A quick word before reading - I HOPE THIS DOES NOT HAPPEN IN LOST! Ok? This is my philosophy , if I write it, it won't happen! Just to let you know... it's very weepy - tissues at the ready...
WARNING - Implied character death (I'm sorry guys)
Disclaimer: I don't own Lost (otherwise S3 would not be as it is)
For What It's Worth
" I love you." Those three words that can change everything. The three words that I vowed would never pass my lips again. I never thought they would.
They say that being drunk makes you tell the truth. I guess that captivity does the same, but without the hangover. It was only when I was locked in that cage, cruel bars separating me from the rest of the world that I knew. I realised that the world wasn't going to wait around for me to make my decision. Time wasn't going to stand still while I finally plucked up the courage to stop hiding behind my mask. It felt as if we were just actors in a play, following the parts that were written for us. I was the tragic heroine, and this play was in its final act.
So I said it. Finally. But even as I said it, I knew it sounded wrong. Bouncing off of the glass barrier between us, it sounded like the words of a desperate woman. A fake. And by god, I knew I was desperate, but not fake. I was desperate not to leave you regretting the words I'd left unsaid, not to let one more love pass me by. I needed you to know that there was still something left fighting for.
But the moment I said it, I finally realised. Even as the glass wall stood in front of us then, there would always be something between us, stopping us. I know it's my fault. I'm so sorry.
At least I tried. As I wait here, alone in my cage, separate from the rest of the world, I can comfort myself with the fact that I tried. And maybe, as I wait here watching the stars fade to black, I can tell myself that at least some part of you knew that I was telling the truth.
I don't know if you are alive or dead now. I don't know where you are, or if I'll ever see you again. I don't know about the battle, but we definitely lost the war.
And I'm sorry. Sorry for waiting so long. Sorry for ruining any chance we had.
For what it's worth…
I'm sorry. For everything.
Phew - glad thats over!!!! I issue an apology to all my J/K loving readers - I'm Sorry :(
Please review - on my last fanfic, I got 20 reviews for chapter 1, 22 for chapter 2, and 5 for the third!
Sorry - but I will be writing more fluffy fics soon!(Just HAD to get this out of my system!
R+R! SkinnyJeans xxx