I'll Survive

by kiwi4me

1. Naruto's POV

"Dude! You're okay with it?" Kiba asked in a startled tone. His piercing stare unnerved him but he stood tall with his head held high. Forcing a smile to hide what he really felt inside, his breaking heart.

"Of course I am, it's nothing I'm going to be missing," he laughed as the words poured itself right out of his mouth. His friends were just looking at him with a smile wondering how he can take it so casually, but one.

"You sure Naru? I thought you really… you know… love her?" the pink haired girl said as she looked at him with confused green eyes. Naruto looked at her for a moment before letting out a forced laugh that no one seemed to catch.

"Are you serious Sakura?" the spiky blonde retorted, "… it's okay, I'm fine with this," he assured them as he gave a thumbs up saying that he was cool with the deal. Sakura gave him a small smile, but he knew she was still feeling pity for him. He waved it off inside and laughed at his brown haired friend who placed an arm around his shoulder.

"I'm proud of you! Alright then! Let's go to the strip bar!" he announces receiving a hand to the face from an irritated pink haired female.

After he left his friends, he walked the streets thinking to himself how he was able to pull it off. In fact, he felt like breaking down and crying his whole heart out, but that would be stupid and doesn't do anything but bring humiliation to himself. He entered his house to feel how empty it is without her there to brighten up his rooms. He sat on the couch slouching forward as his hand held his head up.

He was breaking apart and no one knows it. It was easy, it seems, for no one to notice how much tougher it is to live without her beside him. Yes, it has been a couple of months since the break up and yes he had given other a chance but none of them could compare. He closed his deep blue eyes to remember the long blonde hair, light blue eyes, her mischievous look, and her sultry voice.

It's hard, he knows it, to forget someone like her… but to ease his heart, he has too. Its already hard enough to even breath every step he takes and even harder for him to smile without her… but everyday he knows it'll get better even if it takes a lifetime… he has to move on.

He headed upstairs to grab a towel and headed to the bathroom to take a relaxing shower because he needed one badly. Its not that he smelled horribly, but it's the only place he would let tears fall from his oceanic eyes. The only place he would cry his loudest and the only place he would scream words of "Why(s)?" He let his tears run down his body with the hot steamy water coming out of the shower head.

He turned the knob to stop the water from sprouting out of the shower head and grabbed the towel on the rack. He wrapped it around his waist and walked out of the bathroom into his room. He sat on his bed for awhile not doing anything but stare blankly at the floor. If anyone would've walked in and saw him, they would've thought he had hit the state of depression. He looked so lost, so alone, so broken.

He slowly looked around the room as if it wasn't his. His eyes then caught a picture frame on a nightstand beside the queen size bed. It was a picture of two blondes smiling happily at the camera as they sat close with their fingers entwined with one another. She looks so happy, so beautiful and Naruto still has no reason why the break up occurred.

She had one day came home crying and he held her close to his arms. She sobbed and sobbed into his chest as he rubbed her back soothingly. His other hand was wrapped around her waist as he pulled her closer hating the fact that she was crying. When she had no more tears left to cry, he pushed her gently off of him and lifts one hand to her face. It cupped her face and his thumb softly wiped away excess tears from her eyes. Her eyes were shining from the tears and her face was blushed with pink from crying. He kissed her forehead gently and hugged her once again. He thought this moment with them holding each other was going to last for awhile since he didn't want to let go. The second those words left her mouth, though, he felt like the whole world collapsed.

"I'm sorry Naruto… but I can't do this anymore…" she softly said against his ears as she pushed herself back, "… I need space…"

Her eyes were pleading with him and he wasn't able to say anything. He was frozen and he wanted this to be some kind of dream, a nightmare, but it wasn't… this was real. He slowly let her go as she walked up the stairs to their room closing the door softly behind her. He felt like he couldn't breath, speak, eat, or even live at that moment. Some one he loved, cared about, and gave everything to just said 'it's over' just like that…

He was angry, angry at Ino for just saying goodbye without another word as she walked out the door. But she stood in front of the door almost as if she wanted to regret the decision. She turned around to face him one more time and all Naruto could do was offer a small smile to her. She returned it and walked out of the house and into the car that will drive her away. Her father saw him and gave him a nod of his acknowledgement that he saw him. Naruto just watched the car sped away as Ino tuned around to face him one more time. He could tell she was mouthing the word 'sorry' and all he could do was stare back at her.

Just remembering it almost made him quench in pain. He hated watching her leave, why didn't he do anything to stop her? Why didn't he tell her that he loved her and not to go anywhere? Why this and why that, but nothing came out of is mouth as he watched her pack up silently. Maybe it's because every time he looks at her, he melts right into her hand. Maybe its because her eyes just entranced him so much that he was willing to do anything just to have her look at him. Maybe it's because he was so in love with her, he didn't want her to fall out of love with him…

He heard a knock on the door and wondered who it could be. He finished getting dress for the night as he walked down the stairs. He took a deep breath before placing his usually smile on and opening the door. He was beyond shocked and confusion as he saw the blonde haired blue eyed beauty standing in front of him, but he didn't show it. He suppressed all that emotions back and kept his smile in place. If anyone saw him, they might have thought he knew she was coming back, or that he was waiting for her so he would rub it in her face. He wanted to hug her and kiss her and feel the smoothness of her skin and softness of her lips, but he didn't. Instead, he watched her for another second before asking the obvious question.

"Ino? What are you doing here?" he asked a bit amused and confused as he watched her let out a soft sigh.

"Naruto…" she began as she suppressed tears from falling down her eyes, "… I wanted to know if… you'd like to get back together."

Naruto just stared at her and let out a soft chuckle as he looked away from her, still not offering her to come inside. He had his reasons… if he let her in, it would be as if he is letting her back into his life and Ino understand it as she stood staring at him.

"Ino, weren't you the one to break up with me?" he asked with a sly smile. He watched her open her mouth then closed it again. She looked lost and confused as she looked at the ground in shame.

"I'm sorry Ino… but I've moved on…" he said softly letting a small smile on his face. She looked at him for a moment and he knew she would understood his decision. She gave him a broken smile and giggled a little causing Naruto to look at her confused.

"It's okay Naruto… I'll see you around then…" she said as she turned around and walked down the front steps and before opening the door to the car, she turned around and gave him another smile and he returned it. She got into the car and shook her head as her father asked her something. Her father then looked at Naruto who leaned against his doorframe looking at him. Her father just gave a soft sigh and said something to his daughter that Naruto read from his lips movement 'I'm sorry.' And then they took off and Ino didn't look back at him like she did a couple months before.

He went back into his house as he closed the door softly and slide to the floor crying. His tears flowed freely down his eyes and this was the first time he let himself cry this way. He let himself break down and fall to his knees crying in pain from a heart break, the damn lie he just said. He was slamming his face on the floor, banging it as he takes his frustration and anger out on it. He buried his face against his arms as his body was bent down facing the floor. It hurts, seeing her there, seeing her in front of him so close. He would've screamed "Yes!" and then they'll make up but he can't go back now. He had to erase her from his memories some way, some how. It's not that he hated the blonde haired female so much, but it's the fact that Ino can never be his.

Why?

No matter how much he has done for her, no matter how much love he has given her, her father never accepted him and that hurts. They had been together for two years and those two years are the worst and best years of his life. Whenever she was home, that would be the best times of his life. Whenever she wasn't home and had to go with her father to a business meeting, he felt like he would die. Yes her father had the money and fame and glory, which all of that would be passed down to his only daughter. Naruto on the other hand grew up poor and everything he had was from hard work and suffering. He had nothing and now he had what he needed and one thing he wanted… her.

Every time they spent times together, it was as if he saw nothing else but her. Every time they kiss, he felt like he was in some kind of hormonal dream (kinda weird though). He loved her, which was obviously true. Yet her father kept butting his head in their relationship and he'd make Ino cry unintentionally (although sometimes it seems intentional). Naruto had no idea why he would do that to his daughter and why he'd not let her be happy, but the question remains… was she happy?

He got up off the floor and headed to his room. He lay on the bed with his face against the pillow as his back faced the ceiling. He could still smell her, no matter how sickening it sounded. He slowly closed his eyes and told himself that he would be okay and that tomorrow…

Tomorrow was just another day...

Even if it meant another day without her.

Hey everyone! I am so sorry i haven't written anything lately, my internet stopped working so everything was like Hell the past few days...

but besides that! i made this great story lmao!

Next chapter would be Ino's POV of the situation and why she 'needed space' and all that sad stuff!

(PS) the final count is coming! I hope you all voted on my profile! I am actually really excited! and any ideas are welcomed with open arms! hahahaaa! Thats all and HAPPY NEW YEAR!

love,

kiwi4me~

oh yesh and one more thing! I was listening to the country song (yes, country) "Invisibly Shaken" by Rodney Atkins while i wrote this lol!