Parker

I miss him I really do I miss my little brother. I miss Micheal the only one in the world who understood me and he is gone and never coming back. I shouldn't feel sad I should stop pitying myself because it is my fault he is dead in the first place. I was suppose to be his big sister I should have made sure he was on the side walk but I didn't. That is why he is gone because of my own stupidity and I hate myself for it. I hate that psychic for bringing it up for making me cry, allowing me to show pain. I hate Nate for bringing me there when I didn't want to be there in the first place. I hate Tara for being here trying to take Sophie's place when she clearly doesn't belong here. I hate everyone on the team for making me feel again for breaking down my walls thinking everything was OK that I could be happy again that I could trust again but that was my mistake. Most of all I hate Sophie for leaving me here abandoning me like everyone else in my life has but I thought this time it would be different. It's not though instead of Sophie being here with me while I cry on her lap I am all alone. I am used to being alone. I have been on my own since I was nine years old but I can't help but feel how I feel. To feel betrayed useless hurt and alone. I just want to be a child again.

I want to go back to when I was four years old to when my mom my real mom was happy. She wasn't on drugs then daddy and her didn't fight a lot then and Micheal was still alive. I was happy I didn't have to worry about any problems I didn't have to think about life I could stare out into space and just live in my own world and be happy. That is all I wanted to do, make my own world so I can feel no more hurt to run away from reality but I can't cause that is all I ever do at least this time I would try, try to live without it is just a matter of starting over.

I tried to tell them there was no way he could know all that stuff that I hadn't told anyone no one, ever. He was suppose to be a fake and he was I just gave him all the answers. I want to kill him Eliot would have I even asked but Nate said no so now I have no choice but to go to sleep and prepare for the next con at least then the pain will go away at least for a while.

Nate

-Ring-Ring

"Damn it Sophie answer the phone!"

"Hello Nate what is it?"Sophie says

"How did you know it was me?"

"Caller ID now what is so important that you have to call me 17 times in less than an hour." she was annoyed now.

"It is Parker she has kinda broken down."

"What the hell did you do!"

"I didn't do anything the psychic did."

"What do you want me to do about it I am over 3,000 miles away."

"Yeah that is the problem she has shut herself away from us and we need your help so can you just come back to talk to her or something I think she really needs you right now."

"Don't you mean you need me."

"So are you coming?" ( I don't need her she needs me.)

"Sure just tell her to meet me at the cafe at 3:00."

"Sure."

"Bye"she said

"Bye"( I guess)