A/N: This my first ever story! Got into fan fic a while ago and decided to write some myself. This story is about real life issues such as self harming, anorexia and bulimia and may be hard to read sometimes. There will be odd bits of Auslly.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything in this story except the bits you don't recognise and the unique characters.

Ally's POV

Fireworks that's what I felt then she came and said those unimaginable words "Yes Austin I'll be your girlfriend" (May not be exact as did it from memory) Then the fireworks and butterflies turned into daggers and people pulling out your insides. Run. That's what I had to do. Run. Run from the pain, the hurt and him. That's when I made the vow to myself. The vow that whenever I saw them together I would take it out on myself by slitting my arm as he would never want me. We can just go back to yesterday or last week where we didn't have feelings for each other and were just partners who made great music. But will it or can it just return to the way it was. He was just caught up in the adrenaline I keep telling myself and if I was completely honest with myself I was too.

Today it was trying to get back to the routine before. Opening the store at 7, going to school, getting back to the store around 5 then going to dance practise. Yeah don't judge me I act like a bad dancer only because if someone found out I was a good dancer I would be expected to perform on stage and I could never do that. Well not now at least not after I lost my mum and my older sister Jasmine. They were my confidence, they were the ones that got me on the Broadway stage when I was nine playing young Cosette in Les Miserable with my solo every evening for three months. Then that confidence disappeared when they both died I tried deep down to get back up but no luck. I haven't performed since as a dancer until last night. Up on that stage with Austin made me realise why I loved to perform. Now all I am trying, and failing, to get away from him because he would just tear me up again after what Kira said. I tell you this truthfully that I already have four slits two on each arm. Doesn't he get the message I don't want to talk to him and he's the reason I am doing this. I'm starving but all my head is telling me is 'Ally you're not good enough to eat maybe if you become skinnier he will want you' So that's what I'll do whenever anyone forces me to eat go and force myself to be sick.

Austin's POV

I was walking round the mall with Trish and Dez talking over what happened last night I wasn't really focusing on what they were saying because the little voice in the back of my head kept talking to me more. Come on Ally where are you I need to talk to you when I finally spot her she runs. Why is she doing this? Ally you're forgetting that I am faster than you. I start chasing her until I catch her. Then I see something I never expect to see. Ally's wrist was pouring out blood it was obvious she had cut it on something.

"Come on Ally we need to get you to a doctor to look at your wrist." I said trying to be comforting and calm.

"No." That's all she said. I know I only saw her yesterday but she looked like she had lost weight already.

"Ally I'm not joking it looks serious."

"Leave me ALONE! Since when do you care about me?" Ally glares at me she isn't herself today maybe she's just having a bad day.

"Since when we became friends actually." Then she just ran and I decided just to let her go she needs to have time by herself and me forcing her to tell me why she's acting extremely strange. But Trish decided to go after so she will still have someone with her.

Trish POV

After chasing Ally for a while she stops in the practise room at Sonic Boom. Her eyes were really puffy and red most likely from crying. I sit next to her comforting her as she listens to Never Grow Up (I don't own this all rights to Taylor Swift) every time she listens to this song she thinks about her Mom and sister. After sitting with her for twenty minutes I gently take her wrist and look at them unlike Austin I say nothing to her but just look her in the eyes with the 'don't do it again' look and she completely understands.