Summer comes and winter fades,
Here we are just the same,
Don't need pressure, don't need change,
Let's not give the game away
There used to be an empty space,
A photograph without a face,
But with your presence and your grace,
Everything falls into place
Just please don't say you love me,
Cause I might not say it back,
Doesn't mean my heart stops skipping
When you look at me like that
There's no need to worry when
You see just where we're at
Just please don't say you love me
Cause I might not say it back
Heavy words are hard to take,
Under pressure precious things can break,
And how we feel is hard to fake,
So let's not give the game away
Just please don't say you love me,
Cause I might not say it back,
Doesn't mean my heart stops skipping
When you look at me like that
There's no need to worry when
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You see just where we're at
Just please don't say you love me
Cause I might not say it back
Fools rush in
And I've been fooled before,
This time I'm gonna slow it down,
Cause I think this could be more,
The thing I'm looking for
Just please don't say you love me,
Cause I might not say it back,
Doesn't mean my heart stops skipping
When you look at me like that
There's no need to worry when
You see just where we're at.
Just please don't say you love me
Cause I might not say it back
Please don't say you love me,
Cause I might not say it back,
Doesn't mean my heart stops skipping
When you look at me like that
There's no need to worry when
You see just where we're at
Just please don't say you love me
Cause I might not say it back
Just please don't say you love me
Cause I might not say it back
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By Gabrielle Aplin.
He's under my skin. No one words have ever got to me like that. All those words.
"You do know that I love you right?" Those words played over and over again in my head. They had for a long time now. He said that long ago but still it felt like thousands of knifed stabbing me. I can't sleep.
This morning. Why did he have to come? Charlie knows now. So does Zoe. It's all a mess. He hates me. Why can I never do the right thing? I aborted a baby and said I didn't love him...but all for a reason. He's married with a family. It was the right thing to do. He'll realise that soon. Everything I did was for him. I gave up the baby because he's married. I refused to admit I love him because it wouldn't be fair. He's married. I wish he would just forget about me. Or maybe I should just forget about him? I can't sleep.
I haven't cried like that in years. But I can't help but feel this way. I fell for Fletch. I shouldn't have but I did and its made a huge mess. I wish I'd never met him! Is that really what I wish? He'd never come to work at Holby? He made me feel feelings I thought I'd never experience again. Love, jealousy, passion. He made me smile and laugh. We'll probably never laugh together again. Those moments are just memories. Stitched into my brain. I can't forget. Even if I try. He's there forever. A permanent scar. Blood everywhere. Spreading. Eating me inside, making me feel guilty, sad, weak and anger. I'm angry at myself for getting involved with Fletch. If we hadn't fallen for each other we would still be happy. Friends, talking and not depressed.
How long is it until Fletch realises that I was right. I was right? Wasn't I? He doesn't want another baby. Do I? Maybe...but I would feel guilty. He has a family and what would everyone else think. I can't sleep!
First thing tomorrow morning I will talk to Fletch. But tomorrow seems so far away. If only I could sleep. I feel so weak and sick. I'm hungry but can't eat. Can't bear to stare at the empty fridge. My head hurts. My brains thumping inside my head. I need to sleep. Please let me sleep. Stop feeling sorry for yourself. Don't live in the past. The present is what matters. Here and now. What's done is done.
Now I just need to fix the future.