Notes: Just a tiny little thing, and it's not my best, but it was written to get it out of my head more than anything.
Spoilers: Up to and including 12.16 "Out On A Limb" because that scene has eaten my brain entirely...
Content Warning : Nothing
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Options
When I saw her in that white sari, I thought she'd made her choice. She'd chosen to marry into the Army, into a life of uncertainty.
Into a family she didn't know. To be with a man she didn't know.
Bitterly, I cursed what I saw as the wrong decision, but never having said anything to change her mind I often wonder how I ever expected her to know there was a choice, that she had an option.
Because honestly, I never thought I could be a viable option for her. On the surface, she was not my type, and I was not hers. I talked myself into all the ways it wouldn't work and never let her make up her own mind by just telling her straight how I felt.
But now I can feel her – so close by, her weight warm against me, head resting on my shoulder.
There is a glimmer of hope in my stomach again.
Because now I'm not so sure he was her choice.
Maybe I was wrong.