Hey guys I decided to re-do this chapter because this was the first fanfic I ever writ and it wasn't the best ) x

Catherine's POV

My moms sick! I still cant say it out Loud, the mere thought just makes me sick, today is September 24 and this day two months ago my mom told me the news that she had been diagnosed with terminal cancer. Everyday She's growing weaker, losing her hair , and I guess my dad leaving didn't help either

When the going gets tough run right?

Well With me being the only one she's got and heather gone away to collage I made the decision to leave the force after 4 years of being a detective, I handed in my gun and badge...for now at least and told my mom that if she ever needed anything day or night to just call. god! Her diagnosis is still so fresh To me that the day she told me is always haunting my dreams

~ flashback ~

Catherine and Tess had just finished a case that they felt like was never going to end

"well.. I'm about ready to devour a couple beers whatta you say"

Tess said wiping away beads of sweat from her forehead as the scorching heat of July took full effect

"yeah...sure I've just gotta go back to my apartment first but I'll meet you there" Catherine replied rising onto her feet and grabbing her jackets from behind the chair as Tess nod her head

As cat closed the door behind her after entering the apartment she began to feel knots in her stomach when she heard a noise coming from the bedroom. So when she called out for her sister and got no response she took out her gun from the holster and rose it to eye level as she slowly began to walk down the hallway

When she reached the door of her room she took a deep breath and swung it open pointing the gun forward keeping a firm grip on the trigger

As she made her way in her eyes scanning everything in sight she let out a sigh of relief when she found a cat on her dresser and her lamp on the floor

How did you get in here? She thought as her eyes strayed from the cat to her bedroom window that had been left open

She shook her head and put the cat outside the window making sure it was securely locked before she left

As she left her bedroom again and made her way threw the apartment she could feel her phone vibrating so reached inside her back pocket and pulled it out

A smile covered her face as mom popped up on the caller ID

"hey mom I was just heading out is it alright if I call you back" she answered as she grabbed her keys off the counter

"actually Catherine its not I need to tell you something but not over the the phone can you come over" Vanessa chandler said in a shaky tone

"Is everything ok mom" she could feel her heart rate kick up a notch

"I'll explain everything to you when you get here"

"Okay I'll be right there" she replied before hanging up the phone, she could feel a lump start to form in her throat as she tried not to let her mind run away from her but she couldn't help it .

When she left her apartment and hopped into the car. she texted Tess cancelling there beer date for another time and started the engine

as she reached the drive way of her child hood house she could feel tears burning her eyes but held them back...after all there mighten even be anything majorly wrong or so that's what she kept telling herself.

When she entered the house her mother greeted her with a hug and led her into the kitchen sitting at the table, Vanessa began to explain what was going on and in that moment cat could feel her whole world falling apart

her mom was dieing

that's all that registered to her and at that moment all she wanted to do was cry and cry until she woke up from this nightmare but it was real and she knew that she had to be strong...strong for her mom

But After she left the house and arrived back at her apartment

She leant her back up against the door trying to process everything she had just been told and numbly walked into her bedroom curled herself into a ball under the sheets and uncontrollably sobbed until she fell sleep .

~ present ~

I pressed my foot down on the excellerater when I received a call from the hospital telling me that my mom had been rushed in after a neighbour found her unconscious in the drive way and right now I'm finding it hard to breath.

When I pull up outside the hospital I ran as fast as I could inside and made my way up to the reception

"I'm looking for Vanessa chandler she was brought in about 50 minutes ago" I said breathlessly and the nurse began to go through the files on her computer

I could feel my anger and anxiety build up "HURRY UP" I shouted in an aggravated tone as a stray tear fell down my cheek but quickly wiped it away

the nurse just threw me a glance and when I looked up i realized there were about 30 eyes staring at me so I buried my face in my hands.

suddenly I heard a voice from behind me

"miss chandler" as I heard the voice I spun around quicker than I thought possible to find the person who matched the voice and saw a tall man wearing scrubs, holding a chart in his hand walking toward me

"yes" i replied leaving out a breath I didn't realize i was holding

"my names dr. Keller I'm your mothers doctor" he said as he tried to calm me down

"wheres my mom?" I asked in a desperate and worried tone

"shes just out of surgery now and resting" he replied and I could feel a wave of relief cover my body As I asked him

"can I see her?"

he nodded his head and walked me towards her room. as we reached the doorway I heard his voice again

"I'll give you a minute" he said as I entered the room and closed the door behind me.

I made my way up the side of her bed And saw she was hooked up to a ventilator, as I reached out to hold her hand in mine it was so cold I choked back the tears telling myself that everything was going to be fine but in reality I new I was going to loose my mom and now it was only a matter of time .

About 30 minutes after sitting with her a nurse came in to check her vitals so I decided to take a breather. As I left the room wiping the tears off my cheeks I saw the doctor talking to one of the nurse but as soon as I closed the the door behind me he walked over

"miss chandler" he called and I turned to look at him

"I've been watching your mothers progress and if you have time I'd like to explain to you the full extent of her condition"

"yeah...sure" I replied trying to control my emotions.

as we walked towards the canteen in silence, I sat at one of the tables as he brought us over two coffees and began to explain

"miss chandler your mothers condition … "

"its Catherine" she interrupted "call me Catherine" she said as she took a sip of her coffee

"okay Catherine, I'm Vincent" he replied before continuing with his explanation

"I'm sorry to say this but your mothers condition has declined rapidly and I think that you should be prepared for the worst " She looked at him with her eyes watering

"by the worst you mean she would die" She looked down as tears began to fall onto the table

"Hey, if you ever need someone to talk too I'm here" Vincent placed his hand over Catherine's and lightly squeezed it

"thank you" she replied barely above a whispered as they looked at each other

"how long" she asked taking a shaky breath

"if she makes it through tonight, then we'll take it from there" he paused before continuing as a small smile covered his face

"you know your mom talks about you all the time, every checkup she would tell me how proud she was of you her daughter the NYPD detective"

"ex" she said and he furrowed his eyebrows

"well for now atleast".

as there conversation continued on they talked constantly for the next hour never straying from each others eyes which made cat somehow feel calm like everything was going to be ok.

suddenly she saw a hand touch Vincent's shoulder and they both stood up

"hey Vince I just thought id bring you some lunch" a tall red haired woman with blue eyes holding a paper bag said as Vincent turned around and gave her a peck on the lips

"Catherine this is Alex my girlfriend"

"it's nice to meet you" Alex said with a smile and cat replied "yeah u too"

As she looked back at Vincent she said

"I should be getting back to my mom, thanks for the coffee "

he nod his head and replied "no problem" as she began to walk back to her moms room

When she was a few steps away from the door she heard a machine go off and rushed to her side

"MOM, MOM" she said as she began sobbing and screamed

"NO MOM PLEASE DON'T GO I NEED YOU"

suddenly all the doctors and nurses began to rush in "HELP HER" i shouted An suddenly felt a pair of arms rap around me and pull me out into the hallway

"Catherine" Vincent Said releasing me out of his arms

"you need to calm down we'll do what we can to help your mother but you need to stay here " And with that he turned around and walked into the room shutting the door behind.

As hours past I waited sitting on the ground against the wall across the way from her room and suddenly heard the door open and saw Vincent walk out

I rose to my feet and walked toward him but I could tell from his expression that she didn't make it

"she's gone, isn't she " she said as she choked back the tears

"I'm sorry Catherine we did all we could"

Vincent replied and as his last words had registered to her, her knees gave way but Vincent caught her before she hit the floor as she let out a scream

he held her in his arms as she cried and cried until she was so tired she fell asleep and he lift her into his arms walking down the Hall and into one of the overnight rooms.

he put her in the bed that he would use if he ever had a late shift and covered her with a light blanket

as he turned around to leave and saw she was so peaceful he could feel his heart ache

Yeah... like his other patients he was sad that she had lost a loved one but she was different and he didn't know why he felt this way but he did.