JPOV

Her smile was like the sun, my very own burst of happiness but also more than that. It was my life force, it was everything to me. Without it my life was dull and I would long for it. Such a breath taking smile which would reach her eyes and set the beautiful brown orbs aglow. Showing off the dimples which resigned on her cheeks, the dimples Emmett would say she got from him despite them having no blood in common, not even venom linked them. I smiled at the very thought of it. She was half of me, when she was happy I was happy. It had been 10 years since the Volturi incident. Renesmee had grown fully now. She looked about 18 to the outside world. Her russet curls hung down her back. Startlingly she didn't look a lot like Bella physically. She was short but curvy, however her eyes were a reminder of Bella in her human days. A beautiful chocolate brown, before Bella had been turned, now her eyes reminded him of treacle, yes they were beautiful but they were not his Bella's eyes, they were Edwards Bella's eyes. Not that that mattered now.

It was only then that I noticed I had been staring at her and her bone white cheeks grew rose petal pink.

"Jake?" She asked her voice like wind chimes on a summer day.

I laughed slightly nervous. "Sorry, I was just thinking of something Emmett was telling me yesterday" Please don't be curious I silently pleaded. I couldn't think of one thing that sounded like Emmett in my head. Why did I have to say Emmett, why not Seth or Leah. God what an idiot. She just smiled and carried on talking. Damn, we hadn't explained the whole imprinting thing yet. Everyone decided it was my decision to tell her when I felt I should, Edward couldn't be happier. He had accepted that I will in the future become his son-in-law but he had no problem with postponing it. Unfortunately that day seemed miles off. Nessie hadn't got those feelings for me yet apparently. It was my own fault I assumed when she had reached sexual maturity she would be as into me as I was to her, but to no apparently not. Joy. I was still her best friend because that's how she needed to love me. Of course it killed me; she would talk about boys she liked. She had never dated though, something I was grateful for. I had begun to wonder if maybe she would never want me in that way. What if Sam was wrong? What if she loved me back but in a different way to which I loved her? Would I be able to deal with that? I was bought out of my thoughts when she snapped her fingers in front of my face. I blinked like an idiot.

"So what do you think? Should I?" She looked at me expectantly. Shit. I couldn't own up to the fact that I hadn't been listening to a word she had said. Okay well she asked me a question that leaves only two possible answers yes or no right? Okay 50/50, okay just go with it Jake.

"Yes, I think you should", please let that make her happy. I was about to change my answer when a huge smile lit up across her face.

"Oh Jake, I knew you would have my back!" she flung herself across the short space between us and threw her arms around my neck. I automatically wrapped my arms around her waist, I could just kiss her. Real quick, I imagined the feel of her soft lips and began to lean toward her face but before I got the chance she pulled away and stood up. I tilted my head.

"Well come on then. I want to tell them straight away" She paused and beamed up at me. "I'm so glad you think it's a good idea Jake. You're a good friend" The word stung. 'Friend', like a dagger twisting into my heart. I forced myself to smile and ran behind her back to the house. Well atleast I would find out what the hell she was talking about. My mind played with the thought that she may tell them her feelings for me, that she could no longer pretend. That somehow she had found out about imprinting. I smiled, it was a possibility right? I was so lost in my own thoughts that I almost collided with her as she stopped outside the house. She turned around and gripped by hand, squeezing it lightly. Before pulling me up the steps and into the living room. Carlisle was sitting on the huge, cream sofa and looked up when we walked in. He smiled at us before returning to his newspaper.

"Hey gramps", Nessie called smiling. It was kind of a joke; Carlisle barely looked old enough to be a father let alone a grandfather.

"Hey Nessie", I smiled glad my name for Nessie had stuck. I mean seriously Renesmee? Sure it was a pretty name but a hell of a mouthful.

"Is everyone in?" She asked and I heard her heart rate increase slightly.

"Yes I believe so" He replied. "Why?" She just took a breath and smiled in return.

"Everyone can you come to the living room please. There's something I need to discuss with everyone." She had spoken at the same volume as she had just been speaking to Carlisle, yet within an instant the whole Cullen clan were sitting in front of us.

Edward looked at me questioningly. I honestly have no idea. Nessie's heart rate picked up again.

"So, this is kind of awkward for me to say. But I've been speaking to Jake and we both agreed it's a good idea to tell you now" She smiled and looked at me. My eyes widened slightly as Edward shot a glare in my direction. Great.

"So he finally decided to tell you?" Edward questioned. Her face scrunched in confusion.

"What do you mean dad? Who has told me what?" She looked around at me, her eyebrows knitted together. I just shrugged and hoped my face conveyed innocence.

"Dad?" She repeated.

"Never mind dear. It can wait" She looked torn; I knew she wanted to ask more, she hated being left out. But I could also see she wanted to get her news out. She pulled her lower lip between her teeth and then took a deep breath.

"Okay but I want to know later." She took another breath, what could be so hard to speak about? "Okay well the thing is, I'm telling all of you this because I know it affects everyone and I think I would die if I had to have this conversation over and over again." She paused slightly. Now I was worried. Why hadn't I paid attention to what she was saying? She kind of stood there a little awkward.

"Ness, you know you're my favourite niece and I love you but could we get this rolling?" Emmett spoke smiling. She smiled and nodded.

"Okay well...I might as well just say it. I have a boyfriend, he asked me out last weekend and he is a really nice guy and his so funny, he reminds me of you Uncle Em...Okay that sounded kind of creepy. Umm but what I'm saying is I would really like it if he got to meet my family" She stopped then, smiling, and my whole world crashed around me. No this wasn't supposed to happen. She wasn't supposed to want someone else. I felt as though she had ripped out my heart and spat on it. I felt myself begin to shake but fought to calm down. Relax, this is just a phase it will be over soon and she will be with you. She still loves you and she wants you she just doesn't realise it yet. I had fought my anger back but the pain was still there and I wondered if I could cope with this. I felt bile rise in my throat and had to left quietly before anyone noticed.

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AN: Okay guys so that was the first chapter. Its 3.36am right now but I just had to get that written and up there. My next chapter will be from Renesmee's point of view and then it may change depending on if the story needs it to. I have a few ideas rolling around my head but I need your seal of approval first so. If you could press that little button and submit a review on how I could improve, or your thoughts that would be really great! Happy Holidays :)