dearest diary,

I breathed in...his familiar scent filled the air, I didn't know where he was but his cologne left a sweet aroma in the air which hung there as if it were frozen. It killed me he was gone, he left me with his castle. What am i to do without his guidance. He was intoxicating in every way possible, my true feelings never known to him whatsoever.

I missed the sidelong glances he would give me they seemed almost...affectionate did he share the feelings I carried in my heart also? Probably not he really couldn't love or feel from what i've heard. Maybe deep down he could feel... maybe he couldn't speak up for his feelings...

the closest we had ever gotten was when one day I was cleaning his office for the first time since i started working in this place... and I had been dusting when he walked in, usually he would yell for you to get out and would call you lazy and slow... he had been standing there for ten minutes watching me meticulously dust the entire room... he had made me jump when his index finger ran across the desk I was dusting.

I had whispered "Master. Sorry for not being finished in here I just wanted to make sure it..."

he had shushed he "don't worry this is the cleanest this room has ever been... you're not a vampire are you?"

"No I... UMM I'm a human but..."

"I'm not going to kill you... you're not lazy like the others."

"Have a nice evening master."

"Thanks."

he never thanked anybody... my heart had rushed when he didn't yell at me...

actually I can recall another event, it was an evening when he had guests. I was prepping in the kitchen when he had entered.

"Yes master what do you need?" I had asked.

"I need alot of things Olivia, particularly dinner. My guests are getting irritable, as am I." he said

"sorry master it has been a particularly difficult day for me." My exhaustion was beginning to creep up on me and I could feel it.

"Eh i've seen you worse for ware." he leaned on the doorpost almost patiently. i had finished all of their dinner preparations myself and walked behins him and set their meal diligently on the table when I heard the all too familiar voice of marishka calling me.

"Olivia... I need your assistance my dear."

"just a moment."

i had walked to marishkas room annoyed and exhausted and knocked.

"Olivia, could you make me something?"

"Of course thats what I'm here for."

"I need you to make me a dress... in two days time..."

"It can be done..."

I walked back to the kitchen when I heard master call me into the dining room.

"yes master."

"excellent dinner. you can have a break now." he grabbed my hand and kissed my knuckles.

"Thank you master." I curtseyed and walked away.

that all seemed as it were yesterday well goodbye for now dearest diary.

SO WHAT DID YA THINK... ALL OPINIONS WELCOME.