Note: These are a series of unrelated dabbles. Flash points in a life, as if someone took a highlighter and made one pivotal moment stand out. They represent important moments in someone's life. Some have unanswered questions. That's done on purpose. I want the reader to be able to fill in the blanks with whatever their heart desires. Instead of me saying what is and what isn't. Let your imagination take control.Double Note: These were made for a fan fiction challenge on The Daley Board. Which amazingly I won. Which is amazing, because the other entries were just as good! Anyways thought I'd share here too.
Never Be The Same
I'll never be the same I'm caught inside the memories of promises of yesterdays
and I belong to youI just can't walk away 'cause after loving youI can never be the same
Her heart pounded in her ears as the sound of that old clock chiming vibrated through her body. Theirs eyes all stared glued to it as if looking into the mouth of hell and in a way they were.
The deathly chime kept ringing, taunting them mercilessly. Sounding through the room, bouncing off the space between them, stabbing into their souls. The old grandfather clock's hands united together to announce midnight. The sight of those intricate brass hands Haley could have sworn were strangling her heart where she stood, though she never actually saw them leave the confines of that old clock.
Haley's eyes fell to Sam, the sight of tears already breaking his face screamed at her this was really happening. It was coming, the end was here.
Her dilated eyes shot to Dean as her lip began to tremble and her breath began to quake. The strongest man she ever knew now looked like a scared little child lost and alone on a cold night. She could see her love battling within himself to stay strong for them, but in the face of his own demise not even Dean could banish the terror claiming him. He smiled weakly for their sake, but it looked so false in contrast to the fear swimming in his eyes.
Frozen like ice, Haley couldn't move. Every cell inside her body screamed for her to tackle Dean. Glue herself to him, so when hell came calling for the toll they'd have to take her too, but she couldn't move. Fear had paralyzed her where she stood.
Then his face grew tense, alarm piercing his emerald eyes. Dean heard something, saw something they couldn't detect. "Hell hound." He called off a desperate breath.
His feet took off in a second for the other room and they followed, unable to leave his side as death came knocking on the door.
Haley watched in shocked disbelief, her mind almost incapable of comprehending the sight before her, as Lilith was revealed inside of Ruby. Before action could be taken Dean was thrown against the table by her unseen force, and the door flung open by a cold bitches hand.
His tortured grunt filled the room, and echoed in Haley's head as Dean was yanked to the floor. Bile rose in her throat as evil dogs her eyes couldn't see began to eat the love of her life alive. Blood shot from his body as he withered on the ground in agony.
Haley's legs scrambled toward him, driven with need and desperation.
"No! Dean!" Screamed in protest from her lips with a velocity Haley didn't know was inside her.
Dean's body jerked about on the ground yelling in excruciating pain as crimson blood sprayed the floor.
Quickly gathering she wasn't getting closer to him, Haley realized Sam held her by the waist with a deaths grips as he begged Lilith to stop.
Anger shot through Haley's veins as she fought to rip Sam's restraining hands from her.
"Let me go! Sam, let me go!" She ordered in a piercing cry as she bucked in his grasp and yanked to remove his hands. While still trying to scramble closer to her dying love being murdered before her helpless eyes.
Easily stronger then her, Sam's ignored her cries as his grip never lessoned, but only tightened. Saving her from something she couldn't stop. Protecting her from witnessing anymore then she already was, the way he knew his brother would want.
And how can I pretend I never knew you like it was all a dream? NoI know I'll never forget the way I always felt with you beside me, and how you loved me then
The breath stole from Haley's lips as she watched in horror as thick deep claws ripped open Dean's chest. His eyes shot skyward, and the light that made him so irresistible to her instantly disappeared from his emerald eyes. The sight of his body lying limp, the finalization of it all hit her like a crushing blow to the heart.
Tears cascade down her face, like her dying heart.
"No," wrenched from tear moistened lips, a begging tremble to her voice that came from a broken soul.
Even though she couldn't see Sam's face Haley knew the realization his brother was gone had hit him too. Crippling, like a train plowing over him on the tracks, because this time he let go as she crumbled to the ground.
Haley could hear the battle rage on behind her as she painstakingly weak, crawled over to Dean's blood stained corpse. A soulless reminder of the man who held her heart that no longer beat. Chained and tortured in hell somewhere now, a thought so horrific she wished her brain would go numb like her body.
Trembling hands reached out to touch his blood stained face as a sob choked up her throat.
Haley's face shook from side to side unwilling to accept what her eyes were telling her was true. A sight so debilitating it was incomprehensible. A reality so painful it threatened to leave her shattered on the floor where she kneeled, and easily left her begging for the mercy of death.
Unable to resist or stop herself, Haley crumbled down next to him. Her face burrowing in against his blood stained neck, like a small child in need of love.
Her hand clutched at his ripped shirt, holding on so tightly her knuckles turned white, while indescribable fear raced through her veins to avoid his gapping wounds.
Sobs strangled and shook her body as she lie in his crimson blood, desperately clutching all that remained of her beloved.
Trapped in the crook of his blood smeared neck that still smelled like him, a scream sounded in her ears. Blood curdling, it pierced with agonizing pain, and was animalistic in it's pitch. The kind of scream that sent a shiver down the spine of anyone's ear's it dared to reach. It took a moment of hearing the sound, and feeling the emotion of it vibrating through her body before Haley realized it was her lips that howling noise came from.
The feel of arms gripping her tightly registered somewhere inside as the scream carried on.
In a second Haley's eyes shot wide open, and she realized she was struggling in bed. Covered in a cold sweat as that broken scream was still flying from her lips.
Sam filled her vision first as Haley realized his was the hands she felt upon her. She was surprised he was there, and not out with his demon whore peddling his soul through the gutter trying to bring Dean back.
A look of empathetic pity and sorrow swirled in his whiskey eyes as they gazed upon her.
Haley's breath went silent, killing the cry as reality settled in like a bone chilling night all around her. Broken chocolate eyes scanned the room. Taking everything in, she was still at a cheap motel, with faded walls, and thin linens, because she couldn't bear to move on without him, and apparently Sam couldn't either.
Sam sat across from her on the bed, concern swelling in his eyes. His grip released from her arms as his palm gently found her cheek. Tears lined his eyes with understanding of her pain.
"You were dreaming again. It's ok now. " He tried to reassure, as his thumb swept across her supple skin in a comforting gesture.
Tears filled Haley's eyes knowing who wasn't in the room, who would never be in the room with them again. No matter how hard she cried, no matter how loud she screamed, no matter how much her heart begged. Dean would never be there when she woke up, and the throbbing returned to the spot where her heart use to be.
You let me near, then I watched you disappearYou left this emptiness inside and I can't turn back time
A sob rattled her chest as Haley shot up in bed, and dove against Sam with the suffocating feeling she felt inside. The one that made it almost impossible to breathe. There was safety beside Sam, because he was the only person in the world she knew understood how deep the cut went, and he was all that remained of the man who held her heart. A heart now dead and gone like him. Closing her eyes as tears slipped down onto Sam's shoulder, dampening his flannel shirt. Haley nuzzled his salty neck with her nose, searching for the faint hints of her beloved and his brother in Sam's scent.
Sam's arms encircled around Haley. Holding her tight in the lost empty connection. Taking care of his brother's girl like he promised he would, while also finding a sick comfort in the fact that she could relate to him like no one else. They needed each other, if for no other reason then the reminder they stood of the person they both missed most.
Clutching handfuls of Sam with a desperate grip. There was a crawling feeling under her skin as the haunted images from her nightmare still plagued in her mind. Haley choked out the truth on a tortured breath. "Nothing's ever going to be ok again."
Sam's hands tightened around her as his heart ached with the validity of her words and the way they choked him too.
The empty endless pain they lived in never slept, it knew no mercy, and it never lessened in it's degree of agonizing velocity.
Holding her near, because they were all that remained, Sam wallowed in the misery they called home.
"Probably not." His rough breath confirmed, knowing a lie wouldn't suffice and nothing he said was going to make it better anyway.
"Never Be The Same" Red