Disclaimer: The O.C. isn't my creation. This is…how sad am I.

Just something I came up with, it sucks, lets be honest here. But I tried! LOL. My grandma is being dropped off at the hospital as you read, to get ready for her breast cancer operation. I don't know much because my Mom and grandad are being so stubborn and agro. Meh. Enjoy and REVIEW!

Marissa Cooper was angry, absolutely, furious. She was definitely at odds with the universe, as Seth would say. But what hit her more than frustration was fright. God only knows what her mother was going to say, Volchok would leave her, Ryan had somebody else to save and after that she really had no one else. Summer and her were still fighting and Seth just did what Summer told him to do, so he wouldn't be much help. The Cohen's mean well but it would be way to weird to stroll up to the front door and say…

Marissa's Point Of View – Earlier that day.

For a few days now I have been weak and just so not in the mood for anything. I am usually quite a big eater but I have just completely lost my appetite. Which Volchok doesn't mind, seeing as how he probably doesn't have enough money to feed me any way. I really don't know what's wrong, oh crap I'm late, I'm meant to be having a 'study group' with some girls from school.

"What are you looking for?" Volchok asks me like I'm some sort of weirdo for wanting to leave his heinous apartment, which is really just an abandoned garage or warehouse, I really have no clue.

"My keys, do you know where they are?" I ask him, I really can't be bothered doing this. It feels as though my head is spinning, I guess I should go to the doctors or something, I presume I'm coming down with the flu.

"Right here, Senorita" Volchok replies in that voice that clearly means 'I wanna have sex with you' it is making my stomach sick, or maybe that's just the smoothie I drank before.

"Thanks, give them here" I ask him, my patience thinning. I swallow hard when he makes a beeline for me; his eyes placed on my chest.

"Kevin, stop being a jerk and give me my car keys" I demand, I have hardly any energy and he seems to think 'he's done his job' so of course he's laughing at me and touching me, it's making me feel uncomfortable, even though I have let him do worse.

"Lighten up" He moans, sort of angrily. He scares me sometimes, especially when he's high. I never know what he's doing when him and his friends go on trips and stuff. I went once, but just escaped from being raped. So naturally I never went again.

"Kevin, stop your hurting me. STOP" I scream when Volchok touches my breasts. It hurts so much and I have no clue what is going on with me. He presses his lips together viciously and walks over to his mini fridge. He gets a beer out of it and stands there looking at me like I just stole his stash.

"What the fuck was that?" Volchok asks me quietly, but I can tell he's raging inside. I just denied him sex; I remember what happened last time I did this. He yelled and threw stuff around, I sat on the floor in a heap crying. I never should have moved in with him. He wonders why I started going back to school, it's because it's away from him. I only started cutting school because it was the only time I could be with him, he was my escape. Ryan used to be mine but then we broke up, all because of Johnny.

"I don't know. I need to go out so can you please hand me my keys" I ask him, the tears have automatically started falling, it's like my body has programmed them to every time Volchok gets angry.

He stands there contemplating this, almost like he's my father and he's deciding whether or not to let me go out alone with a new boyfriend.

"Whatever Marissa" Volchok snarls at me. He really excels at hurting my feelings. Kevin drops my car keys on the ground; the rattling of the metal to the concrete vibrates in my ears. I bet that scumbag put something in my drink, he refuses to look at me, which I have no problem with but it's just scary. I really don't know what will happen when I get back home. Home. How disgraceful is it that I now call this home. I have often thought about running away and going back home, my actual home where my Mom and Neil and Kaitlin are, Kaitlin is probably enjoying this; her perfect, all-round big sister no longer has a squeaky clean reputation every one thought. So obviously she took my moment of weakness to make hers shine.

"Have a good day" I manage to say, even though inside I wish that he'd get caught and go to jail or die or something. When he doesn't respond to me I take a huge calming breath and strut out of his 'apartment' like I have the world in my hands. When I am out in public I fake a brave face, I brush people off when they genuinely want to help and I try to make it seem as if I am happy and having fun with Volchok. Because I know the second I say I'm not okay with Volchok and I's life together, I will have hell to pay by him. He controls me and I have no power over my life and myself.

When I arrive at the diner to meet those girls from my study group I see that one of them is Lydia. Ryan's new girl. She has brunette colored hair, not all different to Summer's. Lydia is shorter than me, and is a new transfer this year from New York. I envy her for being able to keep a relationship for longer with Ryan. It was always my fault we broke up; if only I had taken a step back from Johnny…and Oliver and saw how they were affecting Ryan and I's relationship and myself, maybe we could have made it work.

"Hey Marissa, what took you so long?" Tiffany asked me. She is so preppy it isn't funny; just think of a person that is half Taylor Townsend and half Paris Hilton. That just about sums it up.

"I got held up, sorry" I reply, I can smell the coffee brewing and the teens chattering, is it just me or has the diner just heated up like a thousand degrees.

"Are you okay?" Another girl called Nicole in my study group asked me. I don't reply, I can't reply. My face is burning up and my stomach is rumbling, not from hungriness but sickness. I can feel eyes on me, judging me, mocking me, but I disconnect myself from the humans around me and faint. My head hits the shiny floor of the diner and my limbs feel free.

TBC

I have the next chapter ready to go, but I want to see people's reactions and well, REVIEWS! w00ting for reviews! Okay, Marissa is with Volchok at the moment but Ryan should come in pretty soon.