I walk through the streets of my village, Iwagakura- the Village Hidden in the Rocks. I was different from most of my comrades, mostly because of my long blond hair. People said I looked as they had aimed me to look; like my older brother.

In an attempt to help the village prosper, the Tsuchikage had passed down our village's kinjutsu, a form of jutsu to knead one's chakra into objects, to me. Now, one mouth was placed in each of my palms, one also along my chest. I was also made part of Iwagakure's Explosion corps.

You could say I look just like him. The Tsuchikage even had my name changed to something resembling his.

My name had been changed to Deideru. I didn't like it, and it was hard for me to respond to others when they called me Deideru.

Long bangs covering my left eye, and the headband with the village's insigna carved in it.

I could never be as good as my brother was. I knew it, my comrades knew it, even the Tsuchikage knew it. But they had drilled 'For the good of the village' in my brain, and I was forced to accept it.

Lord Tsuchikage said that I might have a kekkei genkai with a special chakra nature, also aiding my explosives.

Life for me had been going pretty bad, but then lord Onoki summoned me to carry out a mission that I wasn't expecting.

"Lord Onoki, you wanted to talk to me?" I asked, walking respectfully into the room and bowing.

"Yes, I have an S-rank mission for you- your first one," he said. I looked at the elderly man in shock. But I was only a Chunin!

"L-Lord Onoki, why send me? Why not send Jonin- or even our ANBU?" I asked, shocked he would consider me for a mission of that rank. He glared at me.

"Deideru, as a shinobi of Iwagakure, you will accept the mission and complete it without hesitation," he said strictly. I glared back, my uncovered eye narrowing.

"But why me personally?" I quiestioned. His eyes softened a bit, then looked down. Almost... sad.

"The reason I picked you and you alone for this mission... is because it concerns your brother, Deidara," he said. My glare intensified.

"I thought that was my whole point of being renamed, getting the kinjutsu passed down to me, being in the Explosives corps-" I began to fume. His hand slammed on the desk, silencing me.

"We trained you like that for a reason," he said. I stopped.

"What...?"

"Raiya, we wanted you to match your brother's abilities so we could pinpoint his weaknesses, and so you could one day force him back to the village. Deidara is becoming too no-"

"So I was just a tool...!" It wasn't a question. "I'm just being used just like Konohagakure and its nin are chasing after Itachi Uchiha's younger brother, Sasuke Uchiha."

"Silen-"

"So now you just think I'm going to waltz right into the Akatsuki hideout, and drag my S-ranked criminal brother back here, and make it out of there alive?"

"Will you jus-"

"And then, once I'm done being your little pawn, what's going to happen? Is everything I've trained for for the last year going to just magically go away, like Deidara's been here the whole time?"

"Silence!" he bellowed, both hands slamming on his desk. It is true, I miss my brother, but it is also true that it was Onoki was the one who wanted Deidara gone in the first place. I continued to glare at him. "Will you or will you not accept this mission?"

"As a means to see my brother again, yes. As a means of doing it for the sake of the village, no."

"Then get your things ready," he spat. I turned. "Your mission begins tomorrow morning at seven o'clock sharp."

I made a hand sign and in a puff of smoke, I was out of the room and in my home. A utility belt with bags and pouches containing dull gray/white clay the Explosives corps had provided went with my pile of things for my mission. I added bandages and ointments as well for medical supplies.

All the while, I reminiced about when I was about five, and Deidara was eight.

Flashback

I ran through a field, having found a rare-looking coin. Deidara was studying a pond, looking for a sort of fish.

"Dei!" I called, running faster. He turned to me, looking almost upset that I had disturbed his studies.

"What is it, un?" he asked, standing up. I stopped in front of him and held out my small hand, the coin in my hand. I wasn't sure what metal it was, but it had a yinyang painted on it and blue ring around the edges. He stared at it, a smile growing until he jumped a bit.

"I found this while looking for herbs," I informed him.

"This is... art!" my brother exclaimed. He then hugged me, something he hasn't done since we got separated from our parents. He tensed, then turned to the water.

The glistening pool of cool water seemed harmless, but then emerged an enemy ninja, with the Mist Village's head band tied around their neck.

Fear surged through me like electricity, freezing me in place. The only action my body allowed is to protect the coin. My hand closed around it.

Deidara put his body in between the Mist nin and me, trying to protect me. The Mist nin laughed and walked towards Deidara. In one swipe of his arm, my older brother was sent flying in the other direction. He advanced towards me, a murderous intent in his eyes.

I glanced at Deidara's direction. He was recovering slowly, but steadily. A smirk danced across the nin's face as he advanced.

"I only want the coin," he said simply. I put my fist containing my found treasure behind my back, putting more space between them.

"Just do it, un," Dei said, getting up. I looked back at him, and he rammed his full weight into him, throwing the nin off balance. I stood back, being of no use.

Deidaa had been thrown off into the forest. I started to run after him, but the Mist nin blocked my path.

"Worthless runt," he spat, kicking my small form in the gut. A shadow burst from the woods, two feet planting on his back.

"Don't. Touch. My. Sister!" he growled. The ninja rocked towards me, and I hit him, snaking behind his leg and hitting behind the knees. He fell.

A few moments later, he retreated. I tended to my brother's wounds.

A gash in his right arm and a bruise on his cheek. Regathering the herbs, I made a paste of them and wiped it gently over the cleaned wound. Then I bandaged it up with the hem of my shirt.

"Idiot..." I breathed in my childish voice.

"...un?" he said.

Smiling, I hugged him and threw us in the pond. Both of us laughed hard.

Looking at that same clearing through my window, I got even more ready to see him.

I held the coin in my hand, my thumb gliding over the still-smooth finish. Tomorrow, failure wasn't an option.

I had to bring Deidara back.

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