Hi people, it's me Allison, who is back with another fic actually I was never gone. I know that we are on season 12 in Grey's Anatomy and it is a little late , but I am Indian, it is supposed to be late. This fic is set in season 5, when Derek was all broken up about Jen's death, then, what if Meredith was pregnant? How would Derek deal with that. I was so surprised about how did anyone not think about it! . It is going to be angsty. Let's get started, Shall we? We shall.

It was raining outside the window, the weather in Seattle always complemented her thoughts. She had taken pregnancy tests, six of them, and all were positive, she tried to reassure herself, she told herself that pregnancy tests can give a false positive. It was after the blood test, that she accepted the fact that there was a baby in her uterus, that there was a part of Derek inside of her.

But it could have happened at any time except right now. Derek would have been so so happy, but the current situation contradicted the fact. It was as if the universe was laughing at her, she had to get pregnant the same week that Derek lost his pregnant patient. She could have laughed at the irony of the situation. The situation felt laughable. At any other time , she would expect Derek to be on her side, tell her to lessen her workload, fight with the chief for her, but right now, Derek was in his trailer still reeling from Jen's death. Right now was so not a good time to drop the 'I am pregnant' bomb.

But that was the reality , wasn't it? Of course she could get an abortion, or she could easily miscarry the baby, she could just get rid of it and not tell Derek. But that would be wrong, really really wrong, and she knew that Derek would come to know somehow and then their relationship would be totally wrecked. She was pregnant for the first time and couldn't be happy about it. She remembered her mother telling her kids were a waste of time.

Flashback

There was a recital at her school, one that she had informed her mother about, the problem was that her mom didn't come. Meredith was just 7 years old, and she was pushing her cycle home and she was drenched in water. She reached her home, opened the door and got inside. Her mother was sitting on the couch and watching a cancer removal surgery, she didn't even acknowledge that Meredith was in the room.

"Mom. Today was my recital, you didn't come!"said Meredith as her mother noticed her for the first time since she walked in the room. "So what , Meredith! It's not like you are a great artist anyway." said her mother, rather insensitively. "But you had the day off." she said in a innocent and childish voice. "I didn't want to waste it on you , should never have kids, they are a liability and they just hold you back." she said and continued watching the television.

She snapped out of her daydream, and watched as Richard approached her. "Meredith, you have to go to him. You have to help him come back from this….. whatever this is, I just want him to be back!" said Richard.

"No!" said Meredith "you just want your head neurosurgeon back and he's taking his time and I am gonna give him time." "There is a ring, you know." he said " A ring for you." Richard walked away then. Meredith started thinking, that she wants him to be back and now he needs her, even if he doesn't admit it. And a small part of her did want the whole settling down and getting engaged thing. Either way, she was gonna get him.

She took out her car and started driving towards his trailer where he was all alone drinking beers and that was just so sad. She was driving along the way, and there were cars of people, happy people, I don't give a fuck about the world people. She stopped her car at the red light, and could see a car beside her own. It was a red car, and there was a whole family inside it. There was a husband, driving the car and the wife had her head on his shoulder. They both had wedding rings on. In the backseat , there was a boy , he looked like he was 8, and there was his baby sister in the child seat, sleeping not caring about the world.

Meredith was seeing them and thinking about how maybe there was true love, maybe, she could have a happily ever after. Then she heard a horn from behind her, which brought her back to reality, the light had turned green and the red car had sped past her, she satrted the car and finally reached Derek's trailer. He was sitting outside the trailer and sipping on a beer. Meredith ran out of her car, Derek saw her and the first thing he said was "Go away, Meredith."

Not the response she was hoping for.

So, I wish you liked it. Review if you did, review if you didn't. I like reading your reviews, they kinda give me hope. I just realized how sad that sounds. Whatever! I will update this fic and also I will update my other fic which is a fluff, it's called 'The Christmas Gift'.

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Love, Allison