Cry For Help

I felt as if I was drowning in my issues throwing up everything I ate and cutting myself to feel numb while living a life of alcohol and drugs. Joe has been trying to get me to talk to him but I always end up seducing him to making love and so he can forget what he was asking. "Dem babes are you ok you look like you're lost in thought." He asked me and all I could do was hug him. "Joey promise me you'll never leave me I know ever since the world found out about us it hasn't been easy but I love you with all my heart and I can't live without you." I told him and he kissed me hugging me tight as the plane made its way to New York.

When we got to our hotel I knew something was up Joe has been distancing himself from me and I know he is tired of the arguments we keep having and I know if I don't do something he will leave me and I was right cause as soon as we entered the suite we fought, "damn Dem I am fucking tired of all these arguments no matter what I do it isn't enough and frankly I'm tired of it when we were just friends we were able to talk about anything and ever since we've been dating I can't tell you anything and I miss our friendship I just want my friend back." He said and I felt my tears fall down my face as my heart was shattering. "Well I don't want to be your friend I love you Joe and I want to be with you. And frankly friends don't fuck each other breaking promises they made to God." I yelled at him. "Why don't you say what you just say it Joe you don't love me and want to break up."

He looked at me with the most heartbreaking look ever and sighed sadly, "you're right I think we need to break up." My whole world crashed around me and I threw his promise ring he bought me in his face and told him to get out. "Dem promise me this won't change anything please I don't want to lose my best friend." He begged and pleaded and I just glared at him, "well you should've thought of that before tearing my heart apart when you promised me you would never leave me guess the joke is on me I never should've told you how I felt because my heart wouldn't be broken now." I slammed the door in his face and broke down.

"Wait a minute you broke up with Demi are you insane we have a tour coming up and the tension is going to be horrible what in the hell were you thinking Joe or won't you thinking at all." Nick scolded me and I frowned. "Things between us were getting too much is like ever since we went public Dem has completely changed and I couldn't take it anymore. I love her too much and I rather have her as a friend than nothing at all." I said upset and Nick gave me a look, "Joe that is your problem every time your relationships suffer you bail out and you need to stop Demi is nothing like Camilla she loves you and I know you love her so go talk to her maybe after she calms down you'll be able to salvage the best damn relationship you ever had." Nick told Joe and he smiled slightly before taking a breath and thinking things through but he never imagined what he would encounter at the hotel once he got back.

Demi's POV

After Joe left I felt the walls crashing down all around me and I just wanted to numb the pain I was in so I went into the bathroom wearing Joe's shirt and took my razor out to slash my wrist. The cold metal felt cool against my skin and once I felt the slight pain I slipped into a state of euphoria. I wanted that feeling again so I slashed my wrist a few more times but the last time I cut was too deep and all I saw was a gush of blood falling down my arm. I must have nicked an artery and before I knew it I fell to the cold bathroom tiled floor as blood fell all around me and as I felt my body get colder with the blood loss all I wanted was to see Joe's beautiful hazel eyes and tell him I love him one last time. I heard the door open and my name being called but I was in and out of consciousness. "Dem baby I am so sorry instead of walking out and breaking up I should've stayed and talked it out where are you Dem." I heard him call me but I couldn't say a word and a few seconds later I heard his footsteps and a gasp of horror come out of his luscious lips. "OMG Demi what did you do baby talk to me please I never wanted to break up I was just too angry please babygirl don't you dare leave me." He begged and pleaded holding me in his arms as he placed pressure onto my bleeding wrist.

Joe's POV

Seeing her lying there in a puddle of blood I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces wondering how long this has been going on and if I could've done something to prevent it. Now I know why she was losing so much weight and why she was always starting a fight she had fallen back to her old ways binging and purging and more horrific cutting again. I sat in the waiting room blaming myself maybe if I hadn't broken up with her in the heat of the moment she wouldn't be in a hospital bed fighting for her life.

The doctor came out, "she is stable we were able to stop the bleeding and replenish it with a transfusion. When she cut herself she cut so deep she nicked an artery and that is why she was bleeding so much if Mr. Jonas hadn't found her and called 911 Ms. Lovato would have died." He told us all and the tears came falling down my eyes like a waterfall I almost lost the love of my life and that was a wakeup call for me to love and cherish her like never before cause a life without Demi in it is not a life for me. I walked into her room after her family had seen her and saw my angel looking paler than a ghost I sat next to her and held her hand lovingly.

"Baby why didn't you tell me what was going on if you did we would have been ok because I would have done everything in my power to help you. I love you so damn much Dems and from now on I'll be here for you and help you get better." I said as tears came down my face and I buried my face in her stomach praying to God she would be ok.