The Proposal: Remembering the First Time
Pairing: Kyo Sohma x Yuki Sohma
POV: Yuki Sohma
I'm awake. I don't have enough energy to open my eyes but I'm awake. I want to fall back asleep but the sunlight shining on me is telling me to get the hell up. I squint my eyes tightly: nope. I try turning my head the other way: not gonna happen. I give up, I think as I slowly open my eyes, trying to get used to the sun in my face.
I try to lift myself up; a strong surge of pain in my hips and lower back makes ne flop back down. I feel the presence of another person. I look down and realize that there's an arm around. I slowly turn my head and see the weirdest thing ever: Kyo, sleeping soundly with his arms wrapped tightly around me.
What… the… hell…!, I inwardly scream. I'm about to scream, yell, freak out, and kill Kyo all at the same time when an abrupt memory clouds my mind:
-Memory: start-
I walk down the steps, making my way towards the living room. It's been a long day filled with Momiji's childish antics, Hatsuharu's constant clinginess, and so much other crap; I just wanted to relax and watch my favorite show on TV.
I make my way into the living room and see the one person I really don't want to see: Kyo. That dumb cat, I thought almost automatically. The atmosphere is awkward because I haven't seen him all day, at least not since this morning.
When I think about it, he's been acting weird since last night. In short: we were going to pick up Tohru from her job, Kyo started an idiotic argument, his clumsy-ass trips on a stick (of all things) and falls on top of me, just as Shigure and Tohru come waltzing past us. Shigure wouldn't shut up about it, even when we got home. He kept telling his crappy jokes until we were all so tired we went to bed. Kyo, though, was strangely quiet the entire time and, when Shigure was done, said good night and went to bed. I still didn't understand why…
I remember Kyo and come back to the present. He was just sitting there, staring at the TV screen, though it wasn't even on. He seemed to be contemplating something. I wonder what it is…. I thought. I decide to go find out.
I walk up back to Kyo. "Hey," I say to him. He doesn't answer. I repeat myself. Nothing again. I say it again, prolonging it this time to the point where it would be very annoying. He still doesn't say anything. I'm about to just smack him on the head when he suddenly says, "Do you need something?"
This isn't Kyo…. He has Kyo's voice but it's not Kyo….. This is not the idiot cat I know…., I thought inside my head.
"What's wrong with you?" I ask him. He doesn't answer. I walk over to him and sit down. "What's wrong with you?" I repeat, slight agitation in my voice. He slowly turned his head to me. I could see sadness in his eyes; I've never seen that before. He opens his mouth to say something but then quickly closes it. "What?" I ask. He just shakes his head and goes back to staring at the TV.
This sad-sack act is really starting to annoy me…. I take a deep breath and say, "If you don't tell me what it is, I'll beat it out of you…." I say with obvious annoyance. Kyo looks at me with wide eyes, probably surprised at my threat. "You know I'm capable of doing it…" I add.
Kyo just quickly smirks and turns his head back to the TV. What the hell is— He interrupts my thoughts when he says, "Do you remember what Shigure said yesterday?"
"Huh?" I say.
"He said something about marriage…"
I look at him, completely confused. What the hell was he talking about? Then I remember: it was when Shigure was telling his terrible jokes last night. Shigure had said, "I knew it! I just knew it! Ha ha ha! I knew the day would come when you two would get together soon! You fight like an old married couple practically every single day, you might as well be married! Oh goodness, cat and mouse, in holy matrimony…. HAAAAA!" Yeah, I remember that… He thought he was such a comedian, I decided to see if he could come up with jokes after I threw a shoe at his head as hard as I could.
I again come back to reality. I turn my head to Kyo, still staring at the TV with disinterest. What does that joke have to do with him? We just sat there for a while, me trying to ponder why in the world that crap joke had any meaning and Kyo just doing as he had been doing the entire time. I'm never going to get results just thinking about it. I have to ask. I turn to Kyo and ask, "What significance does that joke have with your weird behavior?"
He quickly turns his head to me, looking at me as if I had just said 'I'm a girl' (which I am not, for all you people who think I am…). Then he suddenly bursts out laughing, the most emotion I've seen from him all day. I'm confused and it's probably quite visible on my face. Why is he laughing? What the hell!?
I'm about to question him when I feel something warm on my hand. I look down and see that the warmth came from his hand. I can see him inch closer to me and I automatically tense up, ready to fight. I feel a warm breath near my neck, which surprisingly ran a shiver down my spine. He whispered in my ear, "What would you do if I proposed?"
I look back up and suddenly his lips were on mine. They were soft and very warm. They were sweet, almost too sweet, but I liked it. The passion in this one kiss made my mind go blank… His lips are so warm… His… Wait… These are Kyo's lips! What the fuck!?
I immediately shove him away from me and crawl to the other side of the room as quickly as you could. I try to say, 'Why the hell did you just do that!? What the hell is wrong with you?!' That kiss obviously screwed up my brain because it came out like this: "Mmmhmshkskifghajh!" I could tell from that smirk on his face that the sound that reached his ears was of a frustrated, angry baby.
I'm still trying to get the words out right, kind of flailing my arms a bit. I didn't notice that he had moved near me until I felt arms wrap around me, a comforting warmth emanating from him. I'm freaking out on the inside and babbling on the outside; I was mess right now… I hear him chuckle. He whispers into my ear, "Do you understand my proposal?"
I scary thought has just popped into my head: He likes me… HE LIKES ME!? No, no, no, that's not possible… Is it… I DON'T KNOW! I'm just freaking out inwardly right now…
I suddenly feel something warm on my neck and an erotic sound escapes my lips. Did I just moan?! Ah, hell… His lips were on my neck, planting sweet kisses on my neck. An arm was wrapped around my waist, stroking my sides, while his lips moved up and down my neck slowly. It was like he wanted to savor every inch of my skin… "Yuki, your moans are so sexy," he whispers into my ear, seductiveness clear in his voice
I don't know why but that somehow made me think he was a vampire and I was just expecting him to slowly bite into my neck, slowly sucking my blood while getting me off at the same time. That sounds so sexy… He's really messing up my thoughts….Ugh…
I feel something rough and wet travel up my neck, almost forcing a moan to escape me. Kyo's tongue traveled from the nape of my neck all the way up to edge of my earlobe. Although his tongue was rough like a cat's tongue usually is, it was somehow till smooth.
I was so caught up by the pleasure his tongue gave me, I was surprised to feel warm fingers on my bare chest. I open my eyes, which I didn't even realize were closed, and look down; Kyo's hand was under my shirt. I flinch as Kyo pinched my nipple until it became erect. I bite my bottom lip to try and stop the noises that kept escaping me. His fingers swirled around my nipples, just playing with them for a while. He suddenly lifted up my shirt. His mouth had made contact with one of my nipples and a loud moan escaped me. How can his mouth feel so good?!
"You're so sensitive, Yuki" he said in the sexiest voice I've ever heard. The combination of his hands, lips, and seductive voice made me want all of him…
Moments later, I'm somehow in nothing but my underwear; my pants and shirt have miraculously flown across the room. When did I take my clothes off? How do they just vanish from my body and appear across the room?
Kyo's hands made me completely forget about that. It felt as if they were everywhere: running through my hair, stroking the inner part of my thighs, playing with my nipples; just everywhere! It just amazing how he could make me feel so good and just, I don't know, make me feel like there are no worries in the world. I was just completely lost in the pleasure he gave me. I was in a haze, content with this moment…
Well, that is, until I felt a hand on my crotch. "WHAT THE FUCK!?" I yelled, roughly pushing Kyo away from me and immediately crawling as fast as I can across the room. I went to the corner and curl up into the fetal position, just rocking back and forth, facing the wall.
I hear footsteps coming close to me and automatically tense up. I feel his arms wrap around me very gently, as if I'd break on contact. I'm wondering whether he's naked or not. "What's wrong, Yuki?" he asks me.
Well, gee, I wonder what it is…. Maybe it's the fact that you grabbed my crotch? Or maybe it's because I'm probably going to be the bottom? I really wonder what the heck it is…..
"Yuki?" Kyo's voice gets me out of my head. He's really worried about me; I don't know how I know but I just know. He won't understand unless I say it… *sigh* I have to tell him… I take a deep breath and say, "If we do this, am I going to be the bottom?"
I feel a bit of a rumble as he lightly chuckled. "Would you rather I be the bottom? It's okay if we switch places…" he says.
How the hell am I supposed to know what to do?! I don't know how people on top do that! Well actually I do, but so do most people. I don't want to be a bottom though… Why would he even consider that?! Is he considering my feelings or does he like that amateur feeling? You know what, I'm not even gonna think about this…
I sigh; thinking about it was a waste of time. "Kyo, you know I won't know what the hell to do if that happened…" I say bluntly. He chuckles and says, "If you don't want to be a bottom, I'll help guide you to be a good top." I can somehow feel him smile.
I don't think I can do this… This is too much… As if reading my mind, Kyo says, "Yuki, we went this far. You're not having second thoughts, are you?"
I decide to be honest with him. "Kyo," I start, "I just don't think I'm ready yet…" I feel a hand on my chin and my head is turned to face him. He lightly sets his forehead on mine and says gently, "Okay. I'll wait until you're ready to do it…" I just nod my head. It was kind of surprising of Kyo to find Kyo so understanding.
"Are you okay?" he asks me, worry evident in his voice. I look into his eyes and see the worry clear there, too. "I'm okay," I reply, "just thinking about what you said." He smiles the cutest smile I've ever seen on his face and says, "Okee!" He gives me a quick kiss on the cheek, reminding me of his physical presence as I feel his arms squeeze me a bit tighter. It also reminded me of Kyo's strength, that he's strong in body and in mind. He's a stupid, idiotic, clumsy cat but he's strong.
He nuzzles his head into my shoulder and I suddenly feel a vibration coming from him. It's kind of relaxing… I hear a sound coming from him and realize what it was. Is he really….!
"Kyo are you purring?" I asks in curiosity and surprising delight. "Possibly" he answers. I giggle, which is surprising since I don't really do that in front of people. "What? I'm not allowed to?" he asks innocently. "I think it's cute." I say honestly. "I think you're cute" he replies.
We don't speak after he says that; we just enjoy the warmth of each other. I had many thoughts going through my mind as we sat there: What are we going to tell everyone? How will my parents feel about this? Shigure will never let me live this down… How would people at school feel if they knew I had a male lover? Wait: lovers? If we go all the way, is that we'll be? Is that what I want? I think I would really like that kind of relationship with Kyo…
I decide to break the silence: "Kyo, what would happen after we went all the way?" He doesn't give me an immediate response and kind of scares me. What if he rejects me? What if he was doing a 'hit and run' type thing? I don't want to know… I don't want to know right now…
I turn to Kyo and plant my lips on his before he can open his mouth. I'm a bit sloppy since I've never kissed anyone before. Kyo got over his shock and began to kiss me back. We kiss passionately for a while. I feel a tongue run over my bottom lip and guess that it means to open my mouth. I guessed correctly: I feel something warm and wet inside my mouth and try to figure out what to do. I eventually do and I feel happy that I can have a nice tongue battle.
We break our kiss so we can both catch our breath. Kyo quickly caught his breathe; he asks me, "Yuki, what's wrong?" I look at him and consider telling him the truth. I decided to keep it in for a while: "I want to." He looks at me quizzically. "Want to do what?" he asks. I sigh and say, "I want to go all the way…"
Kyo doesn't answer. We stay in silence for a bit. I'm staring at the floor, waiting for his rejection. He suddenly says, "If you do this, you can never go back. You know that don't you?" I nod. He holds my face in his hands and lifts my face to look at him. He looks into my eyes, as if he can see into my very soul. "Are you sure?" he asks, concerned. I kiss his lip and say, "I'm completely sure."
Kyo cracks a cocky smile. "Do you accept my proposal?" he asks. I smirk. My reply: "Definitely…"
To Be Continued…
Disclaimer: I don't own this, though that's quite obvious.
Author's crap: There are three parts to this fanfic, so be prepared for part two! Um… rate and review I guess… This is my first fanfic so be a little nice…