I think about the way that you use me.
I think about the way that you haunt my thoughts,
I think about the way that it's my heart you have caught.
And then I think about the ways that I think about you and I realize,
That is't not that I hate you it's the way you hate me that I dispise.
I will admit that you have caught my heart but I don't love you,
Never will my life feel lonely and incomplete without you.
Don't try and undo things done in the past,
Or reminis in things that we know can't last.
And even though you hate me I could never hate you back,
Your hate has shaped a part of who I am and that's a definate fact.
You may not realize the ways that you hurt me,
And you may not realize the way you use me.
You may not know how you haunt me,
Or the way the your hate shapes me.
But I know that without your shaping of me that I would not be as strong as I am now,
And I know that it would be impossible to explain to you how,
You make me stronger and better each and every day,
Even though you attempt to turn my brightly colored feelings to gray.
So thank you for what you give to me the rude thoughts and things done from you,
And thank you for the pain you made me feel again another gift from you.
Because without them I would never be so strong as I am now,
This is my gratitude I don't know what to do but I'll thank you some how.