Forever.
It's a long time.
It's not just a few months. It's not simply a few years. It's not a few decades.
Forever is an eternity.
An eternity of suffering. An eternity of remembering. Of hearing the begging, the pleading, the blood curdling screams that I used to find comfort in.
Not a day passes that I don't remember and ask for it all to stop.
I know what I did was beyond cruel, and I know it was savage of me, and words could never express my sorrows.
I wish I could take it all back and start over again. If I could do it over I would never have followed her.
I was young. I was stupid. And now I'm suffering.
I deserve this.
My eternal damnation.