"When I met reason"

- breaking up-

It was at a time when I was young. A time when you held my hand and I held yours.

That time, you never let go until I did. When you looked at me, your eyes would always smile. It was too late to stop myself from falling because by then you had already stolen my heart. Time came and you had to depart so I gave my heart to you, telling you to bring it along.

"I Love you. Please don't go but if you do please, please, do return. I will always be waiting." Those were the exact words that I had said that painful parting day but you left my heart hanging though I never cared. I just hoped that you would come back. I thought that when you held my hand and never let go, you would do the same with my heart.

I waited and waited. Day and night I stood by. Hoping, wishing that one day I would see the smile that had taken my heart as well as my breath away.

Seconds turned into minutes, hours into days, and weeks into years but you never came back but I still remained hoping. Then I heard that you had married with some other girl, and she is currently with child but I never believed them.

Autumn, winter, spring and fall.

I was still awaiting for your call.

One Late Night, I wandered through the forest thinking, believing that I might actually see you returning, that there would be a day when you would comeback bringing along that smile that snagged my heart. The stars were dancing while the wind sang a rhythm that could only belong to her then I have seen something that caught my eye.

A sparkle, a glow.

The light seemed to beckon me, telling me to come closer and I did what I thought it was telling me. Then I saw reason. The light that had beseeched me was named as such. Reason was the light name.

Indeed, he did love me but not just the way I wanted him to .He never did love me in that special way nor did he promise me his return.

I realized how foolish my wishful thinking was. I thought he felt the same because when I asked, "Do you Love me?" he would only smile at me. I smiled back thinking then that his answer was yes but I misunderstood yet again what your smile had meant.

I was young and foolish coupled by words brash and impulsive. Such a grave combination that one should never add. I continued to walk towards the sparkle but my feet would always try and stop me.

"You know that he never loved you thaw you wanted him to and that he would never return to you. Why wait and suffer for something that would never come past?" The glow, reason told me and as such I tried to convince myself that it was so. Now, I was facing reason and it was right.

I knew then that I had to let go.