10 things I should have done.
1.I should have told you how amazing you looked.
Your bold blue eyes, your broad strong burdened shoulders, your amazing angel-carved face and your oh-so-smug charming smile.
2.I should have helped your more often.
Halved your burdens, heard your worries, picked you up and carried you when you were broken.
3.I should have done more for myself.
Asked less questions, knew more answers, learnt more from my mistakes, depended less on your constant presence.
4.I should have told you when you were wrong.
Corrected your mistakes, fixed your flaws, mended your cracks, healed your scars.
5.I should have thought less about myself and more about you.
Said 'I' less often, asked you if you were okay, ran towards the solution- not away from the problem.
6.I should have worried less about the things I couldn't change.
What you thought of me, what others thought of me, what I felt, what I thought you felt.
7.I should have lived for today not tomorrow.
Burned fewer brigdes- built more instead, shouted less, cared more, jumped more leaps of faith, enjoyed every moment of the time I spent with you.
8.I should have been honest with you more.
Told fewer lies, shared more secrets, shut less doors and always should have told you the truth- had more faith that you'd still feel the same even though you knew everything.
9.I should have been there when you needed me.
Backed you up, supported your reasons, stood by your side, trusted you completely, held your hand.
10.I should have told you how I felt.
That I thought you were amazing, that you embodied everything that I wanted, that we were meant to be, that I missed you when you weren't there. That I loved you, with every beat of my heart, with every fibre of my being, with every emotion I had locked up inside of me.
You should have heard that I loved you too.