His Heart
Chapter 1
She stood watching the refugee camp from the battlements . People looked like ants from there . Carrie knew she was more fortunate than those left to stay in tents on the river bank down below . She was one of Lord Inquisitor Maxwell Trevelyan's inner circle . A privilege only a few people had and she was lucky to have that . She was furious at this very moment at being left out of this new mission . It would be the first one since they had come to live here . The Inquisitor had decided on a small group and there was nothing the rest of them could say to change his mind . She so wished that she could go . She felt for him since she laid eyes on him for the first time and wished to stay by his side always . He was oh so sexy but that wasn't all . He was a man in the real sense of the word . He had the tan of someone who were mostly outdoors at daytime . He was tall with dark hair cropped short and green eyes shining like emeralds . He had the most kissable lips she had ever seen on a man .His nose were those of an aristocrat and that gave his face more character . Oh and not to talk about his broad shoulders . She sighted ,fanning herself with her hand . Then she brought herself back to reality by forcing the bitter thought of him not noticing her even when she accompanied him on missions . She had to admit she wasn't as beautiful and intriguing as most of the ladies on his team . Hell she was a petite girl barely out of her teens . Who wanted someone like her ? .No one really . She sighted again this time with the pain of an unanswered love cutting a hole inside of her .
Footsteps coming from behind her alerted her that she was not alone . She looked behind her to see one of the guards walking past her . She let out her breath slowly , she didn't even know she was holding it . Her eyes darted back to the refugee camp . He would be leaving in two days time and she'd be here wondering how he and his chosen group was doing . He chose only three people . Solas , Varric and that stupid horned Quinari who talked about sex a lot . The Iron Bull . Yeah that's what his name is . She sighted again . She felt sorry for herself and those who had to stay behind . She knew Cassandra wasn't happy with that decision either but she didn't know why ,maybe the Seeker had feelings for the top man too . She looked behind her as she heard footsteps again . It wasn't a guard this time . It was Varric the only dwarf in their circle . ''Admiring the view ,Kiddo ?'', he asked with a concerned look on his face . She turned back to watch the camp and nodded . Varric was the only one who knew how she felt about their leader but she knew he wouldn't tell anyone because he could keep secrets very well . ''You know everyone saw how mad you were when you stormed off after the meeting ,Kiddo , would you care to share what it was all about ?'', he asked coming to stand next to her . She shook her head ,she didn't want to give the embarrassing detail on why she was mad . She kept her eyes on the camp . She didn't want to betray her inner feelings . Varric could read you like a book sometimes . ''Kiddo , I don't mean to pry but things are getting out of hand , if you're so infatuated with our Inquisitor why not just talk to him about it and get it over with ''. That made her look at him . ''No !'', she protested ''he'll just laugh at me or something and then I'll be more miserable than I am now ''. Varric sighted ''Fine then I guess your right but you need to do something about it sooner or later because you're really beginning to look bad out there ''. With that said he walks away shaking his head . Carrie watches him leave with mixed feelings . She decides that she had been moping enough for one day and need to go to her quarters or somewhere else like maybe the tavern where Sera would make her laugh a little .
''Inquisitor may I have a word !'', Maxwell Trevelyan heard the ambassador Josephine Montilyet call as he walked across the courtyard of his new home Skyhold . He stopped and waited for her to catch up with him . ''It's about the girl '', she said as she joined him . ''What about her ?'', he asked not clear what girl she was actually referring to . ''The way she stormed out of the war room after the meeting this morning isn't appropriate behavior for a young lady such as her and so I have been meaning to ask if you are aware that she watches your every move when you are in close proximity like a little love sick puppy ?''. Maxwell frowned as it dawned on him which girl Josephine is talking about . Yes he had noticed it since day one of their meeting . It was a little annoying at sometimes but since he didn't want to hurt her feelings he have been trying to ignore it as best he could but lately he found that things were becoming too much like this morning when she stormed out after his decision to take only three of his team to Crestwood . She gave him a look that gave him the impression that she was very disappointed in him and just left slamming the door shut with such force it made the doorframe shudder . He knew that he had to talk to her about this because it couldn't go on that way . He sighted and turned his head to look down at Josephine . ''I guess it's time to have a word with her then '', he said . Josephine nodded ''Yes , you should '',she says turning to leave . He sighted again watching her leave . He had to do something about the girl and soon too because he would be leaving for Crestwood in two days . He decided then and there that it would be best to get it over with today . Rubbing his head he discarded that decision almost instantly and so he resumed walking to the tavern . He had far better things to do than talk to a damn lovesick girl .
The moment he set foot in the tavern he wished that he hadn't because the girl was there talking to Krem one of the Bull's Chargers . For the first time since they met he had a very good view of her petite frame . Her hair was dark almost black falling in curls down her back ,stopping near her knees . He couldn't see her face , but he remembered it well enough to make his own picture of her . She was slim like an elf and had curves all on the right places such as her hips that he got a glimpse of now . He frowned when he felt his body reacting . He couldn't help but look down to see his manhood straining against his pants . That made him feel embarrassed to say the least , but that wasn't the only reaction he got from his body . No he felt something move inside him like a thousand butterflies and he didn't like the feeling . Groaning inwardly he decided to go talk to Iron Bull just to get something else to do rather than watching a girl who made him feel things he did not intent to feel .
He had to walk past her and tried not to look at her . That was the wrong thing to do because if he had looked he could have prevented what happened next . He was about to walk past when she turned unaware that he was there and crashed straight into him . She lost her balance and if it wasn't for him who reacted instantly by grabbing her around the waist she'd be sitting on her backside right then . He looked down and wished he hadn't because she looked up and met his gaze . Her eyes were almond shaped and the color of rich caramel . She had beautiful rosy full lips and a cute little nose . He couldn't help but get lost in her gaze and felt that feeling stir inside him again .He pulled her closer his lips tingling at the thought of hers touching his , her body pressed softly against his and his manhood straining against his pants again . A warning light goes off in his mind and he let her go so quickly that she almost loses her balance again , but he steadies her by grabbing her arms . Letting go again he turns away walking over to Bull feeling her eyes boring into his back .
Carrie couldn't believe it . He actually held her for a moment . She wanted to jump and scream for joy, but didn't because she didn't want him to know how she felt that moment . She left the tavern after she watched him go over to Iron Bull . Now she was alone in her quarters with a storm inside her . Not a bad one but a good one . She relived that short moment in his arms again and again wishing she could have stayed there longer . His eyes were more beautiful up close and oh those lips . Squealing she jumps up and down hugging herself , feeling his hands on her waist again . She closes her eyes to see more clearly . His eyes gazing into her caramel ones . She sighted with feeling and walked over to her bed ,sitting down because her legs felt like jelly . Oh she wished that moment could have gone on forever . She was sure he was going to kiss her ,his hands had tightened around her waist and he had pulled her closer but something must have gone wrong because he let go of her so quickly that she had no time to react . The alarm in his eyes was more than enough to tell her that he had come to his senses . She sighted feeling that awful pain again of being unwanted . She guess she wasn't good enough for his Lordship and so had to be contend with having felt his hands on her waist for one time only .
She laid down on her bed thinking of her family in some village in the Free Marches over the Waking Sea . Her father worked for a noble who lived in Ostwick and only came to his house in the country once every three weeks . She was the youngest daughter of two hard working parents and had seven other siblings . Her three older sisters weren't married yet just like her .Ronan her oldest brother was married to some girl he met from another village and Gerard her other older brother just didn't see the need of getting married anyway . Gerard was better off than any of them since he had a job at a blacksmith's workshop in Ostwick while the rest of them suffered at home except for her who had to leave her home when she was quite young because she was a mage and had to go live in a circle where she had a different kind of struggle with everything that has going on since the trouble in Kirkwall . She had hated Templar's then who treated mages like animals sometimes . Not all mages did blood magic and if they did , they didn't do it like the Grey Wardens did though some did do it like that .
She was lucky to be alive after what happened at the Conclave , she was last in the long line of mages who had walked side by side with those wretched Templar's so she was only blown backwards by the explosion . She came to on a bed inside a room full of wounded . He was there too at first but they had moved him where she wasn't able to see him . With a sight she decided to get up and go find something to do rather than think about the past or things that couldn't be .
Two days later Carrie watched as the love of her life rode off with his three companions . She stood beside Blackwall wishing with all her heart that she could go with them but those that had been left behind were given a task at the last minute . They were to take provisions to the soldiers at the Crossroads in the Hinterlands as well as in the Fallow Mire . Carrie didn't mind but she didn't believe it was that important a task as the one that the Inquisitor himself was going to do . ''At least we got something to do '',Cassandra says as if she could read Carrie's mind . The others nodded though they too wished that they could have gone with their leader .
Hours later they were on the road to the Hinterlands . They would go to that awful place called the Fallow Mire when they return from the Hinterlands . Vivienne , Blackwall and Cassandra took charge of leading this mission . Walking beside Sera , Carrie wondered if the three of them would keep their cool as leaders since they have already quarreled over which camp they would use in their stay at the Hinterlands . In the end they decided on the one nearest to the Crossroads. Carrie was glad to get some rest . The road to the Hinterlands were long causing them to feel tired at the end of their journey .
The Hinterlands job was easy though they had found bandits on the road just as they walked down the steep path towards the Crossroads .Corporal Vale was glad for the provisions as it was dearly needed he even promised to send the other camps their shares . The Follow Mire , though a bit more dangerous was quicker as it had only two camps . They were back at Skyhold far quicker than they had anticipated . Carrie was glad for this though she wished to have gone with the Inquisitor .
She found work to do while they waited for the Inquisitor to return to Skyhold . She helped Cullen with his paperwork , cleaned Josephine's office and even help Leliana feed her birds . The wait was long and some days she wished that they didn't have to wait .
It was late afternoon one day while she helped Master Dennett to feed the horses when word came that the Inquisitor was on his way . She didn't stop what she was doing although her heart felt like jumping out of her chest at the prospect of setting eyes on him again .
It's much later when she do. The tavern is full of people tonight . She has to search hard for a table to sit down at where she could eat her dinner in peace . She almost gave up when Varric calls to her from a corner . Looking his way was a mistake because right next to him sat the Inquisitor himself . She can't help but stare at him for a moment and when his gaze meets hers her heart skips a beat before thrumming so loud in her ears it feels as if the whole tavern could hear it . That's when she looks away shyly unaware that this brings a smile to his lips . Varric who is unaware of this calls to her again and she have no choice but to walk over there even when her legs feel so wobbly.
''Hey ,Kiddo '', Varric says when she reach them . ''Hi '', is all she can get out . Holding her dinner tightly to make sure she don't let it fall she look the Inquisitors way to try and greet him as well but she fails miserably when she meets his gaze once more . His eyes are more beautiful than she remembers it . In fact his more handsome than ever . ''Hello , Kiddo '', he says with a strange seductive tone in his voice causing her to almost let her tray fall . If it wasn't for Varric who quickly grabbed her tray it would have fallen . Feeling a bit embarrassed she wish nothing more but to go hide under her bed ,but instead she pull out a chair and sit down in the process she almost knocks Varric's drink over . ''Careful , Kiddo !'', he warns . With cheeks growing red she stutters '' S s sorry , Vvvarric ''. Sighting heavily and shaking his head he says ''It's okay ,Kiddo ''. She keeps her head down after this looking at her food only even if she's not hungry anymore . She listen to Varric's story about Crestwood with one ear because of the Inquisitor who is just there across the table and knowing his there and feeling his presence so strongly makes it hard for her to concentrate .
She pushes herself to eat though she can't even taste what goes into her mouth . She try her best to act normal but know she's failing miserably . When her plate is clean she gets up , picking up her tray . Not looking at either Varric or the Inquisitor she turn to leave just to bump into the big Qunari who she doesn't really like . The impact knocks her tray out of her hands . Watching as if in slow motion how the tray flies through the air and crashes right into the inquisitors chest , Carrie feels like the ground beneath her feet should swallow her just then and there .
Hours later after apologizing for the hundredth time Carrie leaves the Inquisitor and Varric to go to her quarters to reflect on how badly her day actually ended and the humiliation she had suffered . The Inquisitors face didn't show any anger when she had helped clean his shirt where her plate had fell on him . At that moment she wasn't thinking of the feelings she had for him she just wanted to get the stains of him . She had tried not to look at him but just couldn't help herself . He looked calm even serene . His eyes didn't even spat fire . He accepted her apology every time she said the word ''sorry ''. What made her feel worse was when the guy who knocked the tray out off her hands laughed and nobody told him to stop laughing not even the Inquisitor .
With a long suffering sigh she falls down on her bed burying her face into her pillow . They could have at least told Iron Bull not to laugh at her but no maybe everyone was enjoying her humiliation too much . A knock on her door made her sit up . She wondered if she should tell whoever it was to go away or to come inside . ''I know you're in there, Kiddo , and I'm not leaving! '', she heard a familiar voice although it was muffled . Her heart skipped a beat at hearing that beautiful deep voice of the Inquisitor himself . ''Open the door , Kiddo , '', His tone was more demanding this time but she didn't know if she should obey or not . She stared at the closed door hoping that he would leave because she didn't want to see him right now . ''If you don't open the door I'll do it myself !'', he warned ''I'm going to count to three ''. She decided to see if he'd really do that . He started to count . She waited in anticipation wishing he'd not do what he said he'd do but there was no such luck for her today because on the count of three the door was pushed open with force and on the threshold stood the lord Inquisitor in all his manly glory .
She stared at him as he stood there , he stared back unwaveringly . ''So you like to play games don't you ? '', he asked with no emotion in his voice . She shook her head and in the process broke the spell that kept their eyes locked . ''Then why didn't you open the door ?'', his voice was still emotionless . Looking down at her hands she wondered if she should answer . ''Answer me !'', he demanded now getting impatient . She looked up again . ''I don't know '', was all she could think of to say . He sighted and took a step into the room pulling the door closed behind him . ''I don't like games '', he said again in an emotionless voice the moments anger forgotten . She didn't say anything back because somehow now being alone with him made her feel shy .
He eyed her for a moment as she tried to look everywhere ,but at him . '' Are you mad at Bull?'', he asks suddenly .
She froze and turned her eyes to meet his again . '' '',she stutters and he somehow understood that she wasn't actually truthful .
''Don't lie to me ,Kiddo ,I know that Bull's laughing made you mad because you had stormed out just when my shirt was clean enough '', he states feeling a bit of anger at her lie .
She felt her cheeks burn with embarrassment while she lowers her gaze . He stared at her knowing somehow that his presence made her feel shy and flustered . He didn't want that . He needed her to be open with him about things .
" I have to go now ,''he says causing her to look up at him again .''I'll be calling a meeting soon ,you'll be expected to attend ''.
She says nothing just look at him with those big beautiful caramel eyes of hers . Bowing slightly with his hands behind his back like a noble should he turns around to leave but swings back to face her again .
"Don't be mad at Bull , he didn't mean to be mean , he just couldn't help to laugh ''.
She stares at him silently , taking in those eyes ,those lips , his nose . Why does a man have to be so handsome ?.
She combed the big black horse . She had gotten up early not feeling quite rested . Her thoughts had been a swirling mess and it was all the Inquisitors fault . She couldn't sleep much until the small hours of the morning , but then again she only got two hours of sleep.
"Don't comb the horse as if you want to pull out his hair ,Girl,!'', Master Dennett scolds from where he was combing another horse .
She combed slower and gentler hoping to appease the old grump .
She didn't notice when Blackwall stepped out of the barn to chop some wood for his fire at the woodpile . She didn't notice when the Inquisitor came to talk to him . It was only when she was about to put away the that she noticed them . She froze ,but only for a second or two, trying to find a way of moving pass them without them noticing her .
She had no such luck . The one moment he was talking to Blackwall and the next he made his way to her with a determined look on his face .
"Good morning, Kiddo,!'' ,he calls a greeting .
Trying to look everywhere but at him ,she wonders what she could do to get out of a conversation with him .
''You know normally when one calls a greeting the other one greets back '', Maxwell Trevelyan says eyeing her with that emerald eyes of his . He had reached her now and stood there blocking her way of escape .
Looking at the ground she answers stuttering ,feeling embarrassed at her inability to talk properly when he is around .''S..Sorry ,I…Inquisitor , M..M..Morning ''.
''You can look up when you say that '', he says feeling anger at her boil inside him. ''I might think that you are hiding something ''.
His words causes her to look up just to gasp because he was so near she could touch him if she lifted her hand . Stumbling backwards she feels like groaning inwardly . How did he get so near to her without her knowing ?.
For a moment he looked at her as he cooled down a little . It wasn't her fault that she was shy . She must have had a different upbringing than him and didn't talk to others much .
On impulse he stepped forward again closing the gap between them ,ignoring her frantic gaze that swept everywhere ,but over him as she tried to look for an escape . ''Care to go for a ride with me ?'' ,he asks .
Her gaze finally meeting his ,she stills . ''I..I d..don't k..know '', she stutters .
''It's only down the road and back , Kiddo, and I don't bite , neither does Knight ''.
His words were supposed to encourage her ,but she felt more flustered as his words gave her the impression that they'd be sharing his horse .Before she could say a word the sound of someone calling the Inquisitor reaches them ,saving her from accepting or declining .
With a deep sigh he closes his eyes for a moment . ''Now more than ever I wish I had never gone to the Conclave with my aunt '', he grumbles . Then opening his eyes he looks at her ''Well , our ride together is being postponed until further notice , Good day to you , Kiddo ''.
She didn't say anything just watched him walk away with those long strides of his ,feeling rather relieved at this lucky turn of events .
" Are you sure we were all called to attend this damn meeting ?'', Carrie asks as she follows Dorian who had called to her when she had come from helping feed Leliana's birds .
''Of course I am sure '', Dorian says rolling his eyes at her stupid question . She felt a bit stupid but couldn't have helped asking .
They walked through the door that lead to Josephine's office and then onward down the corridor towards the war room .
Carrie looked at the walls of the corridor . On one side it was clean and tidy on the other it was broken and see through . She shook her head wondering when the fixing crew would come and fix it .
She and Dorian was the last two to arrive. Everyone stared at them.
''Glad you could join us out of your oh so busy schedules '', the Inquisitor says coldly glaring at them .
Taking her usual place against the wall Carrie tries not to look at him .
''She were feeding those wretched birds again '', Dorian explains ''I waited for her ''.
''My birds are not wretched !'', Leliana protests angrily .
Holding his hands up in defense Dorian says ''I'm only saying ''.
''Well they're kind of cute '', Carrie puts in surprising not just herself but everyone else.
''Kiddo , Nugs are cute ,not birds '', Varric says laughter in his voice .
She doesn't reply because there is nothing to say on the matter . Her cheeks burned red with embarrassment at her runaway tongue . Just kill me now !,she shouts inside her head .
The Inquisitor clears his throat bringing everyone's attention back to the meeting . He glared at Carrie clearly telling her to shut her mouth with the look he gave her .
''Now that everyone is present even if some were a bit late, I have some news about The Grey Wardens that might interest some of you , we're still trying to figure out things ,but Stroud seems to know a lot about Corypheus and his abilities ,Hawke and he would be going to the Western Approach to investigate anyway that isn't all , a letter came from a man in the Emerald Graves , he knows something and is willing to deal with us if we help him , we might be going to the Exalted Plains soon , ,Josephine has the list of who'll be accompanying me where , we're on a tight schedule so I won't keep you any longer ,but one more thing , it's about the new weapons and armor that Harrit was so nice enough to smith , there aren't enough so you'll just have to decide who gets them and who don't ''.
Carrie was the first to scurry out the door ,afraid that people would stop her . She didn't forget the last time she'd been to a meeting . The Inquisitor might remember that one and she didn't want him to ask questions now .
Maxwell Trevelyan watched the girl leave with mixed feelings . He wanted to call her back ,but that would bring too much attention to himself . He wasn't ready to let the world know that he had certain feelings for her .
''Inquisitor , there is still the matter of…'', Commander Cullen's voice calls him back to reality and his duties as Inquisitor . With a sigh and a shrug he bends over the map while listening to Cullen rambling on about important things that he had to make choices about .
Carrie bend down as she tended to the plants in the garden . The Inquisitor himself had planted these plants . The elf lady who was the gardener here told her that when she offered to help.
Pulling out weeds and watering the plants that needed water soothed her new found anger at all that was unfair in this world of theirs, a little . She had gone with the other three mages to look at the new staffs and mage armor and had found that there were only three of everything . Harrit had told her that he didn't make it for her and had rudely pulled a staff out of her hand . It had made her stumble backwards right into Sera who had been admiring a dagger . Said dagger had cut her left butt cheek and instead of asking if she was alright Sera had yelled at her to watch where she was going . She had left then . With her bleeding wound and all . She had seek out Fiona ,the leader of the mage rebellion to help her heal it and Fiona had helped her with pity in her eyes .
Carrie didn't like people pitying her ,but it had made her feel a bit better especially when she told Fiona about what had happened to her .
The cut was healed ,but it still felt a bit tender when she sat down.
A soft sigh escapes her lips when she straightens to move onto another spot with weeds . She almost bumped into the Inquisitor when she turned to go over to that spot .
She froze when she saw him staring at her intently . ''I…Inquisitor '', she stutters clutching her hands to her chest , backing up a little , as her eyes meets his .
''Varric told me I'd find you here '', he simply says ignoring the fact that he had startled her .
She nods saying ''Oh ''.
''He told me what happened in the armory, are you alright ?''. He sounded genuinely concerned .
She nods again saying nothing , just stare at him feeling a bit awkward for some reason . Varric must have told him where she got hurt and that in itself was rather embarrassing .
''Well , I'm sorry for Sera and Harrit's behavior '', he says frustration boiling inside him at her silence .
Looking down at her dirty hand she nods yet again angering him .
''Don't you have anything better to say than just nod?'', he asks his voice cold .
Looking up at him again she shrugs causing him to feel so angry he want to strangle her then and there . But he reels it in knowing that if he hurt her he'd be just as bad as Sera and Harrit .
Taking a deep breath he close the gap between them and reach one hand out to grasp her shoulder gently .
Carrie feels warmth seep through her clothes into her shoulder and knows that he was touching her with his marked hand . The warmth was a bit warmer than average ,but it wasn't unbearable .
''Tell me if you need anything ,alright ?, come find me if you need to just talk or need something , it doesn't matter if it is at night , you know where my quarters are ,if I'm not there just ask around or send someone to fetch me ''.
His words sounds strangely urgent as if it is very important for her to listen to him .She didn't know if she should do that . Until lately he haven't even bothered talking to her much . Now it seems he had remembered that she was also there . Part of his team . And he couldn't shut up .
''Okay '', she says softly .
Nodding to her he squeezes her shoulder while smiling encouragingly , before he lowers his hand , stepping back .
''Well ,I should go now , got lots of things to do until I leave tomorrow for the Storm Coast again , news just got in that there were some bandits spotted there and they seem to be the same group that had terrorized The Hinterlands ''.
She said nothing while thinking of the list that she hadn't gone to look at because there wasn't any point to since she didn't get picked much to accompany the Inquisitor .
Frowning at her shabby looking gear , Carrie felt sorry for herself . Her mage armor and staff had seen better days . Even her pack looked like it'll break any second now .
''I can't use these '',she whines to herself ''I'll look like some beggar or urchin on a street corner.''
She sighs . She has no choice but to use them . She had no money . She should have had some , but it seemed when the others got paid , she had always been forgotten . Even Cole got paid .
Leaning down she picks up her armor . She'll go asks Harrit to help her fix it ,even if it is his fault that she got hurt earlier this day . If she was quick enough she might get to him before he leaves for his room at the tavern.
She finds him and the Inquisitor sifting through the old armor of the others .She could see Solas's armor on top of a pile . She bites her upper lip nervously when she spots the man of her dreams . He stood bending over a table oblivious of her standing just a few feet away .
Harrit who saw her just gave her a nasty look and ignored her further . She sighs softly at that and wishes that there was another black smith she could go to .
Taking a deep breath she walks towards them .
''Mm , Harrit , if you fix them properly ,you might get a fair price ….Oh, Hey Kiddo come to hand in your old armor ?'', he spoke . He looked at her questioningly ,holding out his hand towards the pile in her arms .
Stepping out of his hand's reach she shakes her head . ''No , Inquisitor , I err…I just came to ask Harrit if he could fix my armor for me '', she says trying to not look at him , but failing miserably because those eyes would always call for her to gaze into them .
''Do have coin ?'', Harrit asks a bit gruffly .
His question causes her shoulders to slump and with a shake of her head she turns away to leave .
''Kiddo , Wait !'', the Inquisitor calls after her ,trying to make her stay so he could talk to her .
Ignoring him she opens the door and steps out of the armory . Tears begun to pool in her eyes as her heart felt so hurt at having no money and not even being able to get her armor fixed . It spilled down her cheeks and made her eyes blurry as she rushed towards the door that'll take her to the safety of the rooms above the garden where her room was as well .
She nearly bumped into Solas on her way there . Even if her eyes was blurry she'd always know it's Solas because he had a certain aura to him .
''Be careful !'', he shouts .
Without looking up she whispers a soft ''Sorry '',before pushing past him . This day was one of the worse days she had experienced .
In the safety of her room she throws down her armor on the floor before falling down sobbing on her bed . She lets the tears fall freely as her body shook . Her heart was so broken . She don't know how long she cried ,but when her sobs finally subsided she just lay there on her bed wishing that tomorrow wouldn't come because tomorrow she'd be leaving with the Inquisitor for the Storm Coast . She heard it from Varric earlier ,who had been told by Josephine to come and tell her since she hadn't come to study the list .
''It was a last minute decision '', he had said . She didn't believe him . The Inquisitor always chose his team carefully . She had gone to look at the list anyway just to make sure .
Her surprise was great and she was giddy with happiness , but now she felt different about it .
A soft tired sigh escapes her lips . She didn't want to be part of the Inquisition anymore .It gave her more pain than the damn circle in Ostwick had ever .
Closing her eyes she decides to try and sleep . In the morning she'd go to Josephine and ask her if she could get a loan or something . She wasn't sure if one could ask Josephine that ,but she had to try . She would use that money to leave this wretched place . Or she could just let this go and stay here hoping that someone would remember her when new armor was handed out again .
Worn from crying she falls asleep almost instantly ,dreaming of better days . She didn't visit the Fade in her dreams tonight like most mages would be doing . She rather dreamed of better days for herself .
Maxwell stood on the battlements glaring unseeingly down at the refugee camp . He was deep in thought about the girl who had become something to him in such a short while . He didn't know what to do about the hurt he saw in those caramel eyes of her earlier today . He had wanted to scold Harrit for treating her like he did , but he didn't want anyone to think that he had feelings for the girl .
Clenching his fist he thought of how she had fled when he had called her back . He didn't understand why she didn't stay and talk to him . He lets out a deep sigh . Varric had told him of what had happened with Harrit and Sera , but Varric hadn't said why Harrit had made her stumble . Was he missing something important ?.
A frown creased his forehead as he thought of the way Harrit had asked if she had coin . Why didn't she have coin ?. Surely every party member got paid , even the mages .
''Inquisitor !'', a call from one of the guards on the battlements interrupts his thoughts . He sighed and turned to look at the man .
''What is it ?'',he asks politely .
''Commander Cullen needs your assistance ''.
''Oh , okay , thank you '', he says bowing his head slightly before walking off to find Cullen . He'll think of the girl another time.
She got dressed early and made her way towards an early breakfast put out for the team by the cooks . Varric was already there eating a steaming bowl of oatmeal .
Carrie who wasn't picky dished up some for herself and sat down next to her favorite dwarf .
''Morning , ''she yawns .
Varric just nods as his mouth is too full to talk . He eyes her up and down and she knows that he's taking in her shabby armor and chipping staff as well as her worn pack .
He looks dashing in his new Rogue armor . She knows that he got a new pack too . Everyone else did except for her . She envies him for having that luxury while she were still in rags .
Heavy footfalls from the direction of the throne tells her that the man she dreaded to see this morning was on his way . She followed the sound of every move he made as he dished up some food for himself .
''Morning , Varric , Kiddo '', he greeted as he sat down right next to her ,his body so near that his tight pressed against hers as well as his arm.
''Morning '', Varric says .
Carrie however don't know if she should speak up or not . She was afraid that she'll stutter if she does .
''I said morning ,Kiddo ,''he says again and he voice sounded a little bit sharp .
She turned her head to look at him and wish she hadn't because he stared at her, waiting for an answer .
She swallows, nearly choking on her mouth full of oatmeal . She starts coughing and gasping for breath and feels embarrassed when he slaps her on the back to help her .
''Be careful , Kiddo , you could have just motioned for me that your mouth is full !'', he scolds .
The sharpness of his voice brings tears to her eyes and without a word she gets up , grab her pack and rushes towards the door of the Great Hall .
''Kiddo ,Wait !'', he calls ''I didn't …oh , what's the use ''.
She ignores his words scampering towards the stables where eight horses stood saddled and ready for their long ride to the Storm Coast .Here she waited at the horse Master Dennett had pointed her to . She didn't look at them when they came walking to the stables half an hour later .
''Good morning , Kiddo '', Dorian greeted her yawning as he took the horse nearest to her .
''Morning '', she mumbles ,not looking at him .She knew what she'd see if she looked . Him clad in new mage armor .
The others didn't greet her . She didn't mind . She was used to it by now . The others didn't always talk to her much .
She took the rear when they started leading the horses towards the gate and struggled a little to mount her horse outside on the bridge . She ignored the feelings of electricity shooting throughout her body when two very familiar big hands lifted her into the saddle . One hand warmer than the other . She just mumbled a quiet ''Thank you ''as she settled into the saddle properly .
''You're welcome '', he says back before walking off to mount his most trusty steed Knight .
THIS IS MY FIRST ATTEMPT TO WRITE SOMETHING ABOUT DRAGONAGE INQUISITION . HOPE YOU LIKED IT .