Title: Dichotomy
Author: Henrietta
Summary: Pay no attention to the girl behind the curtain.
Notes: Just a short introspective bit that didn't quite fit into the other fic I'm working on.
Disclaimer: I don't own 7th Heaven and have no desire to make any money off this.

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I am the picture of marital bliss.

I don't love my husband.

I am a student of the church.

I have lost my faith.

I am perky and happy.

I am dying inside.

I am Lucy, the happy wife, the student. I am the girl who has everything she wants. I am the preacher's kid, the good one, the one who feels everything deeply. I am everything my mother wished for me. I am the role model. I can fix your problems.

I am the girl behind the curtain. I am the one you aren't supposed to see. I am the wife who loves the idea of her husband, but not the man himself. I am the kid, not the preacher, the dumb one, the one who can't feel anything at all. I am everything I never wanted to be. I am the model for the role you shouldn't choose. I fix nothing, teach nothing, learn nothing.

Pay no attention to the girl behind the curtain. No one else does.