He Told Her He Loved Her
A/N: I'm baaaaaaaaack! I should be working on my novella (its called Fix You and is on Fiction Press under my Fan Fiction name [both of which have been changed from Nikki-RoseC to RosalineC by the way] if you're interested in reading it) but I just can't get Castle and Beckett out of my head. This is going to be a oneshot but who knows; once I start writing it might become more.
I don't own Castle; I'm just borrowing the characters because mine don't want to be written right now.
~Rose
Detective Kate Beckett could hear beeping but she didn't know where she was. She didn't know what day it was or why she had an intense feeling of pain in her chest either. The last thing she remembered was Montgomery being shot and Castle trying to comfort her.
She felt something warm and strong grasping her hand. She knew it could have been anyone but somewhere deep inside her she knew it was Castle.
Thinking about Castle it all suddenly came back to her. Montgomery's funeral, her speech, implying she was glad Castle stood by her, then the shot going off and Castle shoving her to the ground and laying over her. She remembered him begging her to stay with him and she had wanted to tell him she would always stay with him. He had looked so heartbroken as her blood seeped up through his fingertips. He begged her to stay some more and told her he loved her.
Kate didn't know what to do about those three little words. She loved him, she did, but Castle was right, she was scared. The last man she had loved was Will and look what he had done to her. The closer she got to someone the more scared she got and the quicker she pulled away. Rick Castle was different. She had actually opened up to him; told him about her mother's murder. She had never been able to do that before. Will knew about her mother but not to the extent Rick did, and neither Tom nor Josh ever found out. Castle was her best friend other than Lanie. He had always been there for her yet every time they got anywhere close to starting a relationship she turned the other way and ran. She didn't know why she did that when they were both clearly in love but her baggage was holding her back.
Castle had baggage of his own. He had two failed marriages and Kate didn't want to become ex wife number three. Castle had never told her why his marriages had failed; just that he thought they were the right thing to do at the time.
There were so many moments that could have been but something always happened. There was the time Kate was going to tell him that she thought they should give a relationship a chance but Castle's ex wife walked in and took him away for the summer. There was the kiss that they both knew was more than just a rouse. There was the freezer where they almost froze to death in each other's arms. There were many moments where they looked at each other for longer than was necessary. It was those moments they both almost said something that would have changed the dynamic of their relationship forever, but they never said it. The closest thing they had to coming to terms with the relationship that never was, was when they argued in Kate's apartment. He had accused her of hiding in relationships with men she didn't love, and she had challenged him to tell her how he really felt about her.
She had been awful to him that night; he didn't deserve that. She had been planning on apologizing after Montgomery's funeral but never got a chance due to the bastard that shot her in the chest.
Castle. He was by her side, it had to be him. He was the only one other than her father that loved her completely despite her many flaws. She had to wake up for him. And when she did wake up she had to tell him how she really felt. The night in the freezer and the day she got shot were both so vivid in her memory. She tried to tell him she loved him when she thought she was dying; he told her he loved her when he thought she was dying. No more; she would tell him how much she really loved him before either of them had another near death experience.
A/N: Okay well apparently this is going to be a two –shot. Drop me a review and let me know what ya thought.
~Rose