Blacknight here. Taking a break from the Crystal Knights story to relate a partially true story to you. Enjoy.
Disclamer: Once and for all I don't own Digimon.
Pain and a C.D.
Matt looked up at the roof of his room. 'why, why did I ever begin to think that anything would ever become of us.' He rolled on his side, sighing. His room was a mess. Clothes strewn anywhere they could hang, desk was covered with junk and his fan was slowly turning, wobbling of it's axis. He closed his eyes, trying not to think of her. Her. She was all the source of his pain. The pain that tormented his heart like a thousand stabbing knives. The blood that flowed from it flowed for one person. Her. Yet it was useless. 'Lonely, that's all I'll ever become' Matt thought. He dozed off.
~Flashback~
Sitting on the fifth row of the bus Matt looked across to the girl opposite to him. Mimi, she was talking with another girl on the bus. He sat there chewing his gum. 'Why hadn't I noticed it before?' He thought to himself. 'So beautiful.' Matt began to space out, lulled out of reality by her beauty, but he was quickly snapped back to reality by a voice. "Matt, Matt…Matt!" He sat up. "Yeah, what?" It was his friend Izzy sitting in the seat in front of him. "It's our stop." He said. Izzy stood up, followed by Matt. "Right.. I knew that!" Matt replied quickly. "Moron…" Izzy said under his breath. Matt took one last glance at her as he was leaving the bus.
Later that night...
"No, I'm not going to tell you." Matt spoke into the phone. His CD player in his room was blaring MxPx and he was lying on his bed. "Come on, tell me. Please!!" Sora said from the other side of the phone. Matt sighed and rolled on his side. "She rides my bus" Matt said. Sora sat up at her house. She too was listing to music, No Doubt to be exact. "Ooh, ooh um either Kari or Mimi?" "It's one of them." There was a pause on the line. "Mimi?" Another pause. "Yeah." Matt said, lethargically. "Ooh, I knew it! I knew it. So you gonna ask her out." Matt stood up and began to pace in his room. "I-I don't know. You see I'm going to be gone all summer, and so will she, so there isn't a point to ask her." Sora was silent. "Well at least tell her." Matt sighed again. "I am. I made her a CD too." "Tell her at the dance." Matt sat up. He forgot about the dance tomorrow during school. "I was going to tell her at the party." Sora sat up on this. "No! Tell her before to see how she reacts." Matt rolled his eyes. "You mean for you to see how she reacts." Sora played with her hair. "Maybe~" Matt glanced at his room clock. "Whatever I got to get some shut eye. Been running on four hours of sleep, need to get some more." Sora looked at hers. "Yeah me too. See you tomorrow." "Ditto" Matt hung up. 'So many choices, so little time.' He let his fingers part his hair as he tried to push the pain out of his heart and mind. He fell back in bed and slept. 'Tomorrow… I'll figure it out then.' He fell asleep.
Before the Dance.
"Matt, what's with the CD?" Izzy asked him. Matt looked at his hand. He was holding the CD in his hand, hovering over his pocket. He quickly dropped the CD in it. "Oh nothing." He replied. "Sure," Izzy said, "So you going to be playing poker with me during the boring dance?" He emphasized the word boring. Izzy hated dances. Matt looked at the group of people dancing. "I think I'll skip." Izzy began walking away. "Whatever." Matt turned and looked at the group of people beginning to dance. 'Well might as well have some fun.'
Matt found Sora, well actually Sora found Matt, but Kari pointed Matt out for Sora but it doesn't matter, they just found each other. "Whenyougoingtotellher?whenyougoingtotellher?hunhhunhhunh?" Matt looked at Sora. "Take a breath girl." Sora did as she was told. "Well?" She looked impatient. "Soon" Matt replied and walked away. He knew that he could tell her now but the time didn't feel right. The music was too fast, and loud. It had to be the perfect time.
~Hour Later~
Matt was exhausted and so was everyone around him. Including Mimi. As he went to get a drink the song City of Angles began to play. Sora ran up to Matt. "Tell her now." Matt sighed, said a prayer, and walked toward Mimi. "Mimi, can I have this dance." She looked at him and smiled. "Maybe" She replied. He looked at her. ~And I'd give up forever to touch you~ "What does that mean?" Matt said as he began to dance with her. ~You're the closest to heaven, that I'll ever be~ "Whatever you want it to mean" ~All I could taste is this moment~ Matt looked at her. They danced. ~Sooner or later it's over, I just don't want to miss you tonight~ Matt looked at her. "I have to tell you something." ~And I don't want the world to see me~ She looked up at him. "Yes?" ~Cause I don't think that they'd understand~ Matt sighed. ~When everything's made to be broken~"I don't know if you've heard but I like you, and I just wanted you to know." ~I just want you to know who I am~ She stared at him, he continued. " I'd ask you on a date but, I'm not going to be here for the summer, and I don't think that it would be right for you." ~And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming~ "I agree" ~Or the moment of truth in your life~ The continued to dance in silence. ~And I don't want the world to see me, cause I don't think that they'd understand, When everything is made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am~ As the dance ended Matt reached into his pocket, and produced a CD. "This is for you, to remind you of me over the summer." She looked at him, and nodded. Then Kari's voice rang out over the crowd. "Mimi we have to go to get the party ready in time!" Mimi started to walk away but looked back at Matt for a moment. Sora appeared out of the crowd. "Well how'd it go?" She asked. "Good I guess." They began to walk out of the dance as the last song was being played. "So, you going?" Sora asked. "To the party? Matt looked back at her. "I think so." 'I hope so'
The Party
Matt skidded into Mimi's drive way on his bike leaving a large black mark. Music was coming from inside already. He saw Kari come out the front door. "Hey, party's started get in there boy." She said to Matt. "Yeah whatever commander Kari" Matt replied walking inside the house. 'Here goes nothing' Matt thought. 'Actually nothing underway'
~Half hour later~
"Go Matt! Go Tai!" The group of teens yelled at the two arm wrestlers. Matt was staring sternly into Tai's eyes, and Tai was doing the same. Then slowly, methodically Tai's arm slowly began to lower to the table. He grunted under Matt's strength and fought back to the upright position only to be knocked back down. Cheers erupted. "You're getting better." Tai said. "Or you're getting worse." Matt said sarcastically. They stood up. "Well at least I can still toss you in the pool." Tai said quickly. He tackled Matt, knocking him into the pool. "You loser!" Matt yelled back at him. Everyone laughed as the girls ran to get changed the guys jumped in the pool. After an hour of shoving each other in the pool and throwing water balloons at each other, it was getting late and the party bunch began to disperse and go home. The remaining teens dried off and went inside to watch a movie. "Make sure you're dry before sitting on the sofa." Mimi made sure to say. No one checked. After she slid in the DVD she went to sit on her usual recliner but she found someone on it. "Excuse me. This is my seat." She said. "Not any more." Matt replied smiling. "Well then I'll just sit on you!" And she did. 'Woah' Matt thought.
Around 10:00
The movie was ending and Matt looked around. Most of the partygoers were asleep including Mimi who was snuggled up in his chest. He felt the warmth from her body on his chest. 'So peaceful' Matt thought, 'almost like an angle.' He brushed her brunet hair off her face and behind her ear. He didn't want to disrupt her sleep, for if she was an angle, she was his for now. Kari was the only other one awake. 'Oh shit! I forgot to call my dad.' Matt thought. He motioned toward the phone with his free hand as Kari stood up. She got the phone and was going to give to Matt but he motioned for her to dial. She looked puzzled at first and then dialed his phone number. "Um, Mr.Ishida? Yeah Matt is spending the night over here. Oh yeah, at Mimi's. Oh it's ok, the guys are sleeping in one room and the girls in another. Ok Goodbye." She rolled her eyes. 'parents' she mouthed. Matt said thank you silently to her and began to fall asleep. 'Well it's 10:00 and all is well, all is defiantly well'
~Flashback end~
Matt sighted as he rolled over. 'I guess it's not for me' he thought. A single tear slid from his ice blue eyes and fell off his cheek to his pillow. He shut his eyes tight and fell back to sleep, trying to escape the pain.
Across a Telephone conversation
"So you listen to that CD that Matt made for you?" Sora asked Mimi. "No, it's probably just another cheesy CD that he makes." She replied. Sora looked at a CD that he had once given her. Sora-Chan was written on the top of it. "Why don't I leave you so you can listed to it, ok?" Mimi moved toward the CD player, slightly confused. "Ok?" Mimi hung up. Skipping through the CD to her favorite number. 3. Once she heard the first tune of the song she sat down and begun to think. As she did Truly Madly Deeply played out on her CD player. 'Matt I thought you were joking, you were always taking bets and being sarcastic, I had no idea.' She reached for the phone, but stopped. After what had happened he must be devastated that she had not called him the entire next day. She sat on her bed and fell in to deep thought. 'Poor Matt'
This sad tale is a true one. If you are who Mimi is in real life, you'll always have room in my heart, for you already left a hole in it.