Hi guys!

It's my first TMNT fanfic so please go easy on me.
The action takes part after "The Fourfold Trap".
I hope you'll like it and write me reviews in which you'll tell me what you think.
Love ya all
Runners :*******

Chapter 1

I can't sleep. Thinking of her keeps me awake. Healing hands were supposed to help her, not to harm her. I told sensei to use the mantra on her. She can now be hurt, maybe even dead… I don't want to think about her, but sometimes we don't have a choice, we think about someone a lot.

When I was little me and my brothers used to skate board in the sewers. Not far from home, but always with a small feeling of freedom.
One day Mikey saw a mushroom. He didn't tell us about what he found, instead of it he ate the mushroom that was full of chemicals. On our way back home I noticed something was wrong with him. He wasn't making any noise, wasn't rushing us to go faster, because he wanted to see a stupid kid show. He walked slowly, with a face full of pane. Me and Raph took him on our sholders and with D we ran to the lair.
Father laid him on a bed and was using mantras on him, but they weren't working well. We didn't take it well. Raph closed in his room and didn't let anyone in. I heard him cry at night. I was going to his door and waiting for him to open them. He didn't. Donnie worked in his lab to find meds for Mikey, but he wasn't even ten years old and couldn't do much. I sat by my little brother for days.
After sometime I had started losing hope he'd ever get better. Sensei had to noticed that, because he grabbed my shoulder and said "Never lose hope". It happened to be the greatest lesson in my life. Mikey got better thanks to father's mantras. Raph came out of his room and Donnie of his lab. Mikey got his lesson, but also did I.

"Never lose hope"

Sensei is losing his hope and I can't do anything, but watch it.
I get up from my bed. I am not willing to lie there, when I know I should do something. There still are some places me and guys weren't looking for Karai yet. I grab my katana and with ninja mode I run out of the lair.

I look around sewers for hours. It's dark and I can barely see, but for years I've been studying the sewers, so it's not a problem for me.
It's probably four a.m. and I've found… nothing. I know I should be heading home before I get lost, but I can't give up, not yet.
I go as quiet as I can't, but I almost miss a sound of wheezing. I turn to right and I see them. I see those beautiful amber eyes I fall in love every time I see them. I hear her sigh and it's the most precious sound I've heard in my whole life.
She's not mutated anymore. Her body is normal, her eyes are normal. She smiles at me "Leo?" she whispers like she would be asking herself if it's not a dream. I come closer to her, because those few meters kill me and I think they do the same to her, because the rest of her strength she hugs me tightly. I put one arm around her waist and other in her hair and massage it slowly.
"You're okay" I smile stupidly and awfully happily.
"I am" she whispers and I almost feel her smile. I can't remember the last time I saw her truly happy. "Are you?"
"I am, now that you're here."
"That's probably the most cheesy think you could have said." But no matter what she says I know she's happy.

As we walk to the lair I feel her freeze. I turn back to face her and I see doubt on her face. What is she doubting?
"Karai? Is everything okay?" I ask not sure what to do.
"I… I don't know Leo" she sits on subway stairs.
"What don't you know? Aren't you sure about coming back?" I ask sitting next to her. I thought it was okay to take her home. That it was what she wanted. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I wasn't doing it for her, but for myself?
"No, it's not like that. I wanna be here. I just…" she sighs. "I just don't know if I would ever fit here."
"What do you mean?"
"I don't if I would ever become a real part of this family. I mean… I don't know how guys gonna react when they see me, what father will say about all that happened and… there's no way our relation won't be awkward. Because it's not the life I used to know."

I want to smile, because she doesn't want to leave, but at the same time I feel awful for her. She doesn't know how real family looks like. She's afraid she would only be a distraction. A useless part in our lives.
"Karai, just listen. Ever since you ran sensei wasn't himself. He's not angry at you, hell he doesn't blame you, but himself. And guys? Mickey and Donnie surely will be happy to have you here and Raph… he will be himself. He won't be nice or very talkative, but that's the way he is to everyone. And when you'll get tired of us you'll have April to talk to and I know she already likes you" I stop and take a breath. Karai just looks at me with a smile on her face. We don't say anything.

I let my gaze wonder over her. Her make up is almost all gone and she doesn't look like a deadly kunoichi, but a normal teenage girl. The lack of her make up is not the only thing that has changed in her. Also her air are different. They're much longer, reaching neckline of her black top. What's funny she still has blond highlights on the back of her head.

"We don't have to wake them up now if you don't want to" I say. "I can make you some tea" I offer and she gladly accepts my offer.