A/N: Hey guys, this is a quick one-shot that came to mind randomly. It is set somewhere in between season 6 and 7. Willow's POV on everything that's happened to the Scoobies specifically these past two years. Enjoy :)
Willow's Selfishness
Everyone loses someone close to him or her. First Xander then Giles then Buffy and Dawn. And finally, me. I had connections with all of these people, but I wasn't as close as they were. Xander lost Jesse, his best friend. Giles lost Ms. Calendar, his lover. Buffy and Dawn lost their mother. Finally, I lost my true love, Tara. We were supposed to be forever. So were the rest of them also should not have happened. They all dealt with death in a "normal" way. They were sad. They grieved. Some of them lost their will. At least they had appropriate reactions. I, on the other hand, did not. I was selfish. Not the "I don't want your help" kind of selfish, but the "I want to destroy the world for my own gain" kind of selfish. No one could stop me. I turned into a different person, someone I never want to meet again. I felt that because I was suffering, so should everyone else. How could I have been so selfish? Now, nothing will ever be the same. Not only have we lost many, but also we, all us Scoobies, have changed. I realize that now. We will never be the same people we were back in high school…or even college. Friendships are being rebuilt. But nothing, not anything in this world, or in any other for that matter, can change the past and the feeling that came with it.