So, my friend naminestar will kill me for writing this so I apologize to her in advance. I got this idea while reading stories by Gotta Live It Big Time. If you're a Big Time Rush fan then you've gotta check out her stories. They're really good. Anyway, this is a Kames story, so I wanted to clear that up now.

Picture this for me: the boys of Big Time Rush never actually met each other. Kendall went into the audition to cheer on his friend Jenny but she got turned down and Kendall got signed by himself. He, Jen, and Katie moved to LA and met Camille and all of them, Jo included. So basically it's as if Kendall was at the PalmWoods being the star he is…

Enjoy!

It had been almost a year since I moved to LA. It would be weird to be anywhere but Minnesota for Christmas. Mom got us plane tickets for right after my final concert tour date. Luckily, that show was tonight. I was excited and almost couldn't focus at all on the music. I got off stage just before the encore and Kelly Wainwright was telling me to chill out and actually work. I finished up the last song to a round of screaming girls and went backstage for the VIP access thing. As soon as I saw my Jo my face lit up. I ran over to her, picked her up and kissed her.

"You were great," she told me. Camille, standing next to her, gave me a pat on the back before I turned to my fans. There was a bunch of little girls that I took pictures with and signed autographs for. They were the usual audience. There were some little boys who looked up to me but normally they were ten year old girls. Never anything for Jo to be concerned about. Tonight however was different. I don't mean that Jo should be worried but there were two teenagers here, a couple. Their faces looked oddly familiar but I couldn't place my finger on it.

The guy had his arm protectively wrapped around the girl's waist. I could obviously tell she was a big fan of mine and he seemed worried that she would ditch him for me.

"I'm Masen," she said politely and shyly. "This is my boyfriend Logan." Logan nodded a hello to me, definitely happy that she'd said he was her boyfriend.

"Did you guys like the show?" I asked.

Masen nodded quickly. "You were amazing."

"Thanks," I said.

"You're really cute," Masen commented. Then she turned to Logan. "Don't you think he'd be kind of James' type?" Logan chuckled slightly.

"I do have a girlfriend," I defended as Jo came over to me.

Masen looked all knowing at this point, a big reader of the fan magazines. "You're Jo Taylor, aren't you? Star of New Town High. I love that show. I watch it all the time."

Jo mumbled a thanks. She was always shy to get a compliment at my shows. I loved it though when someone did that. Her eyes would light up underneath the shyness.

"James isn't gay," Logan said finally.

"Are you sure?" Masen asked. "He sure acts like it. He's always so worried about if his hair is just perfect. He freaked out when Amanda told him that there was a piece out of place."

"That sounds like him," agreed Logan.

I just shrugged. "I think it's a good thing if a guy is worried about his looks."

Jo laughed. "Don't tell me you're turning bi on me and I'm going to have to watch out for everyone pretty for competition. I can barely handle the screaming girls."

I kissed her again. "You'll always be the girl for me," I said. I didn't need to tell her that I was actually bi. It was a moot point as of right now.

We talked to Masen and Logan for a little bit longer. I learned that Masen wanted to be an actress and Logan wanted to be a doctor. High paying jobs, the perfect power couple. Don't ask me why but we were talking about airplane food when Katie bounded up to us. "This is my little sister," I told Masen and Logan.

Katie nodded to them and turned to me with a what-the-heck-do-you-think-you're-doing face. "Plane, an hour, HELLO?"

"Right," I said. I said goodbye to Masen and Logan and Jo and I shared a goodbye kiss like we always do. The concert tour was over and we were headed to Minnesota!

"James Diamond!" Mom freaked out at me. "If you want to go to that Christmas party then you have to pick up your room! If you don't, I'm taking away your poster of Nicole what's-her-name."

I defensively put my hands up in front of my poster. "You will never split up me and Nicole." Nicole Prescovia Elikolani Valiente Scherzinger was going to be my wife someday. I just knew it. And then she'd get me famous.

But you're probably wondering about the party. Well, everyone's been talking about some guy coming back to Minnesota for Christmas and that he's throwing this big bash tonight. Logan and Masen had just gotten home yesterday. They went to some concert near LA and stayed there for like two days. Logan was one of my best friends and he was going to the party so it looked like I was too. I wasn't complaining, hot girls in little Christmas outfits. And what my mom didn't know about that party wouldn't hurt her right. I was looking forward to it. I'm pretty sure Jenny was going to be there, and maybe Amanda. Jessica wasn't bad looking either.

So, in order to get what I wanted tonight, I quickly picked up my room. Okay, so half of my room went into my closet. So sue me. Like my mom will care. She just wants to show off the house to her important friends. She's not gonna show them my closet. I hope she wasn't. That was just weird, not to mention invasive. My mom was crazy but not that crazy.

I felt my phone vibrate in my back pocket. Party? It was from Carlos.

Duh! I responded back. Can someone say Santa's Little Helpers?

Carlos didn't respond, I expect, out of confusion. He was so innocent, it was kind of cute. Of course, that sort of made it harder for him. A girl our age doesn't want to be a guy's first.

I took a quick shower and put on my dark blue, ripped, skinny jeans and a button down black shirt. You have to look classy at a Christmas party. I got in my car and drove to the address given in the invites. It was just some random suburbian house. I could hear the music blasting inside. You always wanted to show up fashionably late. I walked in the door and was greeted by some half-pint little girl. I kind of brushed her off and now I kind of wished I hadn't.

I was walking around and mingling when I saw him. He had blonde hair and bushy eyebrows that stuck out on his angelic face. He wore a green, plaid flannel, unbuttoned, with a red V-neck underneath. I wasn't gay or anything but for some odd reason I couldn't stop starring at him. He was incredibly gorgeous, and that's a lot coming from me. He was talking to Masen, Logan's girlfriend, and they acted like they knew each other, or at least seen each other before. The blonde looked in my direction and I was frozen in place by those green, green eyes. I could just get lost forever.

"James!" Masen called my name. I snapped out of my fantasy. Wait! That's not the right word. I was not fantasizing about this magnificent creature. I walked over to him and Masen. I nodded a hello to him and hugged Masen. She was my best friend's girl so she sort of became my friend too.

"Long time no see!" I said.

She giggled. "James this is Kendall Knight. Kendall, this is James Diamond, the one Logan and I mentioned."

"Oh yeah," Kendall said in realization. I don't know what they had mentioned about me to Kendall but he gave me a sweep up and down with his eyes. I wouldn't miss something like that. I'm used to it from girls. But seeing this god of a boy checking me out somehow sent shivers down my spine and I was suddenly nervous. I had to shake myself. I'm straight. "So, you're last name's Diamond?" Kendall asked me. I was too busy being distracted that I didn't even notice Masen walk off.

I nodded once. "It's worth just as much as I am!" I said proudly.

"That it is," Amanda said, brushing by me. She winked and continued walking.

Kendall whistled as she passed. "Man, being tied down stinks. I promised Jo I wouldn't do anything while I was here. But hello? Mistletoe is just so hard to avoid sometimes." He chuckled slightly.

"Jo?" I asked curiously. Was he gay?

He nodded. "Jo Taylor. She's the star of New Town High."

So Jo's a chick. Alright, now there was a question sitting on the tip of my tongue that I just had to ask. "Is it weird when you see her kiss her co-star on TV?"

Kendall eyed me curiously but then he just shrugged. "Of course it is." But he said it like it was no big deal. "I know Jett personally and that's about as much as I can take of him. Jo's the same. She puts up with him because of the whole job thing but she'd never go for him. Though, everyone says he's better looking than me."

That's impossible! I wanted to scream at him. But I held it in.

Amanda passed again. "He's a hottie." And she moved on. I rolled my eyes. She was sexy but she was annoying. Much to my surprise, Kendall almost fell over laughing. Everyone around us looked at him like he was crazy. The little girl I blew past came over to us and grabbed both of us by the wrist. Kendall's laughter ceased and we were both dragged into the empty hallway.

"Geez, Kendall, have a cow why don't you," the little girl scoffed.

"Sorry Katie," Kendall said sweetly. "James, this is my little sister Katie. Katie this is—"

Katie cut him off. "I know who he is. He blew right past me on his way in. I made sure I knew who he was after that." Katie had this look in her eye like she knew I was up to no good. I really wanted to know what was going through that little demonic head of hers. "Just cool off before you and your laugh come back to the party."

Kendall shrugged and led me into one of the bedrooms as Katie walked back to the kitchen. I sat down on the bed. Skinny jeans restrict the blood flow to your legs. You need to sit down every so often. But it's worth it to look this good. "Sorry about that," he said as he closed the door. "But that's Katie for you. She's just trying to be helpful."

I looked around the room we were in. It was sporty and had remnants of hockey stuff everywhere, plus a stick in the corner.

"This was my room when we lived here," Kendall explained. He sat down on the bed next to me, almost close enough that our knees would touch. "Mom kept it in case my singing ever fell through and we had to come back. Gustavo can be harsh and she thought I was going to quit after the second day."

I eyed the stick again. "She didn't think you could handle the roughness? But she let you play hockey?"

Kendall laughed again. His laugh may have been a little loud and obnoxious but somehow I found it slightly attractive. He wasn't afraid to laugh no matter how embarrassing his laugh may be. "Yeah, I probably would be still playing for the Wild if Jenny didn't drag me along to that audition with her."

"You know Jenny?" I asked him. Jenny was a really annoying, accident prone girl who was in half of my classes. "Wait, you played for the Wild? My bud Carlos plays for them."

Kendall nodded. "I remember Carlos. He kept his helmet on even after practice."

"He still does," I said. "It's like his best friend. More so than me and Logan."

"You're buds with Logan?" Kendall asked. "I met him backstage at my last show."

"Masen's a huge fan of yours," I told him.

Kendall smiled slightly but he also looked embarrassed at the same time.

There was a moment of silence before I heard a voice. "Heads up!" Before I knew what was happening, something had hit Kendall in the back of the head, knocking him over and on top of me. His lips were so close to mine. How I wished they'd have gotten closer. Straight! I told myself.

Kendall got up, a little too quickly, and rounded towards the door. "Katie, what did I say about doing that?"

Katie looked smug. "You said not when you're in here with a girl." The smirk she gave next told me I'd never really get along with Katie. "Unless you want me to tell Mom that you're…" She trailed off.

"I have to tell her," Kendall said defensively. "I just can't right now. And besides, I'm still with Jo, so it doesn't really count."

"You're still worried how she's gonna take it?" Katie asked, sweeter this time. "It's better than being on the hockey team and having them find out."

Kendall scoffed. "I wouldn't hear the end of that."

"So, should I call Jo now or after the party?"

"Out!" Kendall said, pointing toward the door. Surprisingly, Katie did as she was told and even locked the door on her way out. Kendall shook his head and blushed slightly. "I'm so sorry about that," he said, not looking at me. "I mean, a little farther and we would have kissed." He chuckled nervously. I knew there was something up. It was like a sixth sense that I had.

"What's the matter?" I asked him.

"I should be honest," he sighed. "I'm actually bi." I looked at him like he's just said he was a penguin. I really didn't know what to think, but penguins were cute, right? "It only didn't matter because, well, I would never cheat on Jo. And actually, Jo doesn't even know."

"I get it," I said. "I don't mean to make you uncomfortable."

Kendall shook his head. "So are you…?" He trailed off, obviously not knowing how to phrase it.

"I'm straight," I said, though I wasn't so confident in my answer anymore. I wanted Kendall so bad that it made my head spin. Kendall looked disappointed. "I mean," I corrected, feeling the need to make him feel better. "I've never really been all that attracted by a guy. But it's not impossible. You know how you say you've found the ONE? Well, who's to say that one's not a guy for me? I just haven't found him, right?"

And Kendall did smile. "I guess you're right." He stood up. "So this is my party so I probably should get back out there. Join me?" He offered me his hand.

"I probably should find Logan," I said. "I told him I'd be here tonight."

"We can look for him together," Kendall said hopefully. I nodded and we walked back out into the waiting party.

So what'd you guys think? Be nice, this is my first Kames story and I'm still not sure where it's headed. Give me so feedback and ideas please. I'd love them both. =3

Review! Love always! Still hyper from the BTR concert!

-BTBD (Scarlet)