I don't know why I was getting so worked up. Merlin was my manservant, a lower class citizen, and here I was nearly obsessing over him. He was a smart ass with a side of occasional jerk, not to mention a boy, so why I liked him was a mystery to me. Seeing him made my heart race and talking to him gave me goosebumps. Every time our hands accidentally touched or he helped me with my armor I would get butterflies and blush. It was getting ridiculous. It was just a stupid crush. I could get over it with time. I sighed as I sat down to eat. My father was staring me down. It was making a little nervous but I wasn't going to show it.
"What?" I ask finally, wanting to know why he felt compelled to watch me eat.
"You seem upset." His stare was relentless.
"I'm not." I snap before taking a small bite.
"I'll have Gaius take a look at you." He stopped staring and started eating, but I knew the conversation was far from over. I rolled my eyes at him and pushed my food away.
"I'm not hungry." I get up to go back to horse riding, but my father stops me.
"Go see Gaius. Now."
"I don't need to" I roll my eyes and cross my arms across my chest.
"I wasn't asking. Go."
I didn't want to but I knew better than to defy my father, so I went to see Gaius. I knocked on his door and Merlin answers instead of Gaius. I could feel my heart take off and my palms get sweaty. My face felt hot and I hoped that Merlin didn't notice.
"I-I came to see Gaius." I stuttered embarrassed. Merlin nodded and let me in. I tried to get away from him best I could so I could calm down. Gaius appeared to be making dinner for Merlin and himself.
"What seems to be the matter?" He asked putting down the ladle.
"I haven't been feeling my best. Loss of appetite." I wasn't sure of what to say exactly. Nothing was wrong with me I just liked Merlin.
"You look fine to me. Are you sure nothing else is wrong?" Gaius went back to working on dinner and seemed uninterested. Merlin on the other hand was watching me with concern.
"Nope. I'll be off." I left as quickly as I could but Merlin stopped me at the door.
"Come back after dark." He whispered into my ear before pushing me the rest of the way out the door. He shut the door and I could tell I was blushing terribly. I took a deep breath before making my way to my room.
My thoughts were racing nearly as fast as my heart was. Did he like me back? Did he know I liked him? What if he was angry! I took another deep breath. Freaking out was not the healthy thing for me to do. I laid on my bed and stared up at my ceiling. I went through sword-fighting techniques in my head. Jab. Turn. Switch. Swing. It was all so easy, so natural. Before too long I had completely calmed down, and it was close to dark. I got off my bed and stretched. It was still not quite dark, too soon to go back to see Merlin. I frowned and looked around. I decided to go back to my horse and ride around for a while. I was about to get her suited up when Merlin showed up.
"Where were you going?" He asked smiling.
"Just for a ride to pass the time." I looked away from him and made it look like I was busy.
"Well you can come by now if you want. Gaius turned in early." Merlin suggested and I nodded. He led the way back to his room.