A/N: Fair warning this entire fic is going to be relatively short. Read this with the knowledge that it will not be an extensive multi-chapter fic

Be Still My Heart

'Be still my heart. Soon, it will all be okay.'

Fear engulfed your gaze – those forest green gems that I had come to love were blurred with horror and panic.

You gasped my name as you struggled – clawing and fighting to no avail.

'Be still my heart – there is no need to fear.'

My breath choked in my throat as tears streamed down my face – unrestrained grief, despair and anguish settled in my chest.

I looked down upon you – unable to stop; unable to move; unable to relieve you of this pain.

'Be still my heart – let us end this struggle.'

I watched as the light in your eyes dimmed. My tears that fell - trickled down your cheek. Your hands and nails that desperately clawed and pried at mine lost all life and soon collapsed to your side.

I released my hold upon your once pristine neck – to reveal the bruised skin I had caused. I stared at my accursed hands – my hateful and detestable hands that can never be washed clean from the bloods it's been stained with – less now than ever.

'Why? Why have I done this?'

The distant roar of the wave crashing against the cliffs below was a soothing hum to my turbulent heart.

I looked at my hands again in disgust.

'How could I have done such a thing? How could I have done that to you?'

Tears flowed from my eyes once again and my heart torn open from those images I recalled.

The feeling of nausea jumped in my throat but I fought it back – I looked out and far into the horizon – the pinkish purple glow reflected in both the sky and the ocean and I hardened my resolve.

'Be still my heart. Everything will be okay.'

It was time I stopped these atrocious limbs of mine – stop them from hurting; stop them from killing ever again.

I grasped the road barrier as I looked down the long fall into jagged rock – where unforgiving waves slammed themselves against.

'Be still my heart – don't be afraid.'

I swallowed the lump in my throat as I prepared to climb over my obstacle.

It was the only way to stop these murderous hands of mine from doing the one thing I cannot forgive myself for; the one thing I'd rather die than watch myself do - again and again.

'Be still my heart – let us put an end to this.'

I took my final breath – breathing in deeply, closing my eyes and opening them again to look into the vibrant skies above.

The images of you appear before me again – the horror; the pain; the struggle – I can no longer tell between what is real and what is not.

"Shizuru! Stop!" I hear your voice scream once more.

A/N: Yes there are more chapters to come, and don't worry - as always - there will be a happy ending... maybe... Muahahaha!