I am Isabella Swan and I am 18 years old. I live in Forks.
Today is the begging of my new life. A life away from Forks, from this entire stupid people who liked to humiliate me.
Today is my graduation day. Finally I would go to the NYU. I have a fool scholarship.
Today all will come to an end and the most important think? I will never see Edward Cullen again. This stupid kid who always made me cry about my body because I have some more weight from normal. Which also I had a major crush on him four years now.
So here I am at my bedroom getting ready for my last day at Forks. My friend Angela, the only friend I have, is going to study at the same university with me. She picked my outfit. A black pear of jeans with a red blouse and black flats. I let my hair fall around my shoulders and I put lip gloss at my lips.
I finished and went downstairs to the living room. Charlie, my dad, was waiting for me there.
When I stepped at the last stair, I could hear the TV open.
I took a deep breath and I spoke to him.
"Hey, dad, I m ready. We can go."
He appeared at the doorway with a huge smile on his face.
"Oh Bella, I am so happy for you. You grown up so fast. You look beautiful. Come here to give you a hug" he said and hugged me.
"Thanks dad. Please can we go now? I want to finish with all of them and not see them again in my life. The only thing that makes me sad is that you will be miles away from me." I said and pulled away from him.
He was the only person who was there for me the hole time. He knew everything even my crush for Edward. He could hug me the nights that I had nightmares with them making fun on me and waking up screaming.
He was my hero, my friend, home and family.
"Don't worry Bella, I can come and visit you at holidays. Everything is going to be ok. Let's go. I want all these bad things end today and to begin a new life honey." He said and took my hand to lead me out of the house.
We get into the cruiser and the trip for the Forks High began. Suddenly I was feeling very upset and sad. This day was the last day of my miserable life here in Forks and also the day of my beautiful new life, but also the last day to see Edward. The last day I could see his green beautiful eyes, his bronze hair, hear his velvet calm voice and also the last day of his horrible treatment to me. Yes, that is what I have to think. I was not going to miss him, no, definitely, no. But I was. He was my first love. My first tear. My first dream.
I, slowly, lift my eyes to see that we were at the parking lot of high school. I was nervous. I searched the lot to find Angela, while I was getting out of the car.
I close the door and again I searched for Angela. Green eyes locked with brown and my breath caught at my throat. I left my eyes to wonder down to see that he was wearing the graduation gown. Still in his gown, he was looking perfect. I felt week, I felt I was going to pass out, but when our eyes made contact again, the disgust on his face made me mad. Edward would be always Edward. I turned my head quickly and found Angela staring at me with sad face. She knew my crush but she also could see his terrible behavior. She came to me and hugged me.
"Come on Bella, this is our last day here. Today our life is going to begin and I can see the future, believe me, is going to be wonderful. We will leave at the same room and we can do everything we want and no one will know us. Nether do we! It's going to be great!! Hello Mr. Swan" she said and kissed me at the cheek.
Ah my dearest friend Angela always could make my day. Her brown big eyes were always showing me her love for me. She is so beautiful. Her long dark hair was around her shoulders and her smile was reaching her eyes. I believed her. This was our plan. To believe that the future will be wonderful for both of us. She had problems here like I had but not for her body but for her mind. She is the most intelligent person I ever met, so "a geek" like the others was always saying.
"Yes, it's going to be wonderful and perfect for us there. I am going to be a best seller author and you are going to be the best lawyer ever. Come on, let's get this over and celebrate our new life" I told and turned on my heels to leave.
"Hello Angela" Charlie said and followed us.
But I knew he saw me and I knew he wouldn't let me go before he humiliate me.
I heard his laugh and turned around to see him. He was there at the same position, by his car, holding Jessica Stanley in his arms and around them were his friends and his siblings, pointing at me and laughing.
"Hey waste of space, this is the last time that I have to see the disgusting face of yours and your geek friend" he said giggling.
Charlie grabbed my forearm in order to not go there and straggle him. His was still laughing hard but I didn't care. Tell everything you want bustard. One day you will pay for all of these, I said to my self.
I turned and left the parking lot with my best friend and my father. That was all that matters to me. We made it to the gym and I left Charlie to sit. I went with Angela to take our positions, me with the S and Angela with the W.
I sat there and waited for my name to be called. I saw Edward's hair from the corner of my eye going to take his place at the C's.
Mr. Banner stood up and went straight at the microphone.
"Today is a big day for all of you, he said pointing us. Your life is going to begin with joy, happiness and thirst for hard work to be what you were dreaming about. I introduce you the class of 2004. Congratulations to all of you." He said and the audience applause for us. He started to say our names and when he said mine, I walked up there relieved.
I could see my dad crying from happiness and pride for me. This was the end. This was the begging. I felt that what happened to me all these years didn't matter anymore. I was leaving from this hell and I was starting my new life. The only think that could bring me back here was Charlie and nothing else.
I went toward to my dad to hug him. He had his arms open for me and waited. His eyes were red from the tears and his smile wasn't touching his eyes. I knew it would be difficult for him. I could see in his eyes that he was sad but also happy for me. That my torture here will end.
I reached him and hugged him with all I have. Tomorrow he would be alone again. Without me in his house. Without him in my new life. But I wasn't going to give up or to come back here ever again.
"Congratulations Bella. I am very proud of you. You've done well. I knew you could make it. You will be a great author. I love you", he said and left a kiss at my cheek.
"Thank you dad. I love you to so much." I said and felt a single tear run to my cheek.
"Don't Bella. This is what you were waiting for. The end. No cries, no worries, no pain but only happiness. Don't cry, please. Angela is coming and I have to go and say hello to Dr. Cullen and congratulate him for his kids. Sorry but you know he is a good man and not like his son." He said.
I straightened my back and pulled back slightly.
"Ok, I know you have to do this. Go I will wait at the cruiser for you. Don't be late. We have a reservation waiting us at Bella Italia." I said and left from the gym.
I didn't want to see Edward's face again. So I was now walking to the hallway of my old school. I froze at my place when I saw the door of the biology class. I pushed open the door and I reached for my table. The table I was sharing with Edward for four years. The first day came back to my mind. Playing the scene in my head I could see Edward's eyes looking at me with curiosity. I had moved there then and no one knew me. The only empty seat was next to Edward and Mr. Banner led me there. I run my fingertips to the table and a single tear run from my cheek to the hallow of my neck. This was the first time I saw him and immediately I felt in love with him.
I sat on his chair and let my eyes wander outside the window. The tears falling from my eyes into the table, to his side. Suddenly I felt I wasn't alone anymore in here. Someone was standing there, staring at me. I could feel the eyes making a hole to my back.
I wiped away the tears and turned around to see who was with me. My eyes widened to the view of Edward standing at the door and staring at me angry. Angry? Why? What did I do wrong? Nothing. I was sitting here all alone looking outside.
"What the fuck are you doing at my seat? Get the hell out of there" he yelled.
The blood raze up to my head. I was very angry that moment.
"What do you want fucking bustard? Hah? To scare me? To make me cry? That's what you want? Guess what? I am not going to give you this pleasure. So get the hell out of my way to pass because I don't want to knock you out." I yelled back to him.
His jaw dropped to the floor while I was making my way to him. He looked surprised and that was what I wanted to see. I walked out of the class, not looking back. I left him there speechless for the first time. And believe me I liked that so much. I was proud with my self. That was the way I wanted him to remember me, if he ever will.
I got out the same time with Charlie, who still had red eyes. I was wondering why. I opened the door of the cruiser, sat at the passenger sit and closed the door.
"Dad, are you ok? Is something wrong?" I asked him worried.
"Oh it's nothing Bella. I am going to miss you that's all." He said.
I leaned forward and hugged him again. I was going to miss him too.
"Ok no more tears. Let's go to the restaurant. Angela and her parents will wait for us" I said and sat back at my seat. I looked out for one last time to see my personal hell, lose from my glance. This is my start.
I looked outside the trees passing by, while I was thinking what it would be like at the university. The people, the place, the teachers, the dorm, my room, everything.
I didn't realize that we were already at the restaurant, when Charlie said me that we were there. I opened the door and got out of the car. The air made me turn back to reality. I closed the door and I walked to Charlie. He placed his hand to the small of my back and led me in. I looked around to find our table but the only thing I could see in front of me was the Cullen family. All of them. Oh God not again. The hostess came to us to ask our name and she led the way to our table. Our table of course was next to their table.
"Bella do you want to leave? We can go somewhere else. I can call Angela's father and tell him to turn back." Charlie whispered to me.
"No dad it's fine. They are with their parents. I don't think they will do something stupid in front of them." I whispered back and took the seat at the head of the table so Edward could be opposite to me.
He looked up and our eyes met. He looked again surprised and I though that I liked that look to him. It was funny. The most popular student at my school, who only knew to humiliate me, he was staring at me speechless and surprised.
His siblings must understood that something was wrong with him and the way he was looking my way, that they all turned around to see what was happening.
A huge smile spread across my face, when they all turned and their jaws dropped to the floor.
Then Dr. Cullen turned too to see what the problem was and our eyes met. His eyes were green, a deep green like Edward's. A smile spread across his face when he saw me with my father. He stood up and walked to us.
"Miss Swan nice to meet you. Please let me introduce my self. I am Carlisle Cullen. I think you know all my children. It is nice to finally meet Charlie's daughter. He is so proud of you. Congratulations", he said and took my hand and kissed it.
I blushed and gave him a smile.
"Nice to meet you too Dr. Cullen. My dad always tells me how lucky we are we have you here in Forks. Thank you and congratulations for your kids." I said to him and he let my hand.
"Thank you Miss. How nice of you, when my children were not so good to you", he said and look all of them. My jaw dropped at the floor. He knew? He knew what they made me throw all of these years?
"Ahm… I… don't… they… good….to me…" I was fighting to find the rights words to not come in difficult place.
"It's ok dear. I know they were not good to you those years. I wanted to ask to accept my apology for them"
"Please sir, no, there is nothing to forgive. We are kids, please. I don't want you to feel bad. We are good. Your kids are very kind and generous. Many times helped me with stuff. Nothing is wrong please." I was fighting and lying at their father because I didn't want to think bad about his kids.
"How gentle of you miss but I know you are lying. Especially about Edward who was the worst with you. Please accept the apology."
"No sir there is nothing. Please. Edward is a very kind person and a gentleman. He never trite me bad. He was always kind with me." I said and turned my head to his way to make him nod to his dad that I was right. I wanted to save him from all this. That wouldn't suppose to be my aim.
He nodded and I turned back to look his father.
"See, I told you. We are ok." I said.
"Isabella I am impressed. I ask for your forgiveness. I know my kids and I know that your dad never lies."
I looked my dad with the "tell me how you want to die" look. He smiled at me nervously.
Then Angela and her parents appeared in front of us like heaven. Angela was staring at me terrified. I smiled her and turned again to look Dr. Cullen.
"Dr. Cullen what a pleasant surprise. How are you?" Mr. Weber said.
I stood up I said my apology and grabbed Angela by the hand. I walked us outside.
"Bella, what the hell is going on in there?" she said the time we were completely out of view.
"Oh Angela, Dr. Cullen came to us to say his congratulations to me and you know that I am polite right? I told him mine for his kids."
"Ok this is good not bad. But you look more pail than ever. THIS is not good. What happened?"
"He told me that it was nice for me but he knew everything. He knows everything. Who they trite to us. He asked my forgiveness." I said.
"Jesus Bella, that was… Oh my God….. And in front of them… what did you do?" she said amused.
"I said that they were nice to me. What choice I had? He said that Edward was the worst and that he would like my forgiveness. Again I tried to tell him that Edward was a gentleman with me, but he didn't believe me. And then you showed up and thanks for that because you saved me." I said and took a deep breath.
"Oh my God. That's awesome. They are in trouble." She said giggling.
Then the door of the restaurant opened and Edward stood outside. He walked to us and stopped 3 feet away. This is not good, I though.
"Bella can I talk to you alone, please?" he said and looked Angela.
"Bella I don't think this is a good idea" she said and I could see the fear in her eyes.
"It's ok Angela. Please tell my father I will be back in a second." I said to her and let her know from my look that was nothing going to happen.
She walked away and Edward came closer.
"Walk with me, please." He said and I followed him.
I didn't know what he could possibly want but I gave him the chance to talk to me.
When we reached the edge of the forest, he turned and looked me.
"I don't and don't want to know why you did this there, but I think I awe you a thanks for saving me from trouble. It was kind of you. Thanks" he said and looked down at his feet.
Oh my god, was there anyone to hear what he just said to me?
Of course not. He said thanks to me? This was not real.
I was staring him shocked. I had to tell him something. Speak Bella, be polite like always.
"Your welcome, but I didn't do it for you but for me. I was feeling so bad that your father knew what you made me go throw these years. I didn't want him to think for all of you like that. So you don't have to thank me. Please now let me go so I can celebrate that this hell is going to be a past. I wish you the best and hope that some day you will regret all of this humiliation you made me throw. Have a nice day and a happy life" I said and turned to walk away from him.
But he grabbed my forearm and turned me again to face him.
"Look, for once I tried to be good to you, but I can see that everything I said to you all these years were true. You are a waste of space and you are disgusting. I thought you were a nice person after all, but I changed my mind…."
I could hear his voice somewhere in my head and I could feel his death grip at my arm, but the pain in my heart was too much from his words and my vision was blur for the tears that pooling in my eyes. No, I couldn't cry in front of him, I wouldn't give him the satisfaction to see me like that again.
I straightened my back and I grabbed his arm. The arm was holding mine. He had stopped speaking and he was looking at me angry.
"Let me go now, or I will scream. You know something Cullen? I had enough of you all these years. I should tolerate your stupid ness for every day for four years. Now I don't have to do this anymore. It was my entire fault. I moved here to help my dad and the first time I saw you I fell in love with you. What a waste of time. I thought that I love you more than my own life but no. I hate you more than anything in this planet. You don't deserve my love or nor no one else. You are a fucking bustard and I was too stupid to believe all this time that you, the most arrogant creature at this planet, will lay eyes on me. But guess what Cullen? I m much better than you. Yes I am. What if I have some weight more? That doesn't make me less good. So take your hands off me and get the hell out of my way. Like I told you I want to celebrate my new life." I said and I felt the tears sliding down from my eyes like a river.
What did I tell him right now? That I loved him? That all these years I was in love with him, and now what I hate him? Dear God what I had put my self in? I had to leave now. I didn't want to hear anything from him. I hated him.
I lifted my eyes to look him. He was looking like lost. His eyes were focused behind me in the woods but in nothing specific. He was still holding my arm tight. I tried to understand why he was looking like this, but I couldn't. It was like that someone had punched him in the stomach.
I pulled my arm and he didn't move. He was still in the same position. Leave Bella, there is nothing here anymore, I said to my self. I looked him for one last time and walked away. I didn't want to look behind. This was my past. I couldn't feel anything at this moment.
I reached the door of the restaurant and stormed inside. The noise made the Cullens, the Webers and my father to look at my direction. I walked all the way to my table and sat at my chair. All of them were looking at me worried. They knew something wrong happened out there but they didn't ask me. From outside I could hear a car leaving the parking with force and I knew exactly who was. I dropped my head in my hands not wanting to look at his family.
"Bella, maybe we should go." My father whispered.
"No, dad please I want to stay." I whispered back to him.
"So let's celebrate our new life." Angela said and razed her glass. We did all the same and drunk to our new life. After half an hour the Cullens left the restaurant. I looked at them for a last time. They all were beautiful. Very beautiful like models. Even the parents.
I was jealous. I wanted to be beautiful like everyone else. I wanted to be thin with a nice body. I could do that I thought.
After all these the night went well. We laughed, we ate and drunk too much. It was a good night.
Angela and I arranged the last details about our trip. We were going to drive to Port Angeles and fly to New York. Our stuff that we would load at my car, we would send them with a transfer from Port Angeles.
At midnight we called it night and we left the restaurant.
I climbed at the cruiser, exhausted. Charlie looked at me and then turned to the road.
"Bella what happened with Cullen's boy? Please tell me. I was so worried for you."
"Dad nothing happened. Actually something happened. He said thanks for saving him from trouble, but dad then I …." I trailed off.
"You what Bella? Please tell me."
"I told him how I was feeling dad. I told him I loved him all these years but now the only thing that remained its hate."
"Really Bella? You have so courage, babe, I have to admit it. Good for you my girl. Now you can continue with your life. What did he tell you?"
"Nothing dad. He said nothing. Of course I wasn't expecting to say anything or to feel anything about me. You know that you can't force someone to love you. And I am not like him and you know it." I said and looked down.
"No Bella you can't say that. You are the most amazing person I know and the most beautiful girl. Your soul is pure like heaven. Please don't underestimate your self, babe."
"Thank you dad, I think I believe the same with you now. I am must better than him. His is nothing. I am something." I said prude with my self. We made it to the house, I said him goodnight and went upstairs to my room.
When I closed the door, I went by my window to look the moon. There was a new moon high at the sky. A new moon, a new begging. I closed my eyes and I made a wish. I opened them and looked at the driveway. Down the road a few feet from my home was a silver car stopped. I couldn't see if I knew it or the driver. It was so dark and the only light was the perfect moon. I turned away and lied to my bed. My suitcases were at the foot of my bed and my boxes were downstairs at the living room.
It was my last night here. I put my hands under the pillow and closed my eyes. This was it I said and the sleep came to me……
I woke up from a noise. I glanced at the alarm to see that it was time to get up. I shower and went downstairs to get some breakfast.
Charlie was loading my stuff and waited for Angela to load hers to.
I took a pop tart from the counter and headed outside to wait for Angela.
"Hey, sleeping beauty, you wake up. How are you this morning?" Charlie asked me while he loaded a box at the trunk.
"I m fine dad. Actually I slept very well for first time. I didn't have nightmares." I said him with a huge smile in my face.
"I can tell sweetheart, you were so quite. The only thing I heard was a car passing sometime." He said.
Then Angela came and we started loading her stuff.
We all said our goodbyes and hugged its other.
"Please call me when you land. And when you arrive at Port Angeles. I love you Bella. Please be careful. Angela take care of her. Goodbye my little baby." Charlie said and leaned inside the car to kiss me.
"Yes dad don't worry. I love you to. I call you, I promise. Take care of yourself and before you know it you will come and visit me with Angela's parents." I said and kissed him back.
"Be careful girls and I wish you the best. Angela I love you sweetheart and I am going to miss you. Bye" Mrs. Weber said and kissed her daughter.
I started the car and we began our trip. Before I knew it we were away of Forks, with the music loud in the car and singing along with the songs. This is it. My beginning, my new wonderful life with my best friend beside me.
I turned and looked Angela who was looking me with a huge smile.
Yes, this was definitely going to be wonderful……..