"Maybe I Love You"
By Megan
God... I can't stop thinking of you!
The way you walk...
Or...
The way you speak...
Or...
When you smile at me...
Or even,
How your laugh fills me with joy!
God.... I can't think,
When you're around!
The way your husky smell fills the air...
Or...
Even how your eyes glances at me time to time!
I can't stop smiling,
Knowing that you're in the next room...
Or...
If your in the same room with me!
Where are you?
You're gone all the time now...
I never see you for weeks on end...
And even if you come to visit,
It's only for a day or two...
Then you're gone again...
Well... I guess it's because you have a job...
A girlfriend...
And friends...
I am ashamed to think about another girl's boyfriend like that,
Knowing that you kiss her with those lips...
That I wish they would meet mine...
The way you hold her...
That I, too, wish you to hold me like that...
The way you touch her...
That even I wish for you to touch me like that...
The way you stare at her with those beautiful eyes...
And I just keep wishing that you would look at me with those... God, breath-taking eyes...
Oh, God, what is wrong with me?
Thinking like this?
But I cant help myself!
My friends tell me to tell you about how I feel...
But I can't, I just can't!
I'm too young to do that right now!
I'm not ready... not yet.
Call me old-fashioned, but I am waiting.
I am going to wait
Until
I'm older, when I can take my yearning and over-powering need for you...
And the pain and the rejection that comes with it.
And when that happens,
Maybe, just maybe,
I can finally move on...
Knowing that then I will be free.
Free from your grasp, your control!
And that I can move on...
And
Start a new chapter in my book,
With the knowledge that this one will be better...
That I will make it better,
Than the last one.
But right now, I going to try to change that... this.
So that all of that won't happen.
So that I can forget my yearning and over-powering need for you right now!
And so that I can move on,
Just that much faster...
From you.
But for now, not later, not in the future,
I believe that it is safe to say,
Though not let it known,
To one or the other,
That maybe,
Just maybe,
Right now,
I love you.
Hope you liked it, it's my first one, so please be nice and please review!