What I Miss
Description: The thoughts of a Katniss Everdeen
Its been atleast 8 months since i've had any encounter with Gale. We had a brief conversation, then he touched my cheek and just left without notice. Even now that I have Peeta to keep me wrapped up in his arms to ward away the nightmares that haunt my brain, I still miss Gale, having a hunting partner... A bestfriend.
He's now in District Two and we don't even contact each other, nothing. I expected a letter or maybe even a call. I wonder if he even remembers me, thinks about me like I do with him. He left to District Two without warning. They didn't even tell me what job he's making a living on. But then I never ask about him, only in my head where I ask questions that I have no answer to.
I snuggle closer to Peeta. Burying my face in his chest.
If I had ran away with him, what would happen? Would we live in the woods forever? Would Panem still be controlled by Snow? But what if I ran off to District Two with him? What am I thinking, i'm ridiculous.
Sometimes I feel so lonely without him, sometimes I actually imagine kissing him again. We were so close, now were just strangers that have never even met. All of those years with him now just faded away, like it never happened.
He's probably in Two kissing a new pair of lips, someone as handsome as him could get almost anybody. And to think of it... He loved me. A random Seam girl. Why would he love someone like me? I'm a mess. And I know its not because of my appearance, I'm half burned patched up with random skin... Which is in fact starting to grow on my body normally. Does he still love me? I just wanna talk to him again I have so much questions waiting on my tounge. I wanna hear his voice, see his gray Seam eyes and just have my bestfriend back.
Even if it could be his bomb that killed Prim. I would forgive him. Just thinking of all of the people I loved... and lost, Finnick, Prim, Rue and now Gale. I wonder what would happen if Prim wasn't reaped. If I never volunteered.
There's nothing wrong with Peeta, he's not mental anymore and it was a good thing I didn't kill him in the Captiol when he wanted to kill himself. But having a bestfriend is way different than having a lover.
But honestly I miss Gale Hawthorne. Actually...
I love Gale Hawthorne.
After all this time thinking about Gale I never noticed Peeta was awake. I shifted my body to see his face. He smiled his soft smile and kissed my forehead... I opened my mouth to speak but he beat me to it.
He whispers "You love me. Real or not real?"
Without hesitation I say... "Real."