Tobi is Gone! Tobi's POV
Time flew by, ridding me of any free time that I might have once had. The night flew by, like an eagle swooping for its prey. My life was even more over than that the owl outside my window was snacking on. I heard the unfortunate animal squeal as it was devoured. I shuddered as the animal protested one last time and died. Ever since I'd joined the Akatsuki I have felt like I was nothing but another piece on the chest board of life.
"Tobi! Where are you?" I heard Zetsu-sama yell as I sighed.
"Coming, Zetsu-sama! Tobi is a good boy!" I squealed in my most annoying, most childish voice.
No one, not even Zetsu, knew about my inner, more intense feelings and thoughts. I was nothing but a pain in the ass. Hurrah for me if I was suicidal. The others would most likely celebrate the occasion... most of them hate me. It was a fact and I hated it. I wanted to be seen as a friend for once, not a stupid idiot that knew shit all. Hmm... As if Tobi-kun!
"Tobi, Pein-sama needs to see us, and quickly, yeah! As in now, you dimwit, yeah!" This time it wasn't Zetsu. Deidara-'senpai' sounded tired and sad, like he had ever since Sasori-sama died. "Hurry you baka!"
I ran out of my room, Deidara following me slower than a snail. He kept grumbling as I hummed the waffle song under my breath. I realised soon that I'd forgotten to grab my mask, but it felt good to feel the air on my face.
"Jesus Tobi! I'm sick of your happiness, un! Are you ever sad, hm?" My senpai looked about ready to kill me and I winced.
What should I do? Say no and continue? Deidara looked guilty all of a sudden and I reached a hand up to my face. Shit! I'd forgotten my mask and I was crying! The tears cascaded down my cheeks. It felt good to let go but I knew that Deidara would mention it to someone and the last thing I need is pity votes. The thought of Hidan trying to cheer me up shook me to the core. I nearly choked as I held back the desire to sob and make a fuss.
"Aw, shit, yeah! Tobi... I didn't mean to make you upset, yeah. I just..." I cut him off in disbelief with an angry sob.
"Yeah right Deidara-senpai. You all hate me and don't give a damn if you show it. You probably want to show it most of the fucking time! I am not Itachi! I'm not going blind! I can tell that you all hate me! If I was killed you'd probably thank whoever killed me and then celebrate! No wonder I don't fit it!" I was practically screaming by the end, drawing the other members from their rooms.
"Tobi? What the hell? Do you really think that yeah? You do get annoying at times and I do feel like killing you most of the time, but if you died I'd mourn you, like I mourn Sasori, hm. You are a member of this organisation and we have to stick together, hm." I didn't realise it at the time but Deidara was trembling like a leaf in the wind. I looked at him and I saw the fresh tears rolling down his cheeks.
Pein walked out of his room and saw Deidara and the tears rolling down his cheeks. I'd disturbed him and that put him in a sour mood. "What did you do Tobi? Get outta here and don't come back!"Leader-sama looked so angry I didn't dare argue. I piss-bolted out of there like a bullet out of a gun.
I ran for the nearest trees, ready to end my life and move on. I got into the shadows and nearly fell into a fast flowing river. I can't swim and this was the most perfect way to end a painfully miserable life, any life that was as fucked as mine needed to end, and quickly. I tugged off my cloak and perched on a branch. I looked at the water and knew that I'd need to prepare for a while. I murmured all of my goodbyes, tears running down my cheeks. Man, ending my life was harder than killing anyone. It was harder than I could've ever thought...