Disclaimer: I do not own or consider owning Final Fantasy X or its characters.
This was kind of a sudden thought while listening to really sad songs and talking to my boyfriend on the phone. Hah. That's what I get. ;p
I would love an R&R. :)
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Dreaming Dearly
I can't seem to erase that last image of you from my mind; the sight of you jumping from the airship made my eyes burn from the tears I kept holding back. I whispered that I loved you, and you simply replied with a sweet smile and a light, fading embrace. Lately, I've almost felt that at that exact moment of your departure, every feeling of elation had left my body.
The memories are a bitter sweet reminder of all the times we shared. I remember watching you fast asleep, and discovering that everything I had feared meant nothing only because I knew you were going to be there with me, holding my hand every step of the way. There was a new light in you and I; it was as if you were my sanctuary. Now it seems to be a mere crumbled church.
Before we fought Yu Yevon, you said it was going to be the last battle we'd have together. I felt cold, out of breath, and for a second, I thought I would die at the simple thought of you leaving. I didn't know what was perfectly right to think, except that we had to save Spira, and that there was no going back, because going back meant we had failed. Was rescuing the world more critical than saving your true love? I can't imagine it could have been argued….
Of course it's wonderful we helped everyone in our time and even future generations, but how can I receive all of the praise everyone is so generously giving me? I never could, though I know that is what you would want me to do. I'm so very sorry, but I can't just put your support aside. It's hard to not speak of you when the subject comes about. My words become cluttered and mislead, but in my heart I know what I truly mean to say.
Deep inside I still feel there is a way for you to return. Perhaps the one thing separating me from you is myself. Once – if – I find a way, I won't stop unless I can feel your gentle kiss once more. Until then, I'll leave my dreams of you to keep me warm at night.