"I love you." That one little statement can mean so much.

Three simple words, yet they hold so much meaning. Uttering these words to that one person, revealing what truly lays in your heart. Making you so vulnerable, completely and utterly under their control. As they will have the power to either treasure you heart, keeping it safe and out of harm's way while shielding it; or shattering it to millions of pieces, stepping on it, and causing you hurt like no one else ever could.

So is it worth it?If it meant that those three, short and simple, yet so powerful, words, could cause that person to feel like they mean the world to you, that nothing in the world was important, and nothing could bring them down, because you had each other. Would it be worth it to speak them then? To show what that person truly means to you?

The events of this story start off in the middle of season 2 episode 9 from Junjou Romantica, around 15 minutes into the episode. But in the story's events, Misaki never gets to say to Usagi he loves him, to put his mind at ease. Read the story to know what happens if the ride ends too soon… and what occurs between the two afterwards.

Story title inspired by the song (little do you know by Alex and Sierra).

Disclaimer: of Junjo Romantica material and characters that are mentioned in this book.

Chapter Song: All You Never Say by Birdy.

CHAPTER 1

Misunderstood Words

Misaki's POV

Today was just another one of the days that I got sucked into the 'Usagi whirlpool'. I was just minding my business, and happened to walk into the living room to get to the kitchen, only to find Usagi-san torturing Aikawa-san again… The usual, right?

Well, no. Not necessarily. Not today.

So as I was saying, I was sucked into his world and ended up having to agree to plan a 'normal' date, by 'normal' human standards, not 'Usagi' standards, so Usagi-san will be able to finish writing the last few chapters of his novel.

Easy enough… WRONG! I couldn't have been more wrong!

Everything was going fine, well as fine as it could be after the gift his father sent me, until we reached one of the final few things on the list: visiting the new aquarium. He seemed distracted. I felt like maybe he was like that because I met his father and brother, even though it all happened by chance…

I was actually enjoying myself, making lame jokes, and Usagi was being his normal self, calling me a kid. I thought things were going back to the way they were before.

Then Usagi-ani happened. And well, I tried to get rid of him, but it wasn't as easy as I had hoped. I was glad that I finally was able to after almost running away from him. The Usagi family was so hard to reason with, thinking about it alone gave me a terrible headache.

I decided not mentioning my run in with Usagi-ani, to Usagi-san, was a good idea for now, so we would continue on enjoying the date and I hoped that he was able to learn something useful for his book, especially knowing how he'd react to hearing about his brother.

The ferris-wheel was our next stop. I was excited, especially about the view… But I could tell that something was bothering Usagi-san. So I tried to distract him, mentioning the view for him to look at, but I felt his eyes on me, never once leaving me.

He then said something I was hoping to never hear him utter. "I think maybe it would be best if you kept your distance from me."

Hearing the words left me with a pang of pain in my heart… I did the only thing I could think of at that moment… I played along.

"O-oh, yeah, maybe…" I said, looking away from him again. "I mean, I totally got roped into doing this hands-on lesson today anyway you look at it. And not only this time; somehow I always end up the victim of unfortunate circumstances whenever I am with you." I laughed awkwardly just then before adding, "Yeah, you're totally right! I know, there's a new volume of my favorite manga coming out. You can buy that and I'll forgive you." I joked, hoping that it will blow over with just that.

"You could go to Takahiro's place, or live on your own," he said, ignoring my rant. "Either way, I'll cover all of your expenses."

My hands fisted on their own in my lap as I replied, my eyes still directed at the Tokyo Tower, "I don't need that." Then something came to my mind that I had to ask, so I did. "Oh, did you happen to see me with your brother at the aquarium?

"Um, look, I want you to trust me on this: every time we've met it's just been a coincidence." I tried to reassure him, in case that was what brought this on. "This time too. We just happened to bump into each other. He said that the aquarium was something he'd worked on, and he was there on business."

It must be why he was acting this way, and saying these things. "Of course, there is no way I could have known that. So, I mean, I couldn't have been on my guard even if I wanted to." I said finally looking his way. "Er, but, I do try to be careful… Are you mad?"

"No, that is not what I am talking about…" he said, his eyes locked on his hands that were resting against his lap, not meeting my gaze.

"Then, what are you talking about?" I insisted, getting frustrated, "You have been really acting weird these days! Well, you are always weird, but…"

Could it be that I did something to bother him…? I wondered in worry.

"I…" I was about to ask but he beat me to it.

"I just… don't want to hurt you…" he mumbled. "I always thought, with regards to everything, that it was better for me to just hold back and… restrain myself rather than risk the relationship falling apart: that is how I have lived my whole life. And in fact, I thought I'd done pretty well for myself that way, and I was satisfied with it.

"But ever since I met you, I haven't been able to bear it anymore. It's entirely possible that you will come into contact with my family again in the future. My family knows sides of me that you don't. And I can't help but wondering if you would go away from me if you found out about them. I think I might do anything to stop you.

"I'm afraid. I don't want to restrain you, but at the same time I want to lock you away. Hurting you is the one thing I never want to do. But that is not the reality. I'd rather we part ways now, than have you despise me and leave me behind one day. My biggest fear is losing you."

I was practically speechless as I listened to him. I have never heard him speak like this before. He was telling me things I never thought I would hear from him.

"Er, well, but you've never done anything to hurt me…" I tried to reason with him, reassure him.

"Soon after we started living together, I practically forced myself on you." I gasped, surprised by his words.

"U-um… Uh, then, is it…" I couldn't say a full sentence, stumbling on my words. I finally regained some sense as I said, "Then, is it safe to say that the reason you've been acting so strange recently is all… because of this?"

I had no idea that Usagi-san was suffering over that… Can I take that to mean… he doesn't want me to hate him…? I was the one who didn't understand. I was the one who didn't have a clue at all. Usagi-san had been worried all this time. He's been thinking about me, just me, for all this time. I'm sorry. I thought to myself as I realized all of this. I'm not very good with complicated things or big words, but… the one thing I could say is…

The farris-wheel stopped. I was just about to say the words that I thought would help put Usagi-san's mind at ease, and just like that, the ride ended. The door was opened for us to get out, and Usagi-san didn't spare a moment in doing just that. Letting me know that he was done talking.

I was so close… so close to uttering the words that he had told me before he wanted to hear… My mouth was still open as I was about to speak his name…

But it was too late…

So you see… Today wasn't just another day that I got stuck in the 'Usagi whirlpool'. It was also the last time. Because as we made our way home, skipping dinner at the diner, not a single word was exchanged. We got home and went into the penthouse. Usagi didn't even look at me, as if the conversation that we had on the farris-wheel sealed what was between us.

I was shut out completely. This was it. What we shared… it was over.

He made his way to his office, and for the next few days, I didn't see him. He didn't eat with me anymore. I would leave him his meals in the fridge and he would heat it up at his leisure. That's how it is now.

I got the hint. His words when he asked me to move out, they were real. So here I was all packed up. I made sure to call my brother moments before I was about to leave the house, to let him know that I would be there. I didn't want to call him before, so he wouldn't bother Usagi-san.

I made sure to leave him a note, as to not worry him, because in my mind I found myself believing that it was the last time I would see him. He said he didn't want to hurt me that night, but here I was… with a broken heart… I guess it was my fault for not saying the words out loud.

I left the keys to the penthouse next to the phone on my way out, just above the note.

Take care. I thought as I made my way to the cab that awaited me, carrying three of my bags with me, not caring about the furniture, merely my clothes and things I would need for school.

Usagi's POV

When Misaki reserved the package sent to him from my father, I lost it. Especially when he told me that he'd met with him. He insisted that it was by chance, and I truly believed him, but what worried me is what my father might have told him.

One thing I never wanted Misaki to know is the things that happened in my past, things about myself that no one knows but my family. The main reason why I don't want him to know is that I don't want him to hate me… I don't want to lose the one I love again…

My mind was occupied by those thoughts throughout the date that Misaki had planned. I have to say, I love him for taking the time to do this for me, for putting so much thought into helping me out. But then when we were in the aquarium, I saw him and my brother talking when he went to the bathroom.

I was so worried. All my fears about my family saying something to him that would make him hate me came rushing back, and I couldn't help but wonder: What would be better? Losing him after he hates me, or letting him go when he still accepts me…?

It was hard. The choice was hard. I love Misaki. He means the world to me… but I don't want him to hate me, and I definitely don't want him to get hurt.

I wasn't planning on saying anything after I saw my brother with Misaki, but I couldn't hold back once I said it. I told him what I thought about keeping his distance from me. I barely heard a word he said after that as so many thoughts ran through my head after I said the words. I then said that he should move out, assuring him that I would pay all of his expenses.

My heart ached as I spoke the words. I could see the look in his eyes when I said it, and it broke my heart, but I knew that it was the best thing for him now. He will come into contact with my family again. I was sure of it. As long as we were together, I couldn't guaranty that they won't meet again.

He tried to explain to me that all the meetings with my brother were by chance, and that he is always on his guard, but I started to talk after that… about things I never thought I would say to him, about how I felt, about my fears.

I need him. I need my Misaki in my life, but I can't keep him locked up, as much as I want to. I have grown used to him being there. Every day, most of the day. I can't spend a day where I don't see him. That is what made this even harder.

He told me how I never hurt him, which made me mention the way I forced him to be with me. I could tell that he was surprised, even though I thought that he shouldn't be. I was only mentioning the facts.

The ferris-wheel stopped, and I didn't wait to hear what he obviously was about to say. I feared what he would tell me, if he would say that he hated me for what happened that time, if he thought that I was being senseless and my fears where baseless, but I knew they were real. So I stood up and left. His eyes followed me as I walked out, his mouth hung open with the words he didn't get to say. It didn't take long for him to follow me.

We didn't complete what was on the list for the date. I drove us straight home after that. I couldn't speak another word as I felt my throat constrict painfully at what I had suggested only moments ago. When we got home, I received a text from Aikawa that she needed the book done by morning, and so I locked myself in the office once we reached the penthouse.

I didn't think Misaki wanted to speak to me anymore after what I said. I wasn't waiting for him to tell me that I didn't force him, but I knew Misaki… I thought at least he'd have something to say about it, but he didn't… or maybe it was my fault for not giving him the chance to.

I passed out early that morning after finishing the book and sending it. I completely skipped breakfast and lunch as I slept till the sun started to set that evening. When I woke up, Misaki had apparently eaten already and left me some food to heat up for dinner in the fridge.

I had a few more things to finish up for work and was extremely busy the next few days. He left me food in the fridge when I skipped meals. I was thankful. It minimized the possibilities of me burning down the house in an attempt to make something to eat; or even passing out because I didn't bother even trying to cook.

I wanted to speak to Misaki so bad though. I missed hearing his voice. I was worried about what he might say. Matter-of-fact, I was terrified of hearing what he had to say about what I told him on the ferris-wheel. I didn't know if I could play it off like I did before. I didn't want to. We really should discuss it. So I decided to ignore what little was left of the work I had and went looking for Misaki.

I hadn't expected it. I never expected it. I should have, but I didn't. So here I am, after searching the house for him, standing close to the door where I found his keys over a note he left me.

Usagi-san,

I understand what you meant and I respect your decision. I don't want to impose on you anymore. I should have moved out when my brother returned. Don't worry about me not returning because I have moved back with Takahiro. Sorry for causing you so much trouble. Take care of yourself.

Misaki.

I could feel my heart as it sunk in my chest. Misaki left. He left, and didn't say anything before he did. Just a note. He left and merely wrote me a note to not worry. How could this have happened? My worst fear. Losing my Misaki… it has come to pass…

AN: Finally a new fic. Hope you like it. Review and let me know what you think 3