A/N: This is my first venture into fanfic hopefully multichapter. Reese and Carter where the most intriguing without breaking a sweat, pulling most instantly into their universe. This is just my two cents. I hope you like it The mistakes are mine the characters and the show are not. Please Review.

Chapter 1

Lionel sat on a bench facing the river and lifted his face to the sun he never really was a sunshine kind of guy but he was today, the anniversary. This was one of the last places he talked to her... Carter, his partner, the woman who became his friend. He thought about the journey they traveled not trusting one another to him becoming the best partner she ever had. Lionel chuckled as he remembered asking her for her first name while they were working the Ronny Middleton case "you got a first name Carter, my friends call me Lionel"

"Yea detective"….

"Something funny Lionel"? The familiar whispery voice bringing him out of his reverie "What are you doing here? Captains gonna have your ass if those case files aren't done."

'While I appreciate the concern for my ass Lionel I'm here to keep you company". Reese sat down next to Fusco not ready to admit he didn't want to be anywhere near his desk not today. They sat silently facing the water when Reese began to speak "Do you ever wonder how she did all the things she did for us? Fusco was beyond speechless he couldn't believe tall, dark and sullen would ever share his feelings with him let alone anything that had to do with Carter. ….Reese continued she saved our lives more than once. Reese was thinking about the time she dropped everything to fly to Texas to help him save Finch or how she defended him to Agent Donnelly when he finally caught up to them..." she was a good mom, a good cop, a really good friend"... At that last statement Fusco couldn't hold back his laughter Reese turned and stared at Fusco "sorry big guy but is that still your story that Carter was a friend? See me and lady commando are friends me and fruit loops you could kinda call friends but you and Carter that was a completely different animal. Who took on a dozen U.S. Marshalls to get to Quinn after Simmons shot her? I was in that hallway at that DOD Facility when she was ready to get blown up with you till we reminded her of her kid …not to mention lady commando told me about the time you were being chased by some unis and you called Carter to check up on her to see if she was okay who does that? oh and let's not forget the time you threatened to kill me if anything happened to her when Elias put the hit on her….no that's a little more than friendship, my friend"

Reese looked out over the water taking in what Fusco was saying he had to admit Carter was totally unexpected and losing her affected him in a way he still couldn't explain….stepping in to save him too many times to count, especially that night taking a bullet to the chest and dying in his arms Letting him get away from Mark Snow, never giving up on him, bringing a level of conscience he hadn't experienced in a long time that night in the morgue still haunted him he just had to express something of how he felt about her.

"Look all I'm saying is that she would want you to make peace with whats happened not walk around all broody like you've been this last year why don't you go tell her goodbye"? Reese turned and looked at Fusco again giving him the all too familiar you've got to be kidding me smirk..." What? Your shrink never talked to you about stuff like that it's called bringing closure"... Fusco making air quotes …sounds corny but it works.

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Reese sat in his car for over an hour after he had arrived at the cemetery. Could he do this? Carter had been such a big part of his life for over two years. She was one of the few he could trust even when they were at odds with one another she could even make him smile…. His mind wandered back to the time he had used Carter, Shaw, and Zoe as bait in the Murphy case he was speechless when she walked into the safe house in that leather dress and how he regretted his decision when Ian pick her from the dating profile or even when she turned up at the hospital when he got shot by the number during that armour car robbery. ….he chuckled to himself Carter would be giving him a hard time him hesitating to get this done he climbed out of the car. As he walked up to her headstone his mouth went dry when the shiny object caught his attention…it was the bullet he had given to her that night in the morgue