The First Giver

by SugarCoatedFeels

(Placed right after the entire populations memories were put into the first receiver of memories mind) It's too much to hold the worlds memories in your mind. The memories back fire and the first receiver of memories is forced to remember lives that aren't his own while watching his friends and relatives look at him as though they were strangers.

I keep remembering but I don't want to. I see images of her laughing and dancing in the rain. I see her baking gingerbread men while singing Christmas carols. I see her running full of life to her next adventure. But then I snap out of my remembrances and there she is looking forward with no recollection of her own life. She walks without joy because here it is considered to "strong" an emotion. She gives the standard greeting as she walks past where I'm standing without recognition in her eyes.

Why did I agree to hold all their memories? Every day I see someone that forces me to separate from reality! It's torture, because in the memories I am them. I see they're entire lives; What they lost and mostly what they loved. Afterwards when I wake up and see them it twists my heart to think that now they are mindless drones believing what they are told, alive but not living.

They're making a new medicine for me to help me remember only when I need to. I hope it works because I'm starting to forget who I was before, and who she was to me. I never want to forget her even if she forgot herself.

She was assigned a spouse today. I don't think I can handle seeing her married. They keep pushing me to request a spouse but I can't. No matter how lonely I get I will never break my promise to her.