Over You
by starstruck
Author's Note: Inspired by a song. I doubt you'll know which one it is - unless, of course, you've listened to it as many times as I have.
If you're looking for fluffy, happy D/G... you won't find it here.
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She blames him for her loneliness because he can. She knows it's not his fault, it's no one's fault except her own.
She still blames him.
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You're unhappy.
No, I'm not.
You're lying again.
Why would I lie to you?
Because you can.
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She feels like she is ready for anything, but she knows she isn't.
She stops and notices the scenery now. The golden sun. The sky. It's bluer than she remembers.
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Look.
I am.
No, you're not. You never look at anything.
I do now.
You think you do. But you don't see things the way they are. Everything is black and white to you.
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She knows she wants him. Desperately. And somehow, she knows he wants her.
But he left her no choice.
As much as she loves him, she brings him down.
He brings her down.
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I... I just don't think... we can't keep living like this.
Why do you say that?
Because... it's not good for either of us. I... I do love you. But you won't remember that, will you?
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Together, they are everything and nothing.
So she left.
Or maybe he left.
He brings her down.
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It doesn't matter, anyway. I'm going away.
Why?
You always do.
I do?
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Even now, one, two, three tears fall slip down her pale cheek.
She tells her self that someday, someday she'll be over him.
But she wonders if someday will ever come.
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Always.
You're crying again.
I can't help it.
Is it really this hard for you?
Maybe not. Maybe we just make it this hard.
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She watches everything go by her, leaving her in the dust. She is detached from the world, hardly a part of it anymore.
It is all his influence.
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Are you going to watch the world go by again?
I suppose.
What do you see there?
So many things. Things I used to know. But I don't recognize them any more. I'm not like them anymore.
You're you now.
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Sometimes, as she lies awake in the dark, she wonders what it's like to be happy. Not the artificial happiness she wears and feels every day.
She dreams of the kind of happiness where you are always happy, every moment.
To wake up every single day, smile on her face.
She tries so hard to be that way.
She knows that is where she fails.
They never try.
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Don't you wish we could be happy?
So you're going because... you want to be happy?
I'm coming back.
No, you're not.
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She knows, somewhere in the back of her mind, that she cannot change it. That he cannot change it.
She'll have to face it.
She doesn't know anymore.
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I have to go. You understand that, don't you?
No, I don't.
You should.
You can't change anything, you know.
I can.
No, you won't. I know you wish you could wave your wand and make it all better, but you can't. It won't work.
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She does know that she broke every time he walked away.
As much as she tried not to.
She clings to the memory of him desperately.
Part of her wishes she could give him up.
But even if she did, would she really let him go?
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I'm going now.
No, you're not. You keep saying you will, but you keep staying. With me.
I really am going. I won't stay.
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She still counts her tears.
She is deluding herself, she knows.
She's not over him.
She never will be.
by starstruck
Author's Note: Inspired by a song. I doubt you'll know which one it is - unless, of course, you've listened to it as many times as I have.
If you're looking for fluffy, happy D/G... you won't find it here.
&&
She blames him for her loneliness because he can. She knows it's not his fault, it's no one's fault except her own.
She still blames him.
&&
You're unhappy.
No, I'm not.
You're lying again.
Why would I lie to you?
Because you can.
&&
She feels like she is ready for anything, but she knows she isn't.
She stops and notices the scenery now. The golden sun. The sky. It's bluer than she remembers.
&&
Look.
I am.
No, you're not. You never look at anything.
I do now.
You think you do. But you don't see things the way they are. Everything is black and white to you.
&&
She knows she wants him. Desperately. And somehow, she knows he wants her.
But he left her no choice.
As much as she loves him, she brings him down.
He brings her down.
&&
I... I just don't think... we can't keep living like this.
Why do you say that?
Because... it's not good for either of us. I... I do love you. But you won't remember that, will you?
&&
Together, they are everything and nothing.
So she left.
Or maybe he left.
He brings her down.
&&
It doesn't matter, anyway. I'm going away.
Why?
You always do.
I do?
&&
Even now, one, two, three tears fall slip down her pale cheek.
She tells her self that someday, someday she'll be over him.
But she wonders if someday will ever come.
&&
Always.
You're crying again.
I can't help it.
Is it really this hard for you?
Maybe not. Maybe we just make it this hard.
&&
She watches everything go by her, leaving her in the dust. She is detached from the world, hardly a part of it anymore.
It is all his influence.
&&
Are you going to watch the world go by again?
I suppose.
What do you see there?
So many things. Things I used to know. But I don't recognize them any more. I'm not like them anymore.
You're you now.
&&
Sometimes, as she lies awake in the dark, she wonders what it's like to be happy. Not the artificial happiness she wears and feels every day.
She dreams of the kind of happiness where you are always happy, every moment.
To wake up every single day, smile on her face.
She tries so hard to be that way.
She knows that is where she fails.
They never try.
&&
Don't you wish we could be happy?
So you're going because... you want to be happy?
I'm coming back.
No, you're not.
&&
She knows, somewhere in the back of her mind, that she cannot change it. That he cannot change it.
She'll have to face it.
She doesn't know anymore.
&&
I have to go. You understand that, don't you?
No, I don't.
You should.
You can't change anything, you know.
I can.
No, you won't. I know you wish you could wave your wand and make it all better, but you can't. It won't work.
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She does know that she broke every time he walked away.
As much as she tried not to.
She clings to the memory of him desperately.
Part of her wishes she could give him up.
But even if she did, would she really let him go?
&&
I'm going now.
No, you're not. You keep saying you will, but you keep staying. With me.
I really am going. I won't stay.
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She still counts her tears.
She is deluding herself, she knows.
She's not over him.
She never will be.