffly.
Serena was incredibly hurt, she had
been in heaven. She just stood there frozen
and shaken.
"I have to go," Darien replied and
practically ran away.
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Aren't I Good Enough, by Trixi or otrixi15,
this is the same person. I re-read the story,
Aren't I good enough, again and I thought it
was horrible. I was annoyed that I even wrote
it at all. There were so many things that I
wanted to do with this story that I didn't in
the first version. So here is a very different
version with a few parts that are the same,
about a third down the story becomes completely
different
Sailor moon does not belong to me.
The lyrics from the song, Don't stand so close
to me, don't belong to me they belong to The
Police. You should play that song while you
read, but only play the 86' version. And
everyone if you get a chance please listen
to The Polices' The Classics, they are awesome!!!
-Cristina-
-------------------------------------
Don't stand So Close To Me by Cristina
As Serena sleepily awoke that Saturday
morning the first thing that popped into
her mind was as always: Darien. She really
did try to ignore it but most of the time
the harder she tried not to think of him
the more she ended up doing so. She was
beginning to think she should just lose
the battle and fully admit how deep her
feelings went for him. One problem though,
Serena could be pretty stubborn at times.
'Darien' her mind screamed. She smiled,
well actually giggled. she honestly didn't
know why she liked him but she did. She
couldn't deny that tight feeling she got
in her stomach every time he was around.
He made her feel like, well just jumping
around like a mad woman. He pushed all
her buttons and she liked it.
Darien looked like a lost soul she
wanted to save, so mysterious. He was
one the most beautiful people she'd ever
met. Just thinking about his coal black
hair and dark blue eyes and his smoky
voice sent shivers up Serena's spine.
'I just want to connect with him.
I want to know him. I know this isn't
a stupid crush. I know this is something
real. One of my friends once told me that
you know, when someone amazes you in every
way, that if he isn't the one well, he's
pretty damn close,' Serena thought
sitting on the edge of her bed.
'But who am I kidding it doesn't
matter if he is the one, get real girl,
I'm just a klutzy, whiny teenager to
him, as he so kindly puts it. He probably
has beautiful women hanging all over him'.
She could tell though that he wasn't a
shallow person, which made her feel only
worse
'Great, he probably has the most
perfect women, kind, smart and beautiful,
everything I'm not.'
'Oh just shut up in there
won't you! I have good qualities. I 'm
not going to let him give me some sort
of complex or tear apart my self esteem,'
Serena thought determined. 'I don't like
him, I barely know him. Enough with the
silliness about Darien, girl, you know he's
Satan.' And the internal battle within
her mind continued.
'Yeah right keep telling yourself that'
her mind replied.
"Ughhhh!!!" she moaned out loud
Still she thought about him and she
even smiled at the thought of bumping into
him, at least she could see him, even if
they were fighting. After Serena got ready
and had her extensive lunch she called up
her friends and made plans to meet them
at the park to spend the afternoon with them.
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'Finally out of this house' thought
Serena happily as she made her way to the
park. She was so busy thinking about her
plans that she didn't notice one of the
tiles on the sidewalk was slightly higher
than the others. And a second later she
was on her butt. Serena heard men whistling
at her but she was to disoriented to realize
that her already short skirt was all the
way up her thighs exposing every inch of
her long youthful legs. Then she felt some
one bump into her from behind and she heard
that familiar smoky voice:
"What is this Meatball head, the
millionth time you've tripped," Darien
said with laughter in his voice as he came
around to stand in front of her.
"Oh shut up Satan, we all can't be
as smooth and sophisticated as you," said
Serena sarcastically still
on the ground.
"Big words Meatball..." then he stopped
in mid-sentence as he heard a bunch of boys
whistle and leer at the sight Serena made.
Darien looked down at her legs blushed then
scowled. Serena noticed that Darien was making
a funny face and that his dark blue eyes
had gone almost black, then she followed
where his eyes where staring and she blushed
also.
'Just great' she thought 'he gets a
perfect view of my scrawny legs and my
stupid 'Saturday' underwear.' Could this
day have started worse? What is the deal!?
Am I destined to make fool of myself in
front of him practically every day.
"Get up Meatball Head, you're blocking
the sidewalk," Darien said in a gruff
almost angry voice, which Serena took as
disgust for having to bump into to her
"No Satan, It's my dream for every
one to stare sitting here on my butt,"
retorted Serena angrily as she got up.
"Have a nice day Meatball head and
don't eat to much concrete," Darien said
in a voice that sounded almost relieved
as he walked away.
"Yeah same to you, Satan," Serena
muttered angrily and got up off the sidewalk
'Why are my feelings always so hot
and cold towards him, and why does he have
to be so incredibly magnetic? There are so
many awesome guys out there that are nice
and kind, yet I'm attracted to aloof, dark,
distant, Darien. I even feel happy now that
I've talked to him, I'm insane!!!' thought
Serena as she made her way to the park to
meet her friends.
"Hey girl over here!" yelled Lita.
"Hi guys," said Serena happily as she
turned around and ran over to her friends.
"So what do you guys wanna do?" asked
Mina.
"How about we go see the new movie Matt
Damon is in," suggested Raye.
"Matt Damon," they all sighed and went
to the movies.
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The next day Serena went to Raye's house.
She loved Raye even though she was almost as
bad as Darien. Raye's strength determination
attracted Serena to her. Maybe it was because
she was things Serena wasn't. When she really
got to talk to Raye she found that Raye was
one of the most interesting people she had ever
met. She had learned so much from her. Well
most of the time.
"Hey Meatball head, you're doing pretty
well today, I haven't seen you trip once,"
Darien remarked smiling catching Serena off
guard from her reverie.
Even though that heart stopping smile
of his was doing wicked things to her insides
she still had the presence of mind to think
of something wicked she could do to him. So
smiling sweetly she replied:
"Hello Darien, yeah I am doing pretty
well, how about you, how are you doing today?"
He was so stunned with her words,
instead of her ordinary biting remark, that
he didn't notice that she had stuck her foot
out.
The next thing he knew he was on the
ground and Serena was laughing hysterically.
Darien looked up at her angrily and she
laughed even more.
"Oh this is classic I wish I had my
camera," she replied still laughing.
"Ha, ha, Meatball head," said Darien
sarcastically then with a wicked smile he
was up, he got right in her face and said:
"I'll get you back, Just wait till
tomorrow," and he walked away.
She was happy she didn't have to say
anything back to him because she had been
incapable of speech those few moments. She
felt like she was drowning in his eyes when
he had come up close to her.
'What can I ever do to get through to
him' she thought. 'Serena stop it, why would
he ever like a dumb girl like me, ahh there
I go again. Darien is jerk!' After she had
gathered her wits she went off to the temple,
by this time she was just dying to see Raye
to get her mind off of Darien.
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"Hi Raye," yelled Serena, happy to
see her friend as she was running up the
temple steps.
"Hey meatball head," called Raye.
"Not you too!!" Serena whined.
Serena had come over to help Raye do
chores since she didn't have parents or
anyone else for that matter to help. Serena
and Raye made idle chit chat about their
week and such, but after a while Raye inquired:
"What's up with you lately Meatball
Head you look as if you realized something
of great importance?" Raye said in a
semi-sarcastic voice.
"Gee pyro you really make a girl want
to spill her guts out to you," Serena
deadpanned but after a second she replied:
"It's Darien's' teasing."
"That's nothing new," said Raye
puzzled, "you hate him right? So then
just ignore it."
"Well I don't exactly hate him...,"
'why I'm telling her this, I don't know,
she will never let me live it down!'
"Oh my goodness! You like him
don't you?" then with a wicked smile
Raye started chanting:
"Serena loves Darien, Serena
loves Darien" over and over again. Raye
was acting totally unlike herself but
when her and Serena were together they
were pretty hyper.
After a while Raye noticed Serena
wasn't saying anything and she looked
unusually sad. Normally Serena would be
yelling at her by now so naturally Raye
was worried.
"What's wrong?" asked Raye concerned.
"Well I like him so much but he
doesn't reciprocate my feelings..."
"You know what reciprocate means,"
Raye said mockingly
"You know what I don't need this
from you, I'm outta here," Serena responded
hurt and angry. She got up briskly and
started walking away
"Wait Serena, wait, I'm sorry, that
was totally out of line," Raye yelled
as she caught up with Serena grabbed her
wrist and spun her around, "I'm really
sorry," Raye said again.
"I guess I forgive you 'baka',"
replied Serena reluctantly.
"Thank-you, please continue about
Darien I really want to know what's bugging
you," said Raye apologetically.
"Well, to him I'm just some annoying
stupid teenager, I could never be what he
wants," she finished sadly barely above a
whisper.
"Rena don't say that, you are a
wonderful person, caring, kind and sweet,
and I'll beat anyone up who says
otherwise," Raye finished.
"Leave it to Jupiter," Serena joked.
"Yeah really," Raye chuckled, "and
any way you are a cool chick, I know tons
of guys who would kill to date you."
"Yeah right Raye, but you're a good
liar," replied Serena with a melancholy
smile.
"I know," Raye said with a smug grin,
Serena of course whacked her.
"Hey," yelled Raye, after that you
could hear those two screaming all the way
to china
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Monday after School Serena was walking
home looking at her test grade.
'A seventy' she thought 'better but
still not good, I need to do better. I'm
sick of people not taking me seriously, well
mostly Darien,' angrily she crumpled up the
paper and threw it behind her.
"Hey Meatball Head watch where you
throw things I'm not a dumpsite you know,"
said Darien in that mocking tone of his.
"Could have fooled me," retorted
Serena.
"You're getting better Meatball head,
you might actually hurt my feelings one day,"
Darien said laughingly and caught up to her,
"lets see here you got a seventy on your
paper, at least you didn't fail," Serena
whirled around angrily at that,
"What exactly is your problem Satan,
lay off for once, and my name is SERENA!!!!"
She yelled at him.
"Me I don't have any problems I don't
trip on my face or get bad grades," Darien
replied smugly.
"Well at least I rather have those
traits than have the worst personality ever!"
she responded.
"Many people would think otherwise
Meatball head. That is all a matter of your
opinion," he replied with conceit.
"Ughhh!!!" Serena groaned and stormed
off, she seemed to be doing a lot of that
lately, she thought. Normally these little
spats made her feel better, but as her
feelings for him increased she just wasn't
satisfied with them anymore.
'Why do I let him get to me?'
'You know why, there is some truth to
what he said' her mind replied.
"Shut up shut up shut up," she yelled
out loud to no one but her self
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'Well this day wasn't so bad, the
look on Serena's face, amusing as usual.
As Darien was going through his apartment
he noticed there was a box at the door.
It was unmarked, he brought it to the
table and opened it up. The box was filled
with pictures of his parents and some of
him as a baby. Darien had never seen pictures
of his parents but he could remember their
faces vaguely, they had died when he was
young. Feelings of loneliness flooded
back to him, days at the orphanage,
suffering, the taunting remarks of the
children there, having to take many
jobs at a time so he could make his way.
Tears threatened to spill over but he
clamped them down. He never cried and he
wasn't about to, but staying in the
apartment wasn't helping any. He got
his jacket and headed to the park to
think.
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"Bye mom I'm going out for a walk,"
called Serena.
"Okay but be back before eleven,"
yelled down her mother.
"Ma it's only six, I'll probably
be back way before then," and Serena was
out the door.
'Wow it's beautiful out today,
maybe I'll see Darien,' thought Serena
hopefully.
'Stop getting your hopes up you
probably won't' her mind said annoyed,
'Serena can you stop thinking about him
for at least five minutes?'
'No' she thought grumpily.
'No wonder I can't even pass a
test my brain doesn't even know how to
pick the right guys for me.'
Then, she saw a tall figure moving
out in the back of the park, she should
have known it would be….
'It's Darien, I want to go up to him,
but what will I say, oh hi I want to spend
my life locked in a dark closet with you.
That will go over well. Maybe I can yell
at him for earlier today, at least it's
something to say,' thought Serena.
She wants him so badly
Knows what she wants to be
Inside her there's longing
This girls an open page
- Don't Stand So Close to Me, The Police-
Serena walked over to him quietly
and was about to yell at him when she saw
the look of raw pain on his face.
"Darien?" said Serena uncertainly.
"What Serena," Darien replied in
a strained voice.
"What's wrong, is there anything
I can do to help?," Said Serena quietly.
"You can go away," Darien said gruffly.
He was on the verge of tears and he didn't
want Serena to see them. Serena inhaled
sharply and was about to turn away but
then she stopped. She couldn't bear to
see him in pain. Out of raw courage she
wrapped her arms around Darien and whispered:
"I won't let you go through this alone."
"Let go of me," Darien said in a stone
cold voice.
"No I don't leave people who are
hurting to suffer on their own," replied
Serena quietly.
"I don't want your pity," he said
gruffly.
"Darien I don't pity you at all,
your one of the most assured people I
know," replied Serena.
"Then you don't know me very well,
let go of me," his voice almost breaking
now.
"No," said Serena firmly and buried
her head in his chest.
Darien certainly admired her courage,
for he could be quite formidable when he
was upset. He almost smiled at her display
of kindness, that was so like her but those
memories kept flooding back to him. His
need for human contact was so intense
that he couldn't stand it anymore and he
returned Serena's embrace fiercely.
"It's okay Darien I'm here for you.
You don't have to tell me what's wrong,
just know that I'm here if you want to talk
about it," said Serena calmly.
"I don't know where to begin," Darien
said in an uncertain quiet voice.
"Just say whatever comes to you,
I'm not grading you here," said Serena with
a sad smile.
He told her about his parent's death,
being at the brutal orphanage, the numerous
straining jobs, and most of all the utter
loneliness of his life. By this time tears
where coming out of Darien's eyes, he cried
silently into Serena's hair. He held on to
her tightly wanting to her happiness and
joy of life to seep into his body.
For one of the few times in his life
he felt secure and cared for, it was a little
scary for him to be sharing this with anyone
let alone Serena. He stayed in that position
for a while and somewhere along the way he
crossed the line between wanting comfort
and yearning for Serena. Her skin was so
soft and warm and her sweet scent surrounded
him. An intense mad urge swept through
him and he was powerless to stop it. He tried
to deny the powerful attraction he felt for
Serena but it was near impossible.
Darien shifted so his head was near
Serena's neck. He was breathing harshly in
her ear and he heard Serena gasp. 'Had she
noticed?, did she feel like he did at the
moment?' 'Only one way to find out' he thought
distantly and his aching lips encountered
her warm neck. "Darien" he heard her whimper
and it made him want her all the more. As
he kissed his way up her neck he could feel
the breath storming through Serena's body.
He soon found her lips, and they were soft
and sweet just as he had imagined. After
a moment he couldn't take it, he needed more
and he crushed her to his body. He was
kissing her with a near desperate force,
plunging his tongue into her sweet young
mouth. He ran his hands all over her sensuous
little body, she was driving him insane.
'She always seems to drive me insane one way
or the other,' he thought, almost amused
but too caught up in the moment to notice.
He could hear himself groaning with need,
he wanted to possess her, he wanted to control
her, he wanted to...
"NO!!!" His mind screamed "You can't do
this, this is Meatball head we are talking
about here, are you crazy!!" But his body
didn't give a damn that it was Meatball head.
Finally he gathered enough will power,
and forced her away from him.
"This shouldn't have happened,"
he replied gruffly.
Serena was incredibly hurt, she had
been in heaven. She just stood there frozen
and shaken.
"I have to go," Darien replied and
practically ran away.
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