I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all of my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
It's been twelve years since she left me. I still remember that day. It was all my fault. We had been arguing again. But this time it was different. This time we had the whole Shikon no Tama. That was my first mistake. Keeping that damn cursed jewel around. You would think I had learned my lesson with the whole Kikyo incident. I can still feel her around. My angel. I know she doesn't blame me. But I do. She never could stay mad at anybody. She was so different from Kikyo. I kept telling her I didn't see Kikyo in her but she always could read me like an open book. I never really did see the difference until I killed her. I killed my angel. My Kagome. I didn't mean to do it. But Kikyo had been killed in the last battle with Naraku and Kagome was going to go back to her time. We started arguing I don't even remember what about. But I remember the words I said that took my angel away. I had the jewel in my hand. I had forgotten all about it. I said the worst thing I could think of to make her hate me. I just wanted her to hate me. I thought it might make it easier on both of us. I told her I wish she was dead, then I wouldn't have to see her face again.
These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
I saw the look of horror on everybody's faces. But that wasn't the worst. The damn jewel started to glow black. And then my angel just looked at me and said I know you didn't mean it so I forgive you. And then she died right in front of me. I can still feel her. Even after my friends left. They couldn't stand to stay anywhere near me. Can't say as I blame them. The jewel is even more tainted now than when Naraku had it. Imagine that even the fucking jewel hates me now. Well it needs to join the club.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I've held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me
Kagome how can you still forgive me after what I've done. Why can't you just hate me like everyone else. Kikyo would have. Keh there I go again comparing them. I finally figured out why Kagome is different from Kikyo. Kikyo never could forgive anyone for anything. Kagome can. I think she even forgave Naraku.
You used to captivate me By your resonating light But now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
I've tried to end it all before but my angel wouldn't let me. She still watches over everybody. Maybe someday I'll be able to see her again. I hope I do. I gave the jewel to Sango. Her village protected it before so it only seemed right. That and the fact that I never wanted to see the piece of shit again. Kagome why won't you let me join you. I hear a whisper on the wind. It's my angel. "Because its not your time yet. Live your life to the fullest" she says.
These wounds won't seam to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
I'll try to Kagome but its not the same without you here. I remember all the times that I had to save her from some stupid weak demon. How ironic wouldn't you say. I save her all those time only to kill her myself. With words no less. Every time she cried I felt my heart break. It took us four fucking years to get all the shards. I wouldn't trade a moment of it. I had four years with Kagome by my side.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I've held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me
They weren't enough. Even though the quest turned out pointless because I still didn't get my wish. Well I did but it was more like a curse. Even Kaede couldn't stand to look at me after what I did. They never said that they blamed me for what I did. They never said they didn't either. Even the monk couldn't look me in the eye. I can never blame them. Kagome was our center. She was the anchor that kept us from going mad in all the heartaches we had to endure. She was Sango and Miroku's little sister. She was Shippo's mother. She was Kaede's daughter. She was my life. I loved her from the moment she released me from the Goshinboku. I was just too stupid to realize it. I still had the stupid notion that I loved Kikyo. But I then I realized that I never really did love her. It was just lonliness that brought us together. But with Kagome. I can't even begin to describe what it was like with Kagome. I see her everywhere now. Sometimes I have to stop myself from telling her to make some ramen. I know she's still with me in my heart. But she'll never be with me by my side again. And that is what kills me the most.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that your gone And though your still with me I've been alone all along
It's been twelve years since she left me. I still remember that day. It was all my fault. We had been arguing again. But this time it was different. This time we had the whole Shikon no Tama. That was my first mistake. Keeping that damn cursed jewel around. You would think I had learned my lesson with the whole Kikyo incident. I can still feel her around. My angel. I know she doesn't blame me. But I do. She never could stay mad at anybody. She was so different from Kikyo. I kept telling her I didn't see Kikyo in her but she always could read me like an open book. I never really did see the difference until I killed her. I killed my angel. My Kagome. I didn't mean to do it. But Kikyo had been killed in the last battle with Naraku and Kagome was going to go back to her time. We started arguing I don't even remember what about. But I remember the words I said that took my angel away. I had the jewel in my hand. I had forgotten all about it. I said the worst thing I could think of to make her hate me. I just wanted her to hate me. I thought it might make it easier on both of us. I told her I wish she was dead, then I wouldn't have to see her face again.
These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
I saw the look of horror on everybody's faces. But that wasn't the worst. The damn jewel started to glow black. And then my angel just looked at me and said I know you didn't mean it so I forgive you. And then she died right in front of me. I can still feel her. Even after my friends left. They couldn't stand to stay anywhere near me. Can't say as I blame them. The jewel is even more tainted now than when Naraku had it. Imagine that even the fucking jewel hates me now. Well it needs to join the club.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I've held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me
Kagome how can you still forgive me after what I've done. Why can't you just hate me like everyone else. Kikyo would have. Keh there I go again comparing them. I finally figured out why Kagome is different from Kikyo. Kikyo never could forgive anyone for anything. Kagome can. I think she even forgave Naraku.
You used to captivate me By your resonating light But now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
I've tried to end it all before but my angel wouldn't let me. She still watches over everybody. Maybe someday I'll be able to see her again. I hope I do. I gave the jewel to Sango. Her village protected it before so it only seemed right. That and the fact that I never wanted to see the piece of shit again. Kagome why won't you let me join you. I hear a whisper on the wind. It's my angel. "Because its not your time yet. Live your life to the fullest" she says.
These wounds won't seam to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
I'll try to Kagome but its not the same without you here. I remember all the times that I had to save her from some stupid weak demon. How ironic wouldn't you say. I save her all those time only to kill her myself. With words no less. Every time she cried I felt my heart break. It took us four fucking years to get all the shards. I wouldn't trade a moment of it. I had four years with Kagome by my side.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I've held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me
They weren't enough. Even though the quest turned out pointless because I still didn't get my wish. Well I did but it was more like a curse. Even Kaede couldn't stand to look at me after what I did. They never said that they blamed me for what I did. They never said they didn't either. Even the monk couldn't look me in the eye. I can never blame them. Kagome was our center. She was the anchor that kept us from going mad in all the heartaches we had to endure. She was Sango and Miroku's little sister. She was Shippo's mother. She was Kaede's daughter. She was my life. I loved her from the moment she released me from the Goshinboku. I was just too stupid to realize it. I still had the stupid notion that I loved Kikyo. But I then I realized that I never really did love her. It was just lonliness that brought us together. But with Kagome. I can't even begin to describe what it was like with Kagome. I see her everywhere now. Sometimes I have to stop myself from telling her to make some ramen. I know she's still with me in my heart. But she'll never be with me by my side again. And that is what kills me the most.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that your gone And though your still with me I've been alone all along