Dark...

It was dark...

...and he was alone.

But wasn't it always like that?

Wasn't he used to be left alone in the darkness?

Well, actually he liked the darkness for some odd reason. It was calming even pleasant but sometimes it was just cold, frightening, and sad and... nothing more.

...

There! This damn voice had come up again.

He had been hearing it for quite some time now and it was simply terrible.

It was hissing and cursing he knew it though he couldn't understand it.

Seemed to be just some random mumbling or it was a very very old language which had not been spoken since the beginning of time.

And it sometimes laughed. But not of joy, no, definitely not!... It was a dark and evil laughter like something he heard before or it just resembled to it. Sadistic you could say...

Anyways something told him to hate the kind how it laughed and how it remembered him of something that slept inside of him for ages, shut to the point where nobody could ever break open its lock. The key was anyways nowhere to be found since not even he himself knew what that was.

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„..We are..so...sorry...bout...but....what..can..we..do?"

„..SO ..YOU ARE TELLNIG... ME ..TO.. JUS.. .LET ...HIM ..DIE?!! "

„I know it's hard for all of you but even if his values are in a better state it's impossible for him to wake up and you know that!"

„But- "

„See Komui he's right and I really wish that he wouldn't be but the evidence is that he just over strained himself abnormally. This has the effect that the lotus lost in only this one fight eight petals. "

„Just give him time to rec-..."

„Don't you understand?! It was simply too much for him AND his body! If that are the adequate words for it. He'll never recover of something like that... Nobody would not even a monster or the earl himself! "

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„What are they talking about..? "

„Why are they talking?!"

He wasn't used to it; it seemed that he had not heard anybody talking for a hundred of years.

Had he been sleeping all the time and now it was time to wake up??

He didn't know but somehow the calming feeling began to fade.

Everything began to feel heavy and his body... hurt?

He didn't know, it had been too long since something had hurt him. It had been too long since he had felt something.

Scattered Memories started to dig their way in his head, memories which had been long away but not completely forgotten.

The strange voices were talking about a fight and he tried to remember... lotus... akuma... too much akuma... blood... much blood... and corpses... water and a ship... a very strong akuma... probably a higher level than everything they had faced before... they?... everything came up to him... they were Exorcists of the Black Order and he was one of them... Kanda Yuu...

Now he remembered everything. There was a big fight and he had to tell Komui to...

With a quick movement he sat up, everyone's attention on him.

„Komui..! We have to make a withdrawal..! The akuma.. They are... there is..... Ugh!! ", he couldn't finish when he suddenly collapsed blood coughing. He was shaking his head hurt oh gods his whole body hurt. It burnt like hell. No, even worse if that was possible.

His vision blurred and all he noticed in the middle of that riot in the infirmary (which he had probably caused) was a warm smile and a very familiar voice which said:"We're so glad that you're alive Kanda-kun. *sob* Just rest, it will take time to heal..."*sob*

And then everything went black again...

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"Just rest, it will take time to heal..."

That was the last he heard before he fell asleep again.

…

Oh...shit headache...

"Hey do you think he'll wake up soon?"

"I dunno but I hope so. I miss our dear Yuu-Chan so much..."

Those voices... Could it be..? But why are they so noisy?! I think my head hurts already enough!

"...You know that he'll kill you if he hears yo-.."

"Naaah! Allen he's definitely not going to wake up just 'cause I called him-..."

What's with them?! I'm trying to rest so why the hell are they so damn noisy?!!

"Shhh! Can't you be quieter?! We're in the infirmary after all.."

"Meh Lena relax! Did he wake up? Nope so just let us talk please."

Too noisy, too noisy...

"Oi Lavi I don't think it's a good idea to wake him up-.."

"Too late Baka Moyashi..." Kanda said cracking his left eye open and noticing that the other was bandaged. It hurt a bit when he tried to open it beneath the bandage.

"Oh my god, Kanda! I'm so happy!", Lenalee shouted and flung her arms around his neck.

"Wow... I didn't think it would really work..." Lavi murmured with an O.O expression but immediately put on his typical smile.

So the fight is already over? I knew it was just a nightmare...

"See?! I told you... So how are you feeling Kanda?" the white-haired boy beside the redhead asked with a polite smile but actually he thought "It's Allen you stupid dumbass..."

"Yeah what do I look like?! I Feel just like shi-.." suddenly he felt a stinging pain where the Chinese girl had touched him. "Nghh..! L-Lenalee c-could you let go of me..?", he tried to say as calm as possible but it hurt so much that he thought his shoulder blades were going to break.

"S-sorry are you alright? Did I hurt you?" the girl asked with worry in her voice.

"Let's see, where does it hurt?" Lavi asked with a serious tone. But when they helped Kanda to sit up and saw the blood that was flowing down his back Allen and Lavi immediately ran to get the head nurse while Lenalee remained with Kanda.

Even when the head nurse arrived and took care of his injury, the raven-haired just didn't relax. He clenched his fists and his eye was also tight shut.

Everything around him seemed to happen so fast and he opened his eye just a bit. His vision was blurred but among the silhouettes of all the people who were running around in the infirmary he noticed someone or more something leaning against the door.

Black pants, something crimson that looked like a Chinese men dress but every article of its clothing was tattered and dirty.

It just stood there with its head down and its long dark hair falling like a waterfall down in front of its face. Obviously it was a person but he preferred to call him 'it'.

Somehow he felt awkward when it just stood there, hands behind its back. It was as if it was watching him but that wasn't possible since its hair was down. When the Japanese tried to look at it more precisely he noticed that its hair seemed like it was wet exactly like its clothes. And then he noticed something that made him shudder.

It was the color of it skin, it was so damn pale almost like a living corpse. He knew he had also very pale skin but so white?

He noticed that it was cold. Freezing cold coming from the thing over there and he suddenly realized that nobody else seemed to notice that 'thing'. Everyone was in a hurry with whatever they were doing and when he looked at them they were completely blurred and moved much faster than usual. Was he in slow-motion or was this some sick kind of joke?

"What the fuck..." suddenly he felt that freezing cold again behind him. He immediately turned around just to see that weird thing come over to him. His mind only produced one thought, to back away but he couldn't move properly so he just tried to prepare for whatever was coming.

Suddenly the person began to move jerkily and next he noticed was that it was standing only about two meters away from him like in a horror film when the monster stalked its prey.

Suddenly wet hair was right in front of him and slightly touched his nose so that he could smell the foul reek of a corpse which had been lying in the sun for three weeks.

He could feel his heart almost skipping a few beats.

His eye was now wide wider than usual. He had faced so many scary opponents but this time it was something different something even more evil and dreadful.

With a quick movement the thing grabbed his neck and sat on top of him. Eyes like blood and a malicious grin even wider than that of a Noah gracing its face.

"You... wo..n't...escape me!", it said without lip-singing the words, suddenly that monster threw one hand up a dagger in it trying to stab Kanda who just reacted like everyone else would and held his hands before his head shut his eyes tight and screamed like never before.

"OI KANDA! WAKE UUUP!!!" the white-haired teen shouted when he tried to calm the raging male in front of him down by holding him down.

The raven-haired cracked his eye open and stopped to fidget so that the albino and some nurses could let go of him.

Meanwhile he breathed a few times heavily trying to catch his breath Lenalee was coming into the room but stopped at the door and stared in shock and disbelief at the raven-haired, Allen soon following her example.

"Oh my god... K-kanda you... you're... uhm..", the girl tried to say something but the sight somehow stopped her.

"What's with me, huh?", he said still a bit out of breath. But at this moment something dripped of his forehead onto the white sheet. It was a crimson liquid, no shit, it was blood...

He jumped off the bed and ran to the bathroom where he looked in the mirror but immediately regretted it.

There was blood on his forehead...his neck... and even on his wrists he realized when he was to touch his neck. He looked down himself and there on his ankles was also blood.

"B-but why.. am I bleeding?" he asked into nothingness.

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"So what's going on?!" a very annoyed raven-haired teen asked and a very confused scientist named Komui answered:" I really don't know. In all this years I haven't seen anything like that …" When he said 'that' Komui looked at Kandas wrist. There was an injury, formed like a little cross and it was bleeding. Actually Kanda had injuries like that on both wrists and on his ankles. "Ah! Look supervisor it's bleeding again." the by-standing nurse said with a curious look on her puppy like face. "Uhu… it's almost as if it doesn't want that I'm touching you, Kanda-kun." Komui murmured into his cafe can and took a big swallow. "Yeah, yeah now tell me how I can stop that shit!" Kanda demanded already annoyed to no end. "C'mon Yuu-chan! We just want to help ya and all you do is to bitch around." A certain redhead said while he was closing the door grinning as always. "Pah! If you were the one who just woke up not knowing where you are or if the fight you were in is already over, then feeling that every single fucking bone in your body is nearly broken and finally realizing that you're bleeding without a reason and that you have some freaking injuries out of nowhere, THEN you WOULD bitch around!" after trying to regain his breath the youth leaned back crossed his arms and stared daggers at Lavi. Said just stared at him not saying a word until Komui made his leave and told Kanda to stay in bed since his body had been too weakened.

Kanda just wanted to know what the hell happened. He could remember that they were on a mission. A pretty dangerous one so they had to go by ship far away out on the open water. There they had detected a quite big fragment of innocence. However the difficulty was that nobody expected said fragment being under water. They had a submarine with them but there was the next problem… It was a very little one with space for only one person and nobody was curious enough to want to know how it looked down there. So the beloved inspector Leverrier ordered that Kanda should be the one. As if it was something new to the boy… And exactly when Kanda was to get into the submarine there was a shockwave which made the whole ship nearly break down and suddenly hundreds of akuma attacked.

From there on he could only remember that he chased another akuma that was far stronger than anything the order had faced before. Even for that moyashi and even for him, it was a tough opponent. He had fought until the point where his body would give in and then he could remember that he had made a decision and activated his innocence with maximal force but soon after that he had no idea what happened next and if he really managed to defeat said monster. Actually he had been prepared to die.

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"Neh, when will my little brother come and join us? I'm sooo bored…" Rhode asked a girl standing next to her who was also looking into the mirror an akuma was holding. She had short white hair with black stripes in it bound into a little ponytail (well more of a rat-tail xD) and only two of the strands she had on each side of her face reached her waist. "Until now everything went like the plan says. As soon as he's ready I'll personally go and take him with me." Said girl told her and continued staring expressionless into the mirror where a certain black haired guy and a red haired one who were quarreling could be seen and soon the redhead left the room the two of them were in.

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A few weeks later it seemed that Kanda was finally recovering. He didn't have to stay in bed all day and he also didn't have to take tons of medicine like in the first week. And the best was that the head-nurse allowed him to practice some sports even if only one hour a day. Well it wasn't what he wanted but always better than nothing. But there was one thing that didn't go away or got better like everything else. Since the day he woke up he had terrible nightmares and that voice that kept on murmuring dark things in the back of his head creeped the hell out of him. Actually he hadn't slept for the past five days and he wasn't expecting that he would anytime soon. And as if that wasn't enough, that stupid voice became louder and angrier with each passing day and more often he saw weird things like the little boy in the infirmary. Shadows growling monsters in the every kind of mirrors… That was too much for him and so he began to destroy them and to forgo things like mirrors. And he knew that something was wrong with his innocence because Komui and the others acted so strange and forbid him to go into the science department. Well Kanda couldn't ever stand bans and rules…

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"Man… Why the heck do we have to endure all this just because of him?" Rhode asked the same girl as before while blowing her nose. "You're not sick. All of you have a fever just because the blood of master that's flowing through your veins is boiling. It's reacting to his awakening which means that it's soon finished." "…W-when he's here at last… Can you tell me again how that all functions? I don't get everything right now--- ATCHOOO!!" The girl sweat dropped and made a -__-U expression but said nothing and turned back to the mirror.

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Kanda had found an undiscovered way to the science department and at the moment he was watching Komui and the other scientists while they were trying to repress his innocence. They even called Allen to help them but without success.

"W-we can't manage it… it's far too strong for our equipment and even Allen can't tame it. It's useless Komui." Johnny said gasping for air.

"Komui he's right. Even I can't calm it down. It's as if it doesn't want to be formed into a weapon again. It seems that it had been repressed and once repressed it will get revenge and make the one who repressed it to a fallen one. But it's strange… There was something so strong and powerful that forced the innocence against gods will to save Kanda but now I- I'm afraid that he is no longer compatible with it…" the ghost-like exorcist Hevlaska said.

"What the hell are they talking about? Who the fuck would repress an innocence and get out alive?!" Kanda thought his brain running with full speeds.

Suddenly Komui stopped panting and made a serious look "That's right but all of you know that I can't tell him that it's probably because he's turning into a no-" Suddenly Allen interrupted him and snapped " Come on now! We can't tell that for sure we don't know anything yet!"

Well actually the white haired was right but he knew like all of them that if Kanda really was turning into a noah he maybe would be a danger to the Vatican. Sure the Vatican was informed well enough to know that the fourteenth was their ally but in all the history they and the bookmen had collected was no other noah that would be on their side. There was only one noah who was quite a mystery. That guy seemed to be the earl a pain in the ass although he killed many humans and exorcists 'cause he spoiled much plans the earl made. The earl alleged tried to aggravate the seal which had been put on that noah by the strongest exorcist of the past. But that was just a speculation and nobody knew much about that guy or his relation with the earl.

While Komui was busy with discussing things with Allen Kanda didn't want to trust his ears. He a noah, a traitor? Never even if he wanted to he couldn't betray the order.

When he got up he noticed a mirroring of himself in one of the metal gasholders. He didn't realize that he actually tried to forgo mirrors but h was totally riveted on his mirroring. His hair tie was loose making his long black hair flowing down his shoulders and his bangs were over his eyes making him seem quite creepy. …Wait a second. He didn't have his bangs over his eyes this much and he didn't grin like a maniac. What? Grin?! Suddenly his reflection crawled out of the metal and grabbed him and held him tight. "I told you… no… escape!" That was the last he heard before he faded into the darkness.

Just when the conversation between Allen and Komui started to get fiery there was a big bang making the electricity fall out and the order quake. On the arks gate was suddenly somebody standing and all of the arks gates went immediately black and out of nowhere monsters appeared but Allen's eye didn't react so they were not akuma.

Allen was like everyone else fighting about their lives but when he realized that everything seemed to come from Kandas direction and so he ran towards the raven haired and grabbed him by his shoulder. Suddenly he was staring into Kandas eyes and he saw that his usual light blue ones were mixed with crimson. And suddenly he felt himself falling to the ground feeling as if he had been absorbed into those eyes.

When he woke up everything was just like a nightmare black walls and the floor was full with blood and the corpses of most of his friends were lying around. Then he heard a scream. He turned immediately around and saw Lenalee screaming but there was somebody in front of her and suddenly her heart was ripped out and her body fell to the ground her usually bright eyes getting colorless. Allen couldn't believe it. Everybody knew what he felt for her and now his love lay there already without a bit of life in her body. Then he heard somebody laugh behind him and he just stormed towards the boy he thought he knew so well. Kanda just grinned and jumped into a light the white haired following him.

"Wow... I think it's finally over." Lavi said letting his hammer shrink again. "I wonder why they stopped coming out" A very alive Lenalee answered him and thought "I don't know what you've done but please Kanda be alright…" The girl looked around the completely destroyed order.

"Ughh… I- I… can't… why? Nghaa… Aahh!" The black haired youth stood on a cliff, there where half an hour ago the main water pipes were going down the mountain and now there was nothing but a steep cliff with a big waterfall. "GET OUT OF MY HEAD!" He yelled and hit his head a few times against one of the still standing walls making his forehead bleed. Then he let himself fall to the ground and sat there looking around in total shock. He couldn't have done all this, could he? But his thoughts were interrupted by a certain white haired guy that ran towards him with his holy sword in his right hand. "WHY DID YOU KILL EVERYBODY?!!" he shouted at Kanda and ran towards him and before the other had time to react he pierced the large blade through his chest.

"Allen-kun! What are you up to-…" Lenalee shouted but silenced of shock when she saw the scene in front of her. Komui Lavi and a few other people followed and did the same when they saw how it ended. Allen thought he was going insane. He couldn't believe that Lenalee was standing a few meters away of them and he too couldn't believe that he had killed one of his friends in his rage right now. "I-I didn't know… K-Kanda I'm so…" He didn't know what to say or what to think right now his mind was totally blank.

Kandas breathing became heavy his body was shaking and trembling and oh god it felt as if he was burning. Suddenly he collapsed making the sword cut up the place where his heart was, through his shoulder and then he fell down that cliff. Lavi and Lenalee were already running towards them when Allen tried to grab his hand but he failed and just grazed the others fingers and suddenly all of that vision he had earlier came back making Allen go to his knees screaming.

The only one that looked quite pleased when Kanda fell into the depth was Inspector Leverrier.

END chapter 1

Well I don't know why but I deleted this story a while ago 'cause I didn't like it when I read through it... Yep I kind of rewrite it and I hope that this version is better xD

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