One day. Just one more day and I'll be able to see her. I'll be able to hold her. I'll be able to kiss her. Just one more day and she'll be in my arms instead of his.
I know this is crazy of us to do but whenever I'm with her, she just drives me crazy, and that craziness is what got us in this whole mess. We promised each other it would only happen one time, but then the following week, it was her who showed up at my doorstep saying she couldn't stop thinking about me. We then promised each other, again, it would be the last time. However, we found each other in my bedroom after another football party on one of those many Fridays. We kept promising, but in the end, we just let it happen, and, to be honest here, I'm glad it did, and I'm glad we continue to do so. We try to keep it as quiet as possible, with her being with Matt and me being with Lyla, it almost seems impossible for us, but we definitely manage. The funny thing is how crazy we are enough to do it.
Now let me be clear here, none of this was planned. From the moment I saw her, I had no idea that Julie Taylor would someday be waking up in my bedroom. In fact, I doubt anybody in this goddamn town had any clue, and they still don't. So for the time being I'll continue to love Lyla just as much as she loves Matt. We'll continue to hold their hands, kiss them after every game, hang out at every party, and show up at every football related even with each other, but at the end of the night, when we're alone in the late night, and both of our lovers are asleep, we end up together and I cannot be more thankful than the time we have together.
As I parked in my usual spot in the Dillon High School parking lot the next morning, I found Lyla right where she always is, waiting by the door with some of the other cheerleaders, Julie being one of them.
"Hey darlin'!" she shouted as I closed my truck door behind me and started to walk over. Before we kissed, I gave a quick glance to Julie and saw her look away before closing my eyes and giving Lyla my usual 'hello' kiss in the morning. It's not unusual for Julie to look away whenever she sees us together because honestly, I do the same whenever she's with Matt.
"What's goin' on guys?" I asked the rest of the group while I lingered on Julie's gaze a little more. "Excited for tomorrow?" I asked just to make conversation.
"Oh yeah!" "So excited!" I heard from the group. As we approached the center of the hall, I saw Matt coming from the opposite direction with his best friend Landry. "What's up man?" I asked out of habit.
"Nothin' much. Hey babe!" I heard him say quietly to no one but Julie. From the corner of my eye I caught a glimpse of their kiss and in that moment I didn't know whether to be pissed-off angry or hurt. But the laugh I heard coming from Lyla reminded me that I couldn't be either.
That school day was pretty much of a blur except for the constant 'let's go panthers!' from everybody who was hyped for tonight's game.
Throughout the whole party, I just didn't care who was watching or paying attention, but my eyes did not leave Julie Taylor for one second. Even though Lyla was right next to me the entire time, her drunken state proved to me that she was not going to remember anything that happens tonight. Her little victory shots proved to be in mine, and Julie's, favor. While she was hanging out and being all lovey-dovey with Matt, she would always give me two seconds of pure lust when she would stare at me while Matt was busy burying his head into her neck. Pulling away too fast and almost falling over clearly showed that he was also playing in our favor.
"Matt come on, let's take you home." I heard her say from across the room. "Stay right here babe" I stated to Lyla before heading over to help Julie and her drunken quarterback. "Need some help?" I offered and put my arm under him to help Julie make him walk back to my truck.
"I'll be right back" I commanded after I helped Matt into the car. I jogged back to the house to find Lyla, and sighed in relief to see that she stayed exactly where I left her. "Come 'eer." I said as I gently carried her bridal way to my truck and right next to Matt. I helped Julie climb in before shutting the door and jogging to the driver's side.
"Some party huh?" I asked on the car ride to Lyla's. "Did ya have fun?"
"Mhmm" was all she said. "Congrats by the way" she followed after a long silence.
"Why thank you ma'am, the cheer leaders didn't do so bad themselves."
"Thank you but we didn't just win the most important football game of the year."
After about half hour, we were finally alone in my room, laughing at nothing and everything.
"Hey, what time is it?" she asked through trying to calm down from her laughter. "Uh, 12:24" I replied after looking at my clock. "Why, is it passed your bed time?" I joked, leaning in closer to her. She laughed and shook her head no. "I just wanted to know how much time we had, that's all" she confessed.
Being face to face I kept looking up and down between her eyes and her lips, not wanting to ever move. "Tryna leave already I see" I whispered. She laughed again, her eyes never leaving mine. "Nah, that's just my problem," she whispered back, our lips touching in the most softest of ways, "I don't ever wanna leave" she said in the quietest hush.
"Then don't." Was all I whispered before finally fully connecting our lips and cupping her face. It was almost natural kissing her, it felt right, even though it was purely wrong. She pushed up against me, somehow letting herself able to sit on top of me while we kissed on the edge of my bed.
"Fine." She replied, separating our lips for a second before looking in my eyes and connecting them once more. Her hands flew to the back of my head, grabbing onto my hair like there was no tomorrow as my hands made their under her shirt and caressed the back of her bare skin. A moan escaped her lips as my hand came back to her front and grabbed both of her breasts, giving them a squeeze. She grabbed the hem of my shirt and separated our lips once more to only pull my shirt off and throw it into the distance before connecting again. I edged back still sitting and pulled back to pull off her blouse and reveal her black lace bra. We continued to kiss as she spun us around so I was on top of err, hands intertwined and our bodies moving in perfect sync.
"I want you so much." She whispered as I grabbed both of her hands and put them on top of her head. "So damn much." I let go of her hands to take off her pants and started to kiss every inch of her body starting from the belly button. As soon as I got to her breasts, I pulled her on top and we were once again in the sitting position. I slowly unhooked her bra, and finally threw it somewhere before cupping both of them in my hands while she continued to kiss me while pulling on my hair. I laid her back down leaving kisses all over her neck. I kept leaving traces down her neck and to her chest until I reached one of her breasts. I started to suck and lick while my other hand never left her other breasts. We sat up again, this time Julie flipping us over to take off my pants. I helped her as I kicked them off in a hurry as soon as they reach my knees. I flipped us over again but instead of doing anything, I just looked at her. I really looked at her. And although I loved every minute of this, I had to stop.
"What?" she asked in a hush tone disrupting the silence that filled the air. "What's wrong?" she continued to ask. I shook my head and left a small and gentle kiss on her soft lips before quickly pulling away.
"We promised," was all I said after a minute of thinking. "We promised ourselves this would never happen again and here we are, on my bed, half naked doing the exact opposite." I looked deep into her eyes to see that she was thinking the exact same thing I was thinking; we need to stop, but I don't want to. I sat us up, leaving her on me, my eyes never leaving hers.
"I know," she whispered. I grabbed her right hand from behind my head and placed intertwined our fingers before placing it in right in the middle of us, never letting go. "But Tim," she sighed, "I just can't seem to get away. No matter how hard I try to not think about you, I do, and I find myself hating you and me for what we're doing."
"Baby I do the exact same thing," I confessed. "I know we just let it go after a while and we did our own thing but," I trailed off. "But I really … I don't know … I just …" I trailed off again, not finding the right words to say.
"Shh." She silenced me and placed a single kiss on my lips. We continued the kiss, Deeping it with ever motion and movement we made until I was on top one last time, this time, both of us completely naked.
She paused kissing me and looked deep into my eyes for a few minutes before opening her mouth, "no matter how many times we promise each other this is going to stop, we both know it won't. No matter what happens-"
"It's you and me" I cut her off. She smiled and pushed my head towards her, reconnecting our lips once more. I pulled apart for the last time to grab a condom from my drawer and slipped it on. For the final time that night, our lips were touching and moving together as I slipped right inside her. I started off slowly just how I knew she liked it. I pulled out half way before going in again. She signaled me to go faster when she thrust her hips up. I kept moving faster and faster, grabbing her hand and intertwining out fingers next to her head as I started to reach climax.
"Oh fuck Tim" she moaned, biting her lips. Moments before I came, she sat us up, riding me just how I liked it; fast then slow. "Oh shit." I moaned as I kissed her neck when she threw her head back. She brought it back and slammed our lips together just as both our moans echoed throughout the quiet Riggens house.
I collapsed right on top of her, never leaving the warmth of the inside of her. "Holy shit," I breathed out onto her shoulder. She giggled and slightly turned her head towards me. I finally pulled out and just lied next to her, her stare ripping right through me. The air was filled with our gasping and heavy breathing as we tried to catch our breath. Her bright big eyes glossed even more with the moon light hitting her face all in the right places, man she has never looked so beautiful.
"Are we crazy?" she asked, breaking the silence the cool and dark night had to offer. "Are we crazy for doing this? I know it's you and me, but…" she paused, trying to find the right words to say. "Is it all gonna be worth it if they ever find out?"
I looked at her and remained silent while trying to process her question. Of course they won't find out because the only people, who know, are me and her. But, if word ever came out, is everything we've risked for worth it? If Matt finds out, there goes our starting quarterback, and if Lyla finds out, there goes my reputation and possibly my spot on the football team, as well as Julie losing her spot on the cheer team. In the end, is it all going to be worth this moment right here and now?
"Umm" I started but was quickly interrupted with the sound of knocking coming from my door.